Sana Pov's
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Alex was about to say something but then he stopped when his eyes went to the plate of food.
"Fuck... how can I be so careless? You haven't eaten anything after breakfast" He muttered and stood up from the bed.
"Alex... Please first say what you were about to tell me" I asked impatiently.
"Sana... we will talk about it later but first please have something"
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I was about to argue but he brought the plate of food near me and then extended the spoon, full of pasta, towards me. I look at him and then eat it with his hand.
"One thing I came to know today... I'm a useless person who can't even take care of his loved ones"
"Please don't say this" I mumbled after finishing the food in my mouth.
"Then what should I say or do? Irene was my responsibility and I give that responsibility to that bastard, Stefan, who tried to control her life. He told me how he used to behave with her. He never let her go anywhere. He doesn't let her eat what she wants... he doesn't let her meet with anyone" He frowned. He was furious but still fed me properly with his hand. I also made him eat food while my mind kept revolving around his words which brought me back to the past.
"Maybe it's for her safety. Richard never let me go outside after my marriage and I always asked his permission before doing anything. He also stopped me from eating anything unhealthy" I said.
"First thing if it's about your safety then he can be with you instead of stopping you" He grunts.
"But he used to tell me that he wanted no one to see me. He wants to protect me from the whole world."
"Or say he wanted to cage you in his palace." Alex reason out. "He doesn't want anyone to see because he wanted to hide you from the whole world. He wanted to hide your existence." I didn't reply to him, knowing somewhere he was right. I also felt this many times. The more I spend time with Alex, the more I realised my marriage with Richard is nothing but a toxic cage where I was stuck and was trying to accommodate that prison.
"What happened?" He asked.
"Nothing... just seeing the mirror of my life" I laughed thinking about my painful past. Everyone was deceiving me.
"Why are you laughing Sana?" He asked. I could sense that he is worried for me.
"Don't worry... I'm ok" I said, wiping tears from the corner of my eyes. "I'm done... I want to sleep" I mumbled and went to the washroom to clean my hand. When I came back Alex was still seated on the bed holding the plate in his hand, lost in a deep breath.
I went towards him and took a plate from his hand and kept it on a table. He looked at me and then at the plate.
"I'm sorry... I wish that day when you morphed into a wolf for this first. I hadn't let you return to your pack. I'm sorry" he mumbled.
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I didn't reply to him and went to the other side of the bed. I lay down thinking about us.
"Don't know what is waiting for me and Alex. Would we ever be able to be together? Would I be able to forgive him for leaving me there? Well, I don't even know if he is at fault or not. But I know, now I can't even trust my shadow. In my whole life, everyone betrays me and now I can't handle one more pain"
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I was lost in my thoughts when I felt that he lay down on another side of the bed. He was moving continuously in bed, maybe trying to sleep.
"Sana" He called out my name and I don't how but I can sense that he needs me. I turn towards him and rest my head on his chest. He smiled and embraced me in his arms tightly.
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We didn't share any words after that, just feeling each other and trying to find peace. After while darkness consumed me.
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In the morning, I opened my eyes when the sun's rays fell on my face. I moved on to the bed to hold Alex and hide my face in his chest but I couldn't as I felt something heavy on my chest. I opened my eyes wide when I found his head on my chest.
He was holding me by the waist and his head was on my chest. A smile came to my face seeing him sleeping like a baby and my heartbeat rose to see our position.
"Alex," I whispered. He moved his head a little in his sleep and his one hand moved a little above touching my boobs from the side. I never felt like this and I'm wet with his mere touch.
Why can he affect me like this? I removed a few strands of hair from his forehead. He looked so cute and handsome while sleeping. I can stare at him like this all day. He opened his eyes when I moved my thumb on his cheeks. I was about to take my hand back but he held it and then kissed my palm lovingly.
He moved back and looked at me, then he sat straight.
"I'm sorry... I don't know how I slept like that. I'm genuinely sorry.. please don't get angry" I didn't give any reaction to his words.
"Please say something. I'm sorry." He mumbled and then held his hair. "I should have been careful. why I always fucked up." He started cursing himself.
"Please don't get mad Sana" He again apologised when I didn't say anything and then I started laughing seeing how much he was scared of my reactions.
"You're so afraid of me," I giggled.
"You" He also joined me. We both laugh together. He then looks at me from top to toe...
"Have some mercy queen" He muttered and then immediately stood up from the bed.
"Ohh god.. today is the Luna ceremony... How can I forget this" He said and the smile on my face vanished hearing him. It reminds me of all of the things that happened between us, especially the way Dominic marked me without my will.
"What happened?" He asked and sat beside me.
"Nothing special that I'm not used to. In my whole life, other people have made decisions about my life. Like the way you and Dominic marked me and now this Luna ceremony... don't worry, I'm used to it. Tell me when I have to get ready and present be there as your mate" I said, looking into his eyes
"I was compelled to mark you, Sana. I wanted to save you and Maya and I had no option except marking you" He uttered the same thing again. I didn't reply and went to the washroom frustratingly.
I know he is right and he is compelled to do that but still don't know why I couldn't accept him and I can't deny the truth that again I'm bound to an unwanted relationship.
Before I was in the cage of a toxic relationship and this time I am caged in my saviour's arms.
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