Alex Pov's
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I was taking a hot shower to calm myself but nothing was working. The incident happened a while before, roaming in my mind. I knew from the beginning that she was not ready for our relationship. I also told Dominic that maybe Sana will not like it if we mark her and my anticipation came true.. she thinks our mate bonds as a cage. Whenever I thought, she had a feeling for me, and in the next moment, everything changed. she was so furious that I marked. I wish his anger would have subsided by the time I go out. she didn't even realise what she uttered when she got furious. today for the first time I yelled at her and I hate that moment. her pain, tears, harsh words everything hurts me as someone stabbed me in the heart with a knife. I wanted to tell her that I love her but there is no profit when she told me that she had no feelings for me. She is not ready for this relationship. my eyes went to my reflection in the mirror. I touched my mate's mark on my shoulder. It is indeed beautiful showing her sweet and kind nature. what game destiny has played with us. The moment which is precious to me is like a bad dream for her. a painful smile came on my face.
"No matter what queen? your king will win your heart" I sighed thinking about what I have to do next.
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After taking a long shower I wore my clothes and went outside. She was still sitting on the ground thinking about something deep. I went towards her and kept my hand on her shoulder which scared her and she screamed.
"Please leave me.. please.. don't come near me please" she pleaded going back.
"Sana" I went towards her and held her hand but she pushed me away.
"no please.. leave me please" she mumbled. It didn't take me long to understand that she was thinking about her past, panicking and also she didn't recognize me and misunderstood me as Andrew.
"Sana it's me.. your Alex '' she was still trying to push me mumbling the same words again and again, pleading to me to leave her.
"Please let me go, please" her whole face turned red because of crying. I grabbed her shoulder and jerked her.
"Sana"
"leave me"
"Sana" this time I called her loudly. She stopped crying and looked around at me. she realised that it was past....her painful past. She hugged me and dug her face in my chest, started crying. I didn't say anything and caressed her in my arms, moving my hand lovingly on her hair. After half an hour she calmed down. I broke the hug and wiped her tears, and kissed her forehead. she closed her eyes.
"Now no more tears.. get up and freshen up. I will send a pair of cloth for you with the maid"
"Why do you leave me alone?" she asked. I look at her confusingly.
"I'm just going to bring breakfast for you"
"You always leave me alone.," she said. I took her in my arms.
"I'm not going anywhere. I told you I'm not going to leave you no matter what" she didn't say anything and rested her head on my chest and clutched my shirt.
"I want to sleep," she mumbled.
"this time?"
"Hmm," she hummed. I picked her up in my arms and made her lay on the bed. I also lay down beside her. She turned towards me and rested her head on my chest above my chest. I don't know why her silence is haunting me about the upcoming storm. I can say that the calmer she is looking from the outside, the bigger the storm is going on inside her. I just wish, whatever it is, she let out all. I don't want her to suffer all alone. I want her to share her pain with me.
"please moon goddess do something that she realised my love." I thought looking at the sleeping beauty in my arms.
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I didn't know till when I kept gazing at her. When she opened her beautiful eyes, a smile came to my face. I kissed her hair.
"How are you feeling now?" She didn't say anything and sat.
"Sana, are you still mad at me?"
"How can I be angry with you? You also know that in the end, I would have come to you only"
"That's right," I agreed. she look at me with devastating eyes, full of remorse
"you willingly come to me when I will win your heart"
"your care, your so-called love, your words.. each and everything made me feel like I'm in a cage.. cage of Safe hand" Tears rolled down from her but she quickly wiped them off.
"I promise you one day, you will lovingly come to my cage," I said with determination. She sighed and was about to get up from the bed but I held her hand.
"what do you want to eat? It's lunchtime, '' I asked. She tried to release her hand from my grip but I didn't let her go.
"What?" she frowned.
"I asked what you want to eat?"
"Ohh so now if I don't answer you then you will force me" she scoffed.
"Well, I will not force you directly but you will answer me at your own will," I muttered. She turned her face to the other side. I could see she was having a hard time controlling her anger.
"leave my hand" She again tried but failed miserably. I laughed and kissed her knuckles. Soon her expression changed into shock. she tried... She tried her best not to show any emotion but failed when I kissed her cheeks. She clutched the bedsheet. I parted away, staring at my queen.
"Alex"
"yes"
"don't do this," she mumbled.
"What am I doing?" I asked, acting innocently.
"You don't know what you 're doing," she glared at me. ok.. now I understand why people say it's better to be single. In my whole life, no one dared to even look into my eyes and this girl was glaring at me angrily. I giggled at the things changing rapidly.
"Why are you laughing?" she hit my chest angrily.
"Sorry, I didn't mean to annoy you. it's just that I laughed at myself. In my whole life, no one dared to glare at me and here I looked at my fearless queen looking at me with so much love." I teased her and kissed her at the corner of her lips. she closed her eyes. I took her lower lip in my mouth and sucked it.
"Alex" she moaned, arching her back. I left her lip and kissed her chin.. she clutched the bedsheet more tightly because of the sensation... If Dominic would be here then I'm sure I could smell her arousal as well.
"heck. I love the way your body reacts to me" I started kissing her jawline.
"Alex" she moaned louder when I lightly bit on her shoulder where I marked her. she parted her lips.
"You want something duchess," I said again, kissing near her lips... I was intentionally not kissing her lips.
"please"
"You want me to kiss you?" I asked. she nodded
"I will. first, tell me what is your favourite dish" I asked. She didn't reply. I suck her earlobe, touching her belly sensually with my fingers
"Ohh moon goddess" She moaned
"Tell me what you want to eat, otherwise you won't get anything." I removed my hand and lips from her body. she opened her eyes frustratingly
"Answer me, duchess"
"I don't know"
"huh?"
"I eat whatever I get, never think of something like that," she said... I felt an emptiness in her eyes.
"Do you like Cassoulet?" I asked.
"I will have anything, but right now if you didn't kiss me then I will make sure you will never get a chance to do it" She frowned. I chuckled and attached my lips to her.. kissing her deep and passionately. she moaned which is enough for my junior to show his presence. after a long smooch.. we parted away, panting heavily.
"I told you will willingly tell me" I grinned. her eyes shoot up as she realises what happened now. she slapped my chest
"you" She was about to hit me again but I held her hand about her head. she breathed heavily and suddenly her expression changed like she was trying hard not to panic. I immediately left her hand as I realised that I reminded her of her past. I kissed her forehead. she immediately calms down and looks into my eyes.
"Whatever happened now was not just to make you spit out what you have to eat.. I meant everything that happened just right now" a smile broke on her lips. she shyly lowered her eyes...
"Fuck… this girl is driving me crazy" I thought.
"well, that's a different thing. I made you utter everything '' I teased her, capturing her beautiful face in my heart. she rolled her eyes and realised her hand from my grip when I was busy staring at her. I was about to hold her but before that, she stood up.
"aww sorry, Alpha.. try next time" she teased me showing her tongue and running towards the washroom. I laughed at her cuteness. I know when she realised what happened between us just now her smile vanished. she is not mentally ready for this relationship but her heart already accepted me.