“Now if we are talking, before you start that treatment we must go out one night,” I nod and we enter the house.
“God this pregnancy is not funny,” I hear my wonder complain, “I'm only 12 weeks old and look at the size of my belly, the doctor has told me that I will have to take care of myself,” I smile when I see her spread out on the sofa with the baby on her belly.
“And still you don't stay still Sweet, you have to take care of yourself babe,” that relationship is quite interesting to me, a dominant man simply goes through everything to see a woman happy, it is incredible but true.
“You must take care of yourself wonderful, your unbearable is right,” I smile looking at her, those eyes so lively and blue enchanted me from the first time I saw them sad and dull.
“What we are saying is that you should stay still woman,” my beauty intervenes, “you should stop being such a little ant and be from one side to the other, look at that, you are driving the beast crazier and I did not think that was possible,” the two laugh while my brother-in-law starts to growl with my daughter in his arms.
“You don't be like them honey, you must be calm and always be on the side of your heroes,” he kisses her on the forehead, “we must go, the lady lives in the west and there is always a roadblock on that side of the bridge.” I get up and take my daughter in my arms, worry and nerves are giving me that damn unbearable headache, but as always I try not to show my discomfort.
All ready in Kahin's truck there is a silence that is filled by the babbling of Kahin JR, I know that everyone is very worried about the results that the woman will give us, the tension is taking over with me, I can bear that there is no longer hope for me, but I know they'll get bad.
"The woman didn't say anything to you when you brought her my urine a month ago?" I ask helplessly.
“No,” Kahin replies, “she should talk to you, it is you who will get the results,” I nod and say no more.
“How is it possible that she knows what a person has just by seeing his urine?” Asks my beauty.
“Witch then,” answers my wonder laughing, “I don't know how it is possible, but if it can help my sun I don't care how she does it,” listening to them makes my heart want to heal me with more strength.
After 2 long hours of traffic we arrive at a little town with dirty streets, there are children playing and running, everything is different from the city, the air is fresher and there are many trees, Fatima would have been horrified, thank God that she stayed in Italy.
“This is beautiful, we should move to a place like this,” I admire everything, I see that Kahin stops in front of a house made half of concrete and the other half of straw?
“It's here, come on,” Kahin goes down, I turn to see the girls.
“They should stay here with the babies, I will tell them what they have told me,” they exchange glances and without paying any attention to me, each one takes their baby and goes down, I snort, I can't help it with them. My heart beats too fast, now that I think about it I don't know if I can handle the situation if this is not what we expect.
“Welcome everyone,” the woman is Indian, I smile when I see her, here in Panama they are very different, “you are the patient,” she says looking at me, I am not surprised, perhaps they gave her the information, “very difficult life and now very happy,” I raise my eyebrow and look at Kahin who shrugs, “come, come on here. Here come,” she doesn't speak Spanish very clearly, she takes me by the hand and sits me on a bench, Kahin doesn't move away from my side and I appreciate that, the girls are distracted by the other women, “you are very sick, I can help you, but first help yourself, a lot of faith in God, follow directions and take good care of yourself. I help them to do an operation to save your life, you follow my treatment to the letter, do not eat coloring, pure roast without salt, do not drink guaro. Guaro,” she makes the sign to take it with her hand, but I do not understand what she is talking about.
“It's alcohol, here in Panama we say that to alcoholic drink,” Kahin clarifies.
“Don't drink water, just mine,” she gets up and shows me a huge pot, “I cook healing leaves, I do a lot of research on cancer, I go to Brazil to the jungle and look for many remedies,” she smiles at me, “you live longer, wish it from the heart,” she places her hand on my chest, “have faith a lot of faith,” out of nowhere I feel two thin bodies hugging me tightly.
“You can heal, you can continue with us,” the cry of my wonder makes me smile, when I see my beauty and my daughter my eyes crystallize, I have a new opportunity and no matter how minimal I am going to take advantage of it, although I must go through a lot, I am willing to do it. In the operating room, there are risks, but there is also the possibility that everything will go well.
“Start taking for 3 months, then go to the doctor for an operation, if risks, but have faith, then come with me and continue treatment, do not leave it when feeling good, continue with it until I say stop,” I listen to all the recommendations, the girls attack her with questions, I still cannot believe that there is a possibility of being able to get out of this, that woman did not even mention that it was late, she only said that she could help me and that is too easy for me.
“To know that you have long to live you are very serious,” Kahin noticed.
I am totally in a cloud, “I know and I'm happy, I have a chance to live more without suffering much, but ... Damn I was just waiting for the time when I couldn't handle my pain anymore so that my Wonder would give the order and they would put me to sleep and now that woman only sees my urine, looks me in the eyes and tells me I'll be fine. Isn't this crazy? It's that fucking crazy, I just can't believe it, this is unreal, there's no cure for cancer ...”
“There is and it is God,” interrupts my beauty, “the woman said it, she can help you, but you must have all your faith in God and follow the instructions that she gives you,” I feel her hand on my shoulder.
“I have a new chance,” I whispered, finally showing the joy that knowing that I can last for many years gives me, “my brother-in-law, yes I will risk it,” I to kiss him on the cheek and his fist hits my chest, I think it went well because he was driving.
“Get away from my patient,” I hear him laugh, now I can be fully happy, nothing is guaranteed in this, but I will do something that is asked of me, I will have faith.