Sana Pov's
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I was blanked after confessing everything to him. After talking about his betrayal I started thinking about what Richard did to me that day. I was begging in front of him to leave me but he didn't. He made me so vulnerable. I remember how I used to cry in front of him when he used to take me.
I closed my eyes when I felt Alex's hand on my hand. I shoved his hand away.
"Sana" he called my name. I can feel his pain... pain to see me like this. But I don't know how I should react. I want to cry, scream and forget everything.
"Please Sano say something. I can't see you like this baby. cry, scream or do whatever you want just please don't stay silent" he said. I look at him and see how much he is in pain.
"I want to forget everything, Alex... I want to forget Richard's touch. I want to forget that day. I want to forget my marriage days." I muttered. He didn't say anything and held my hand.
"I wish I could do that, my queen" I again shoved his hand away.
"I want to forget that you deceived me. You abandoned me. I want to forget that I fought with Richard for you. I want to forget that I love you" I yelled. This time he didn't hold my hand but took me in his embrace. He hugged me tightly.
"I.. Sana" he mumbled. I can feel that he wanted to say so many things to me but controlled himself for me, to handle me.
Despite everything again I ended up in his arms. I know that this is the only place where I feel peaceful and secure.
"You know what is the worst part, Alex? I wanted to forget everything that you did but All I want is to remember you... Only you. your love, your care, your arms." tears roll down my eyes.
He didn't say anything and brought me closer to him, making me sit on his lap. I crossed my legs around his waist. He cupped my face and kissed on my forehead then on my eyelids, and then sucked my tears. He was kissing every corner of my face, making me forget everything except him.
He attached his lips to mine and started sucking my lower lip with love.
"Alex" I moaned and gave excess to him in my mouth. We both were kissing each other with all our hearts. He was giving me what I asked. He made me forget everything. All I remember is him, his touch, his care, his love. He broke the kiss when I got out of breath.
He smiled and again kissed my forehead bringing a smile to my face. He made me lay on the bed and started kissing my neck. Rubbing his body with mine, creating heat between us.
"Ohh God, Alex" I moaned loudly when his proud member touched my core. I closed my eyes, feeling him all over my body. I never felt like this... It is all new to me. He kept roughing his body with mine and his member was poking my core creating friction between us... He was just making me feel how it would feel when he was inside me.
"Alex" I moaned loudly this time as I hit the climax. He smiled and hid his face in my neck, taking deep breaths and giving me small kisses. where I was trying my best to bring my breath back to normal.
Despite being in a marriage for 6 months I never felt like this. My smile vanished when the thought of my past marriage came into my mind... I started thinking about the nights when Richard took me and a shiver ran through my body... Those pain.. those scary nights when he used to take me.
Alex was leaving hickeys on my neck and shoulder but nothing was working.
"Stop" I screamed and closed my eyes. I was breathing heavily and I could feel that he stopped touching me. I opened my eyes and found him staring at me.
"Alex," I mumbled. He didn't say anything and removed himself from me. I already started missing his touch. I cursed myself for thinking about Richard when I was with him and also for stopping him.
"I'm sorry... I don't know what happened to me suddenly. I started remembering my past... he used to ``I stopped and clutched his shirt.
"I'm sorry" I muttered. He didn't say anything and brought me closer to him.
Alex took me in his arms and kissed my hair.
"Sleep.. you will feel better" he mumbled.
"Alex"
"I said sleep, Sana," he called me Sana which was enough indication for me that he is pissed at me. Tears welled up in my eyes.
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Alex Pov's
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I was adoring her beauty, inhaling her scent, kissing her neck... We were enjoying our moment.. making each other feel special... I know, I can't make her forget her past but at least I can make her feel she is mine... Only mine...
I wanted to make her feel me. Feel my love, my care, my passion for her. I wanted to make her feel everything and yes I also wanted to forget everything and only remember me. I kept rubbing her body with mine until she hit the organism.
She is so sensitive. I kissed her neck and started giving a love bite on her when my eyes went on her.
She had fear in her eyes and suddenly she screamed to stop me. I halted my move and looked at her.
She was breathing heavily while closing her eyes. It didn't take me long to understand that she was thinking about her past. Don't know how much she has faced. how Richard used to treat her.
She opened her eyes and said sorry to me. I embraced her in my arms and asked her to sleep but she started crying.
"Now why are you crying?" I grunted. Doesn't she get to know till now that I can't see tears in her eyes?
"You called me Sana" She sobbed
"huh?" I scrunched my eyebrow confusingly.
"You never called me Sana but just now you called me by my name. why? Are You pissed on me?" she complained innocently and a smile came on my face.
This girl.. does she even know how she expressed her feelings without saying anything. Yes, I was pissed but not her. I was pissed at myself because I didn't recognize her. If I would then I might have not let her go and save her from Richard. Then maybe she never had to face his cruelty. She would be happy with me and doesn't need to fear anything.
I was about to clear her misunderstanding but with her next word, my sense blew away.