“Woman, there is Susana and I already told you I will not be going out today, leave the child here with me,” without wanting to say more or contradict her I accept. I breastfeed my son and then feed myself.
In the car with the music on we drive in silence, this pregnancy has me sleepy, eating and vomiting.
“Are you going to behave right?” I ask suddenly looking at him, “Kahin, tell me that you will be good and you will not be impossible,” he does not look away from the road.
“I will behave, of course I will,” his seriousness makes me smile. We arrived at the clinic and the doctor was already waiting for us, happy for the company of my man, I do not hide my smile.
The woman guides us and sits in front of us, “you were able to bring him,” she says smiling, “I'm glad for this step,” she takes her notepad and her pen, “well Marilí, how have you been feeling these days?”
Sighing I settle into my seat, Kahin has an indescribable gesture, “dreams remain, but somehow I feel lighter, now that my partner ...”
“That your husband,” Kahin corrects interrupting me, I don't erase my smile and I try not to blush.
"That my husband knows about the dreams I feel more protected, although before I knew he often calmed me down when I woke up upset, now that he knows what kind of dreams gives me more relief, more calm."
The woman nods with a smile then asks, "how's your relationship going?"
Kahin clears his throat, I don't flinch, “two days ago we fixed everything, he knows about my pregnancy and my problem, I think it is going very well, we no longer have secrets, at least not from me, my husband is an angel with little bits of trouble of course.”
The doctor smiles and focuses on Kahin, “are you okay?"
My brunette raises an eyebrow, “I am here only to accompany my wife, not to delight you with my fabulous life.” I close my eyes and bite my lips, I press Kahin's hand and open my eyes to look at him reproachfully.
"Are you sure you don't want to talk things over? Your wife has told me that you have anger problems and also has dreams that disturb you,” I am not looking at him but I feel his gaze on me, this doctor is stupid.
“I'm sure I don't want to talk, I don't have anger problems and those dreams have given way since she came into my life, I don't want you to ask me anything about my life, if we're going to talk about something that is about sex,” totally embarrassed, I bury my face on my hands, he's being him. How could I trust myself knowing what he is?
“Well then tell me how's the sex going?” It's clear the doctor doesn't know that Kahin is playing with her.
“Amazing, fascinating, fun, delicious, wonderful, pleasant ...”
“Kahin!” I protest, “please,” I look at him seriously, he just winks at me.
“I see that in that part you are good. What do you tell me about your relationship? Marilí is a good spouse,” the doctor accommodates herself in her position, she has turned the tables, now Kahin looks at her defiantly.
“I'm sorry doctor,” I intervene before he releases a fresh one, “I practically brought him obliged,” I apologize, the doctor nods.
“Don't worry, not everyone can handle this,” I try not to laugh, she's hitting my man hard and that's amusing her.
“It is not a question of power, it is a question of knowing that people like you only work for money, and if you want to know how good my wife is, well point out, she is the best thing that has happened to me, since she came into my life, it has gotten better. If your question was about our age difference, well, everything is going great and look, we are going for the second child, my wife is twice as good as any mature woman of age, with her I want a life nd do you know why?” The doctor looks him straight in the eye, “because with her I don't have to force myself to change, with her I am born and if you want to continue with that anger,” he shrugs, “my wife knows how to control me. Now that you know that I am willing to move on with my life with my wife and you know how good she is and what she means to me, stop asking me questions and focus on her,” moved by what he said, but sorry for how he put the doctor in her place, I look at her in apology. She clears her throat and continues with the session.
The woman keep trying to get past Kahin, which I see is very difficult for her, she looks at my husband a lot and that is taking out the demon that I have under lock and key, I do not explode because Kahin is very aware of me and does not look at her.
“You are doing very well Marilí, congratulations on this progress you are having, I am happy to see you smile at last.”
I hold out my hand to the doctor, “thanks for everything, see you soon.” Kahin also shook her hand and said goodbye, but it took a long time to let go of her hand. Without waiting, I go ahead to the car, it was a bad idea to bring him with me.
"Are you okay?" He asks like the fool he is, but I have to calm down, I must control that jealousy. "Sweet, are you okay?" He asks again.
Annoyed, I look at him, “you have behaved like a jerk when you promised to behave, besides that woman looked at you a lot and to top it off you give her your hand and take time to let go of her.”
He smile, “first of all, I told you that I would behave but I did not say how, and for that woman you have nothing to worry about, it was just a goodbye and that's it, now calm down or that can harm our daughter.” Sighing so as not to explode, I settle into my seat, we drive through the streets of the city until we reach the San Francisco hospital, which is where I will start to control my pregnancy.
“I want bananas,” I complain, “I'm hungry and I want to vomit.”
Kahin looks around the place, “there is a stand with bananas, wait for me here,” he kisses me on the forehead and walks away from me, crosses the street and walked to the woman who sells the bananas, I drop my shoulders when I see the madness he is doing.
“You have brought all the bananas!” I shouted incredulously, he shrugs and puts them in the car except for 2.
“You like them a lot and you make me go out every hour for more, you eat 10 to 15 bananas per hour, let's eat those to accompany you to the bathroom,” I say nothing and I obey, he is more right than a saint, and the saddest thing is that I throw them up later.
After 6 bananas and vomiting them in the process, I register and we sit down to wait, Kahin does not stop kissing me, looking at me and filling me with attention, the women who have come alone look at me with some envy, I'm sorry.
“You should calm down,” I say after the kiss, “they are looking at us a lot,” he, as always without caring looks around the place.
"Where are the partners of these women?" He asks indignantly, raising his eyebrow.
I look at him, “that same question was asked to me by a man when I went to the consultation alone in Italy, that stupid question should not be asked by anyone, because nobody knows what is happening after each pregnancy. Kahin here may be abused women and you come out with this?” He did not like what I said at all, “look at me as you want, but you should know things, it cannot be that way,” before he answers, we were called.
“Now that it was my turn to scold,” he growls, pissed off, I ignore him.
“Good afternoon,” greets the assistant.
Kahin stops, “isn't there a female doctor?" He asks quite disgusted, the boy smiles.
“Don’t worry, your wife will be attended by the doctor, I'm just an assistant,” Kahin nods just as seriously. The boy takes the data from us and once he's finished he sends me to change my clothes for a gown, “the ultrasound will be pelvic or vaginal, she doesn't understand it, it's too early to have a clear image with a normal ultrasound,” he smiles when he sees the face of Kahin, this has not been very clever of me, I should not have brought him for consultation.
"Good morning ..." greets a dark-skinned doctor with a big smile, “what do we have here?" She approaches her assistant.
“Pregnancy estimated at about 7 weeks of gestation, it is the first revision,” she nods, “well, mom, I read that this is her second pregnancy.”
She raises her eyebrows, “3 months ago you gave birth?” I nod, a bit embarrassed.
“Calm down mom, there is nothing to worry about, she has a husband and if you are attending to her it is because they can afford it,” he winks, “now I need you to spread your legs and relax,” Kahin looks at the boy with warning, that makes me laugh nervously. The gynecologist inserts the device and begins to do her job.
Seeing the screen reminds me of when I saw my brown for the first time, my eyes crystallize, “but how amazing,” the doctor hums.
"What's wrong?" Kahin asks beside me.