Three months have passed since Kahin showed me for the first time her lack of control and her true way of being, exactly three months since she unintentionally hurt my feelings.
Mom tolerates him less every day, I have not allowed her to meet him or Camila Cook is able to castrate him even when he is awake.
On the other hand, Kahin does not know what to do to make me trust him, he is going crazy for not getting my forgiveness, things in sex are just as pleasurable, exciting , fiery. We did not sleep together he does not accept it, I do not forgive him but I would like to sleep with him.
My friend and silly Loan seem to be getting serious, I still don't trust him.
“ What are you looking at?” I look in the direction he is looking “Do you have problems with him?” His tone goes up, I look at him confused.
“No... It's just that I was on astral travel and he got in the way.” Smile and I know that smile is false.
“It can't be ...” He whispered and I got closer to him “Do you like boys?” He's uncomfortable and his stuttering makes me smile, I've been noticing it for a while now.
“No ... I don't know what you're talking about ... I ... I ... I'm a man who likes women” he laughs “Just as good as you.” That alone is enough for me to know that my suspicions are true.
“You don't have to be ashamed” I sit on his lap “it's fine that you like men, but why hide what you really feel? I mean, is all that about you being a womanizer just a facade?” He looked away, bt forced him to look at me again.
“I do not want to talk about the issue Marilín" I kiss his lips so that he understands that I do not care about that and that I am still with him.
“Trust, you are my friend, right?” He nods “well, then tell me, I want to listen to you and support you.” He snorts and as always takes his hand to my ass.
“I'm bisexual or so I think” h,e says in a whisper, still looking at me “I like men and women, more women I've never been with a man.” He shrugs although “I often think it's just curious” I smiled.
“It can be just that and you are confusing because you have not tried it.” My smile widens “Do you want to try? Carla knows many applications.” he frown “Take it easy Randon, nobody will know, I promise you.” Kiss my lips and smile.
“Will you be there with me?” He looks at me mischievously laugh at his madness, I would never accept something like that. Randon and I became very close, When he agreed to help me make it clear to the Lord <<I can do everything>> that he is not the only one who can have me and although we do not get to have sex, appearances are enough, As payment, I agree to keep up appearances on campus, everyone thinks we are boyfriends including Ian and I like that, It hurts him a lot to have betrayed me, he looked for me to come back with him but I did not accept and I think Kahin spoke with him, He doesn't even look at me.
“They are ready?” Asked Carla approaching. “The others are already in the karaoke, let's go.” I get off Randon's legs and he stands up once you can. “Randon go get your car, we wait here.” He nods and leaves, my friend Carla looks at me with a serious gesture, raised an eyebrow. “When are they going to quit this silly game?” She smiled amused.
“What game are you talking about?” I ask with amusement. Loan and Carla don't stop bothering, They wish things between me and Kahin were the same as before, but it can't be, They don't know how Kahin made me feel in that white beach room.
“For everything real that exists!” Carla exclaims on the verge of attack. “You are in love with Kahin and yours, the man has shown you.” I laugh so loudly that you can tell how false it comes out of me.
“Are you very Zaza? I think having sex with Loan leaves you bad, I think you are moving away from him.” I see Randon's car and immediately get in, I don't want to have the same old conversation. My mother is right, I must get away from Kahin, just fulfill her wishes and once I used myself, He to his room and I to mine, although that makes me feel like a random one and once the six months have passed, I beg him to let me go free. The road to karaoke is quiet Carla doesn't get along with Randon, since Loan is in her life she always acts silly does the will of her boyfriend or, does not speak to any other boy why so the fool asked him.
“Surprise!” My U classmates come to congratulate me, it's my birthday, I didn't think they will remember it.
“Oh mio dio!” he whispered, reciprocating the hugs and kisses.
“They did not have to bother, they surprised me!” I say still surprised by what they have done, It is a karaoke place that is right on Via España, It is an accessible place for all budgets, It is medium in size, and its rooms are divided into three parts, a room to watch football matches or anything else, a machine room and a bar with karaoke.
“Of course, we had.” Lenin greets me “My favorite client had to celebrate in style.” He points out the place, there are balloons of all colors, especially green, my favorite color, there are streamers, good music, a table with food, and a super Dulcerama cake from one of the best candy stores in Panama They are delicious!
“And that's why I love you all" I cry “Come to Tomar and celebrate my 19 years ...” Everyone applauds and gets settled in their places to start the party. “I hate having to end the party early.” He growled in a bad mood.
“Easy, enjoy what you can.” Randon encourages me “also who takes away and the gentleman <<I can do everything>> gives you a good gift in bed.” He smiles and hits his shoulder. Do not think that our conversation is over.
“I would try not to drink so much alcohol, you know how Kahin gets when you drink too much.” Angry at Carla's nonsense, she raised her beer.
“To the bottom!” Without thinking I finish it “Fuck this if it's life”
after this come many more, strong drinks cannot miss the party is good and the fun increased.
“Skinny," Carla shouts now more relaxed and amused by alcohol. “We have to sing this” She pulls me and I follow her immediately and we go up on stage laughing “I want everyone's chorus" Shout the Ha-Ash song at the beginning.
“Te conocí un día de Abril, un día común el día que menos lo esperaba...” Without knowing why I remember Kahin, we met in April, at the end of the song we got off and all my companions met.
“Well ... It's time for the gifts” stunned by how well my colleagues are behaving with me I contain the urge to cry “As I am poor I give you my friendship” Carla jokes and as always makes me laugh.
“That's enough for me” I look at my colleagues that although they are not my closest friends, the little we talk we get along well. “They are excellent companions” They all give me their presents from earrings, to rings and clothes.
"You weren't thinking of inviting me?" When hearing my mom, I got up and run to her, I throw myself into her arms. Mom's operation is cured and she is as strong as before the operation.