“One of the nannies at the orphanage did it to me every time she fucked me.”
My soul seemed to be forcibly pulled out of my body, I swallowed my saliva roughly his arm that wrapped around me tightened even more. That fact was like the wind in winter and formed sharp, pointed ice crystals piercing my scalp.
“I was nine years old at the time and it went on for two years, until I finally ran away from the orphanage and met Ramia.”
My heart fell apart at my feet, oh, my God! How could a child like him experience such a tragic thing?? Tears gathered quickly in my eyes.
“A friend of mine who also lives in the orphanage told Ramia about what I experienced while at the orphanage and the treatment I got from my nanny who turned out to be pedophilic, at that time I decided to run away after she whipped me for refusing to satisfy her.”
My senses and Inner Goddess were mute, tears started to roll down my face and wet my pillow as well, trying my best not to make a sound.
“I didn’t talk to anyone for three years, Ranila was the first person I talked to, she also helped me to get back into my life, I’m still haunted by bad memories while in the orphanage and finally to suppress it I tried drugs , Atika who at that time was my only friend was also involved in problems in her family, her parents divorced, her father was a drunk who didn’t care about her and we lived life as drug addicts and ended up in rehab.”
My head was throbbing in pain, I seemed to have lost my voice, he was really suffering. How bad is that?? All these sad things happened while he was still in his home country, living in the midst of war, running away as an illegal refugee with a sickly mother and hoping to get a better life in someone else’s country, but fate actually gave a life that seemed not on his side. But it was fate that led him to become what he is today and meet me.
“Sleep.”
Sean pressed his face to the back of my head, I tried to close my eyes but the pain he was going through swirled in my mind, I don’t know how long I thought about all that until I finally felt tired and my head felt tired, my eyes started to feel heavy until I finally gave up on my own sleepiness.
***
I dreamed that I saw Sean in the form of a child, beaten and naked on his back, he was crying, I tried to scream for the person who hit him with the rattan whip to stop, but my voice seemed to be blocked by something, my hands were raised, there was a transparent glass wall that separated us, tears streaming down my face my mouth slurred calling for Sean, my hands clenched into fists and then hit the glass wall hard so it broke, the temperature around me rose, sweat suddenly flooded my body the scene in front of me was still ongoing Sean screamed while crying when the person who hit him sodomized him, I covered my mouth while crying loudly, my feet and hands kicked the glass wall that blocked me Sean’s name kept on repeating on my lips then the glass wall broke with a cracking sound that deafened my ears, my body was thrown, faintly, the sound of someone calling my name sounded far away and my body felt shaken, my eyes immediately opened and stared greedily at the situation around me.
“Hey, hey, it’s okay I’m here, honey.”
My eyes looked at Sean’s golden net which implied concern, a glimmer of fear could be seen there.
“Sean,” I squeak, I blink a few times, I can still hear my heartbeat in my ears.
“Yeah, baby, I’m here,” he said and I immediately pulled his head and hugged him, I cried. He is here, he is safe, he is with me, I heard him calm me down, I let go of my hug and he looked back at me then gave me a morning kiss I kissed him back with the feeling of despair I felt in my dream earlier. His position which is currently on top of me and half on top of me arouses my passion, my femininity instantly throbs and feels wet he releases his kiss for a few seconds then sinks his inside me, I take a sharp breath during the penetration process. We made love again under the blankets covering our naked bodies, I wrapped my calves which were still wrapped in stockings and pressed my ass with my heels so he deepened the jab. The nightmare I had just had was soon swallowed up by the pleasures of morning sex, Sean whispering my name as he reached his release after me, his face sinking into my cleavage, the wild morning of this weekend.
“You’re dreaming,” he guessed as his face lifted and looked at me, I nodded and my heart ached at the memory of the dream.
“Don’t think about it, I’m just too worried.” I tried to calm us both down.
“Nothing will hurt me.”
He looked at me confidently, that statement couldn’t erase the worry I had for him, I nodded while closing my eyes. He moved to remove his from inside me then got up from above me, removed the blanket so that our naked bodies were exposed, he got out of bed then brushed his hair with a graceful motion, I got up from my lying position, looked at him while taking off my stockings. Sean walked to his wall in closet, took a towel then wrapped the towel around his waist covering his assets, I left the bed to get my bathrobe.
“I will take a bath.”
He said that with a look of desire, I walked over to him and wrapped my arms around his neck, oh my God! This man is very hot.
“We’re going to take a shower,” I corrected right in front of his lips, staring at him with a sad look from the passion that came back. The next second, Sean carried me in front of his body and led me into the bathroom with him.