Juliana's pov:
There was thunder, lightning, and more massive clouds. The clouds grew darker, and the temperature suddenly dropped low, and unawares it began to rain heavily.
It was raining heavily, the rain was pouring heavily on the ground. There was no peep, the pitter-patter of raindrops out from my body and miss with the muddy soil. A strong gift of wind embraced me, the wind had a soothing effect on me and all around everywhere. The gulmohar trees in the woods Sawyer around.
I watched as the rain continued, I watched as it sprinkled from the sky down to the ground and flowed on the dirt making the soil muddy and sticky. The smell of the rain relaxes me a bit and before I knew it the rain stopped. Now that I have started to relax, it looks like I am bound not to deprive any peace. I sighed and stood up and started walking around the woods.
The clouds are now covered with rainbows, the weather is chilling and cold. I sighed as I continued striding inside, I haven't changed back to my old self yet. Since I have been walking through this wood, I still haven't seen my way out and I couldn't walk around like this! Someone might see me and I am damn tired of everyone seeing me as a plague like I wasn't enough. I don't want anyone seeing me in this form, it is damn obvious that no pack is going to accept me after everything.
I can't stay in this wood forever and still, I don't know where to go, it is as if I have been walking around in circles with no destination. I didn't know exactly where I was or where to go from here. I am tired of wallowing in pain and self-pity, this is depressing and frustrating! Instead of all this pain, why can't the moon goddess just kill me or make me vanish into the thin air? Why all this pain? I thought that she was the mother of the whole supernatural but why is she allowing one of her kind to suffer? How can I be grieving and agonizing since my childhood, since my birth?
They all abandoned me, they discarded me and wished for my death. Why didn't the moon goddess bless another person with this curse of a gift, why is it that every bad omen has to fall in my path? I am tired! I am damn tired of this pathetic lifestyle, I know that I am going to die one day but why can't she just annihilate me instead of making me pass through this trauma.
My ear perked up as I heard a noise from the wood, I stood up and slowly started taking a walk in that direction. The more I inch closer the more I keep hearing murmurs.
"It seems that people are here," I murmured almost to myself, before looking for a spot to hide. At some point, I started hearing footsteps, like they were coming toward her. I could feel them approaching, I needed to hide but why? There's no hiding spot around here, so I did the only thing at that moment by running and lurking behind the tree.
"Who is there?" I heard a male voice.
"Show yourself?" This time around there were two voices, I stifled and squeezed my body more inside the tree. I just hope that the tree has a hole so that I can shove myself inside. I pray they won't see me but it looks like I am just an object of mockery in the sight of the moon goddess because not sooner after I prayed I started hearing footsteps behind me. I can feel them, they are almost close to me. I wish for the ground to open and swallow me instead of facing them.
"I can feel someone behind that huge tree," one of the men muttered. I instantly shut my eyes as I felt them coming closer.
"Wha……..
Quietly drawing my eyes open, I saw how terrified and frightened they seemed. They couldn't finish the word as shock and panic flashed on their faces, they looked frightened like they just saw a monster.
" Of course, they saw a monster!" I snarled at myself. Trying to take a step, they screamed **MONSTER!!!** before taking to their heels. My heart pangs at their words. I am supposed to have gotten used to these foul words but my heart has an ear of its own because their reaction twists my heart and breaks it into tiny pieces.
"A MONSTER!!!
" SOMEONE HELP, A MONSTER!!" They kept screaming as they ran away, their feet making a striking sound as they trot out of the place. Their screams were enough to tear my eyes, I felt a liquid dripping out of my eyes down to my cheeks…….
"My tears," I said to myself as I let out a saddening laugh. My eyes started tearing more as my heart ached, this is one of the reasons that I have been hiding from them. I am tired of not fitting anywhere, I am tired of being the reason behind people's fear.
"I am tired of being hurt and wallowing in pain, I deserve to be happy. I am somebody too, my happiness matters……
"Ahh!!" A terrifying cry erupts in my heart, I felt heartbroken and devastated. Their voices can now be heard from a distance, it is like they have run far away from here. I pushed myself out of the tree and moved with wobbled legs toward a nearby tree and plopped myself there, I glanced at myself and noticed that I was still the same. Pointed claws, redshot terrifying eyes, and sharp canines. My body was covered with hair that was as sharp as a razor blade. I laid my head on the bark of the dry tree, shutting my eyes and silent tears rolling down my cheeks. I am tired of crying but here I found myself sobbing and weeping my eyes out.
What could be worse apart from this condemned jinx, apart from a life full of shame and affliction? My heart pangs as my heart aches with tears pouring down my eyes.
Will it ever get better?