Chapter 81
I want to live… But my death is already bound to happen.
I wish I wasn’t me… then maybe things will be different ..
Almost every night for years, I find myself stepping into the light before I can feel any sensation in my body as if I am slowly disappearing. It was as if the wind was blowing me away like ash.
Night after night with every sleep I have nightmares and I find myself dying over and over again and getting to the point where I dread sleep itself. I was only 10 years old.
I wish I wasn’t me… I wish I wasn’t Luke Bauxacel, the son of Laramie and Zeus. That way I don’t have to suffer like this.
“You’re already giving up?” I looked up and we hit the sight of a goddess with gray (Gray) hair and eyes.
She’s Laramie, the goddess of tears. My mother.
He walked closer to me before kneeling in front of me. “You just see your death, can't you? Sooner or later, you will also see the imminent death of the people around you. Death of the people you love and the scheduled incidents and disasters that will take the lives of many people ”
I didn’t say a word and just quietly listened to his words that were not appropriate for a ten year old child but unlike normal kids my age, I didn’t cry.
I was eight years old when I started dreaming of things that were destined to happen. I inherited this ability from my mother who was a goddess but less than half my ability compared to her.
Mama has not yet reached the peak of her power so instead of white, her hair and eyes are gray but I am sure that the day will come when they will also be pure white.
He held me with both arms so his attention returned to him and I stared into his eyes with very deep looks as if he could see and read my secrets.
“I know that for you this ability is a curse because that's how I used to think, I tried to close my eyes so that I could no longer see these visions. I tried to make spells that would take away this ability of mine because I could no longer see the death of people, whether I knew it or not. Until your father dies ”
I stopped when I heard what he said. This is the first time he has talked about my real father.
"Because of my insistence on removing my ability to see the future, I did not see the imminent death of a single creature that I value… our ability is not a curse Luke… It's a gift"
At first I did not understand the meaning of those words. How could this ability of mine be a ‘gift’ when the day comes when I can even dream of the death of the people around me. I only understood the value of this ability when I was eleven years old.
For the first time, I dreamed of the death of another person.
"Alissa!"
He was walking out of the palace with his father General Alen but they were stopped at the same time because of my call. It looks like they came from the palace hall and had a conversation with king hermes.
"Luke!" Alissa's smile widened as she turned in my direction and our eyes met before she ran towards me dragging General alen who was just shaken.
"Are you going home?" I asked calmly even though my hands were shaking and my chest was still beating so fast because of the dream I had before I woke up.
Alissa nodded before laughing and pointing at me. "Did you just wake up? You still have dry saliva ”
I felt ashamed because of what he said but I didn't notice it and wiped my face with my white robes that I use for sleeping.
"What do you need, your highness?" General Alen asked me. I told him several times that he would just call me Luke but he insisted and said that was not possible so I did nothing.
"Uhh…" I didn't answer right away. I didn't really need anything but I had to stop them from coming home.
Exactly when they arrived at Plaza De Rinos that they would pass on their way home to Knoxx manor, there were rebels attacking the carriage they were riding in who would kill them both. I still remember how general Alen fought the rebels to the death while Alissa was inside the carriage, watching the whole incident.
They were accompanied by only four guards on the way home and even though they were level 6 users, they were none of the large number of rebels who attacked them.
"Your highness?" my attention returned to the present and saw earlier that Alissa and General Alen had been waiting for me to speak.
“Oh, right… I need a companion… companion to… buy a new…”
"Underwear?"
"Yes- I mean no!" I immediately replied that Alissa laughed at her.
"Alissa, that's not the way you should act in front of the crown prince" General Alen disobeyed him so Alissa immediately lost her smile and bowed.
"Uh, I'm sorry-"
"I mean yes" I don't know why I said that as long as it just came out of my mouth. “Yes .. I need new… uh… underwear”
I looked away but I knew Alissa was smiling again and holding herself back from laughing.
With that, I took Alissa and General Alen to the shopping district. The Shopping district and Plaza De Rinos are on different roads so after we shopped in the shopping district, Alissa and General Alen returned home safely.
"This better be important" mama said to me as soon as she entered my room here in the palace. "I already told you that I can't come here as often as before-"
“Who’s Psyche?” he stopped speaking because of my question.
"You met her?"
“No… I saw her in one of my dreams” I remembered in my dream that Psyche was the name of the person who planned the attempt on their life Alissa.
Mama nodded before walking to the window. The moonlight hit her hair which gradually turned white.
“Psyche is the one who killed your father…”
"Why is he trying to take Alissa's life?"
“Alissa? Alissa Knoxx? ”
"Yes"
"... Psyche is probably surrounded if Diana is Anna so she's targeting the Knoxx"
"He's targeting the Knoxx?"
"I'm not sure yet… as far as I know, he can even target if he knows you have the ability to glimpse events like me so it's better not to know first"
That's what he told me but contrary to what he ordered, how many times have I known. Several times I stopped Psyche's attempt at the Knoxx family and came to the point where it was obvious that Psyche and the royal family were also suspicious.
To be continued....