“Really??? Oh, Anaaaa... I’m glad to hear that.”
Caroline hugged me tightly then kissed my cheek, but my gaze was still focused on the television screen, my mind was still thinking about what would happen if I told Sean this news.
“What’s this?? You’re not happy??”
I sighed heavily, time to tell my psychic mistress, I really need someone to listen to my opinion and respond to my thoughts openly.
“I’m afraid of Sean’s reaction to this, we haven’t come to an agreement on having children any time soon.”
I folded my arms in front of my chest, I feel guilty for letting this happen, before I promised to put contraceptives but I always forget, our togetherness took the plan out of my mind.
“Sean will accept this sooner or later, you won’t be able to run away from this situation.”
“I know, but Sean doesn’t want to now and I broke my own promise not to get pregnant in the early days of our marriage and now I feel like I’m making it like this on purpose.”
Unlucky! On the one hand I feel guilty, but on the other hand I am angry with Sean and myself for not being able to come to an agreement on this matter.
If Sean wants you to abort the fetus-
I closed my eyes heard that in my mind, no! I can’t abort it even if Sean or this world asks me I will never want to do it. I will fight to defend this fetus, my son. I feel warm on one side on the inside of me when I say the words ‘My son’ oh, my God! I will have a part of Sean.
“Don’t be so hard on yourself, if this has to happen think of it as maybe it’s the solution you need for the problems that are going on between you two.”
Maybe Caroline is right, I turned my face to look at her she smiled her hand holding mine.
“I know you love him and you can get through this.”
I’m amazed at Caroline who has high optimism, unlike me who always thinks of the worst first. I immediately hugged her looking for strength there, what would I be without her? Tears stab in the back of my eyes I really am my mama’s child, whiny and melancholic. Caroline stroked my hair and hugged me back.
“I’m here, Ana, whatever happens between you and Sean just call me, just pretend I’m your first aid and our house will always be a safe house.”
I sobbed hearing her say that, family will always be the best place to come back to. Caroline patted my back as I sobbed as I calmed down I opened my arms and looked at her.
“You really are your mother’s daughter, Ana.”
We laughed at the same time at her words, oh my God! What if she’s not here with me anymore?! Rumors about her going to head a production house in Hollywood weren’t just rumors she was going to stay away from me.
“When are you going to Hollywood??”
I wiped the tears from my face with the handkerchief I had lent her on her wedding day.
“I’m moving out next year in January.”
Her smile is radiant, I smile with a sparkling face Caroline deserves this achievement she is a great woman, independent and tough, tougher than me.
“I’ll be visiting often,” I promised then she pointed at me with her index finger and looked at me with a serious look.
“Promise me??!”
I nodded and she clapped once with her toothpaste ad smile.
For the rest of the day, Caroline accompanies me in the apartment. Telling a lot of things like we used to do when we were both managers and singers, until nine o’clock at night, she rushed home because Andrew called her, I walked her to the main door and said her goodbyes, she gave me a special hug that would I always need and miss.
**
I sat on the bed massaging my aching calf, lately I’m very easily tired maybe because of my pregnancy, Grace’s doctor advised me not to be too busy and do activities that drain a lot of energy. The bedroom door opened revealing the figure of Sean who had just arrived, I smiled and stood up to him his arms opened for me I immediately went into his arms, inhaling his heavenly scent pressing my cheek to his chest, his lips kissing the top of my head and his nose inhaling the scent of my hair.
“I missed you, how are you?”
I smiled at his confession, I opened our arms and looked at him.
“I’m fine.”
I decided not to go into detail, he just got home and I didn’t want to argue. He smiled his relieved smile then his lips found mine kissing mine hard and deep I replied the same way. I miss him so much, my days feel empty without him around me. Our tongues danced and intertwined pouring out our passion and longing. My hands ruffled his hair while both of his hands squeezed my ass, passion began to race through my body, the kiss moved to my jaw and continued down my neck. His hands pulled the straps of my dress which was in the front so that my body which was only wearing underwear was immediately visible, he then pushed the thing out of my shoulder.
His gaze gleamed with my favorite passion that I missed so much, a week without his touch made my mood almost break. He smiled with his seductive gaze my cheeks felt hot I reflexively looked down and gave him a shy smile, I bit my lower lip because of the excitement that was slowly building up in the bottom of my stomach.
“I miss you so much Ana, a week without seeing and touching you is driving me almost crazy.”
His hand moved to caress my cheek with the back of his fingers I removed the dress I was still wearing from my body so that I only wore underwear and stockings of the same color as my skin. I stepped back a little away from him I dared myself to look at him, his eyes widened in amazement as he looked at me then his gaze turned intense, that gaze gripped my passion that was currently building up inside of me.
“I miss my punishment,” I said, my face burning with embarrassment when I peeked at Sean through my eyelashes. Oh, yeah! I miss his kinky sex, I turned away from him to his wall in closet then took his hermes belt, my favorite belt and stood posing in the middle of our room posing like a blue movie player I know right now I must look like a bitch but I it doesn’t matter he’s my husband and I’m his wife. Sean took off the body fit suit he was wearing with a graceful motion, then removed the buttons on both wrists, his gaze never left mine, our gazes locked with each other. Then he took off his expensive watch put it on a small cabinet with three drawers, after that he unbuttoned his top shirt while walking towards me, I swallowed my saliva harshly at this tantalizing sight, my femininity throbbed as he got closer to me, he pulled my shirt his shirt left his body so he was only wearing his black jeans when he arrived right in front of me at a very close distance.
My eyes greedily admired her body, oh my God! She is so beautiful all the muscles in her body are perfectly formed, I caressed her broad chest using the tips of my fingers and slid to her plaid stomach stopping above the buttons of her jeans. I turned my face to look at him asking his approval to take off his jeans.
“I’m yours, honey,” he said with a wild and hot gaze I dropped the hermes belt which I was currently holding beside my body, then with slightly trembling hands unbuttoned his jeans, this feeling was more fun and thrilling than opening my birthday present. I tucked my thumbs into the hem of his jeans then pulled the thing down, he helped me to leave it completely. My hand moved gently to rub his erection which was still covered by his boxers, I heard Sean take a sharp breath and let it out while letting out a sigh at the end of his breath. My lips smile full of wild desire imagining this thing inside of me is always more than pleasant.