Why did I feel like he owed me something?
Why did u feel like I was betrayed by him?
I don’t like Luca, I never did, why did it hurt then?
My chest filled with anxiety and pain, my heart was filled with sadness, I could still feel her eyes on mine, I could still hear the words that she said to me, I could still see the way he looked at me, I could still feel everything that was happening.
I didn’t like it, I didn’t enjoy the thought of it, the more I thought about it, the more I felt my chest tighten against my heart, he is not cheating on me, it’s not like I even cared for him that time, it’s not like I could ever care for him.
I was with Conrad when it happened, yet I could not stop the tears that fell against my chest.
The moment I heard the crack of the door opening, I wiped my tears.
"I am in no mood to have any sort of conversation with you Luca." I breathed out, I didn’t dare to turn and look at him, I didn’t want to, most of all, I didn’t want him to see my face, I don’t want him to know I have been stupid and I have been crying.
When I didn’t hear a word, I felt tempted to turn around which I did and my eyes met Ares.
"Did Luca send you here?" I whispered as I settled on the bed, he stood but the door.
"He didn’t- don’t lie Ares," I whispered cutting him off, his eyes were on mine briefly as he stared at me, I didn’t know what to say.
"You care for him don’t you, you like him."
"I don’t, I am terrified of him, he knows things many don’t know about me, I am not even sure that my husband completely sold him to him without being tormented and threatened. He tried to kill a man and he made me watch, he made me look at his body, his bloody body, he says things that infuriate me, he makes me think that he can control me, he kept me as a prisoner and he forced me to meet mt family, I don’t like him Ares I could never like him. Luca wants control and it’s something I would never give to them, he wants me to be what he wants." I spoke, my voice firm, I didn’t let him crack, I didn’t let it sound like I was about to cry.
I watched as Ares headed further into the room, his eyes on mine.
"You still feel for him, even if it’s a little, you would not be here, filled with anger."
"I am filled with anger because my sister just humiliated me, I am filled with anger because she made it look like I am a fool like she always had; she always tried to bring me down; to hurt me," I whispered against my breath.
It felt like my air was being restrained, it felt like I had no control over myself and it felt like I just wanted her gone, I wanted to hurt her for all she has done to me, all she has caused to me, I wanted to hurt her for making me feel pain, making me feel anger and for making me feel like she has control over everything.
"Lying is not going to help."
"You don’t know me, can you stop?" I breathed out. "I do not like Luca:"
"You are stuck in your room and you wanted him to leave your room because you thought I was him."
"Because I am still mad he dragged me out there to meet my family, because I am still upset that that he hurt Stanley and he made me watch, because I am is still upset that he didn’t let me leave the house, I f don’t want to go be a prisoner," I whispered against my breath.
I didn’t want I admit the way I truly felt, admitting myself as I felt it truly, but if I denied it, I would have control and I didn’t want to lose control.
"Can you just leave Ares?" I whispered
Without saying a word he left the room, I felt horrible for what I said to him and the way I spoke; maybe he walked in to try and mask me feel better, maybe he walked in because he heard what happened, he may be saying some part of the truth but that’s not what I want to hear at the moment.
I didn’t want to listen to any life about Luca, yet I could hear his words radiating through my mind, I have to be strong, I can’t met her bring me me down, I wiped the tears that fell against my cheek, I stared across my room for a second before I headed out of my room.
Aria always finds a way do hurt me, she always finds a way to try and make me unhappy but not now, it’s being over five years since I left the house, it’s being one five years since she saw me and she still do the same thing but not anymore, I want to bring an end to all of it.
I stared at the wall for a second before I headed out of the room, my heart still beating against my ribcage, my eyes filled with tears as the scammed of her face came rushing back to me and I wiped my tears, I am not weak and I would never be weak.
"I am sorry for hurting your feelings," Aria said the moment she saw me. What did he say to her, she didn’t have that smile on her face, it looked like she was scared, like she had been threatened, the more I stared, I realized.
"Can we just have a good dinner?" I spoke, ignoring her, she didn’t mean what she said. I am sure he threatened her, I am sure that she wanted to die that’s why she said what she said and I can’t let her know that she affected me.
"It’s going to me mom’s anniversary this weekend," Father spoke and I stared at him, I didn’t say what was on my mind, I couldn’t let him know that I cared.
You already did, my subconscious spoke and I unconsciously rolled my eyes, I didn’t even have any control over myself or whatever.
"Olivia your father is speaking to you."
"Is that why you are here in this city because you want to see her?" I asked, they buried her here, I never asked why because he didn’t let me come but when I found out, all I wanted to do was see her.
"Yes, she meant a lot to me-oh please," I whispered cutting him off. "Can you not do this, this pretense to be a perfect family, is this because Luca is here, you want to show off in front of the Alpha, that’s pathetic," I spoke, my chuckle filled with bitterness, What did he think was going to happen?
He will find them, he will smile. He didn’t even want to find me; he came here with his perfect family and he saw me by chance and if not for Luca, they would not be here, If I were with Conrad, they would not even think about coming close to me.
"Your mother cared for me- mother was stupid. She didn’t see through your manipulation and I did and I saw the way you treated her but all she wanted is to make sure that you are happy and you took advantage of her, love is not when someone will stay with you does it’s your mistake, love is when they are willing to let go even if your mistake always going to be a constant reminder, you didn’t care when you forced Aria on us, when you didn’t care that it would hurt her and you didn’t even care that she would be mad when she cry herself to sleep every light, you were singing to your perfect little princess." I yelled.
He can’t want to have a perfect family, it’s never going to work like that,
"This is pathetic, this explains why Luca is never going to find your mate: I see your neck, there is no mark, just a bit of something that says you have been rejected, you are nothing but pathetic, and you are saddened by the fact that your father chooses us over you. I mean you are just like your mother, pathetic, begging for attention-" she was about to say when my hand made contact with her face
The sound echoed through the room, I stared at her with anger written all over my eyes, she has no idea how she makes me feel
"Leave before I do something I regret," Luca yelled.