"I already said why so much attention and pampering when speaking, you know that today I will go out with my friends, you have promised me and you cannot break your promise, or the little confidence I have in you will end," I hear him cursing over and over and ending with a bang, "Kahin please," my voice is a little harsher, "you can't have me to yourself 24 hours, I promise to go with you tomorrow, but yes, I'll clarify something for you, if I realize that you're following me I'm going to get angry," he grumbles like a child, that man softens my heart with his bad temper, "promise me" I demand.
"Please, I want to see you, I haven't seen you since your birthday and that was three days ago ... I want to see you," he begs me.
"Kahin I want you to promise me what I asked."
"Marilí ..." He growls at me, I don't say anything, "ok ...ok ... I promise, I will not send anyone to follow you, I still have no surveillance of you."
I smile, since I asked him to comply, "that Mr. Hamann, that's it," cringe at the sound of him bellowing, "ok ... I'll shut up, see you tomorrow, I have to return the mobile." When I said goodbye, I looked at my repentant friend, I have my tail between my legs, "can we talk?" She takes her cell phone from me and sighs.
"There's nothing to talk about, I shouldn't have gotten into your stuff, I'm sorry," she smiles, feeling really bad, I hug her.
"You just wanted to help me and Randon made me see it," I pull away and look into her eyes, "you're right, I think mom is overdoing it, but you also have to understand me, if she behaves like that, it's for something." My friend rolls her eyes.
"Then tell her to give you a good explanation and that way you can consider things, but you don't have to move just like that, you'd leave me alone ..." Kissing her on the cheek, I hug her again.
"It's what I'll do when I get home today and you're right, I'd leave you alone and you can't live without me," I joke and she lets out a laugh.
"Nor you without me," she is more right than a saint.
Classes pass and it is time to go home, "will you go with Randon and me?" I ask my friend she stopped looking at the mobile.
"I'll go with Loan, he'll pick me up," she looks at me, "I love him too much, I can't say no to anything," she smiles, my friend does fall in love with everything and even when they hurt her, she loves much more strongly.
"Do you know how much I admire you?" She shake her head, "I admire you very much, you are much more risky and stronger than me in some things and that is admirable, you live without fear and you give everything, Loan loves you, if it were not like that he would not have met your mother," her face lights up.
"Do you really believe that of me?" She asks, "hmm, I didn't know. I'm very relieved that you tell me that about Loan, you're a witch and everything you say comes true, you're scary."
Laughing, I roll my eyes, her lack of confidence in herself bothers me at times, her cell phone rings, "I must go Mana, my love is waiting for me." I say goodbye to her and I watch her go.
"List?" I turn to look at Randon and nod, "we have to go by public transport, my car has broken down."
I smile, "don't be silly, it doesn't matter, come on," I pull him to go catch the bus.
When we got to the Chinese restaurant 'Don Lee', we ordered some sweet and sour chicken breasts, a pork chow mein and an apple soda.
"Good grief! I love this restaurant," shrieks Randon, it's another thing we have in common.
"I told you, everything here is very delicious," I take a sip of my soda, "mmm look" I take my cell phone out of my pocket. The first thing I see are Kahin's messages, but I ignore them. If I open them and don't answer, he'll bolt, like Aunt Lourdes says.
"I downloaded Badoo and there are a lot of guys interested," I smile looking at him, "I know, I made you a profile without your consemt, but don't worry, there are no photos of you, I send them privately and the view only lasts five seconds, there is no time to steal it," I wink at him, "look at this lawyer, he's handsome, tall and muscular," I show him.
"He doesn't look like a gay," he reply.
I frown, "are you passive or active?" My friend, who had an unconvinced face, opens his eyes and they almost jump out of their bowls.
"Damn woman! They would never allow me to be fucked, of course I would be the one to give," he said with fun.
"You know, I don't think you're bisexual, I mean ...this is just a sexual fantasy that you have and if you ask me I say that you're not even going to sink into a man," I shrug, he thinks about it.
"I think you're right, I mean, maybe I like to see men, because I like them and now, I've never fallen in love with one, but I thought I liked them, because of the way I look at them."
I put a chicken breast in my mouth and chew on it for a few seconds, "I like to look at women and that does not mean that I like them, at least I like to see their hair, the shape of their faces and their beautiful bodies, it is something that catches my attention, but it does not go beyond of a simple admiration."
He leans back in his chair, "you're right, I won't do something that I may regret later."
"But if you want to do it, you better do it, so you will get out of your doubt," I see him smile and soon after deny, "ok it's fine, but I'll leave you the account and the password, in case you want to download it to your mobile," I send everything to his WhatsApp, Kahin is about to exploit my cell phone, but I still don't open his chat.
The date with Randon is perfect, once you meet this man if you fall in love you fall in love, he is charming and his beautiful singing voice makes your skin crawl.
"I'll take you home, it's too late for you to be alone out here."
I smile, "easy, you live far away and if you take me to my house then, you will arrive later and it is dangerous, come here" I hug him, "come on, I'll be fine."
He smiles at me and doesn't insist any more, the bus he needs passes before mine. Tired of being there, I decide to walk to position myself at a better stop, with my mobile turned off so that Kahin doesn't bother me, I'm bored, the night is cold and calm, just what I need to clear my head and think about the arduous conversation that I will have with my mother. The screeching of a car scares me, looking at the place I frown, there is no reason for it to stop that way and right next to me, without waiting to find out anything else, I accelerate my pace and without realizing it I am already fighting not to be put in the car, scared and with a my heart beating like a thousand drums, I try to scream and run, it is impossible for me to do so, my thoughts are giving rise to hysteria, human trafficking and kidnappings are the order of the day.
Breathing heavily and unable to see or scream, I don't stop moving.