"Damn it, calm down," I hear them growl at me, I can't do what they ask me, even if my life depends on it, the nerves are what dominate me, I feel a pinch in my arm and then I feel like I am calming down, I feel in the clouds and so relaxed that I fall asleep.
***"
"You overdid the damn dose," I hear the voices in a distance.
"We still enjoyed it, it was very exciting." I don't know who they are or where I am, I try to open my eyes, but it's difficult to do so.
"We have to get out of here right now," that voice if I recognize it, is it Ian? Is he the one who has me here?
"I want to fuck her again." When I hear that, I try to move and I achieve it awkwardly, something does not allow me to do it freely, my body feels abused, my sex burns and my anus hurts.
"Mira has awakened, so it will be more pleasant," I open my eyes a little, I want to talk, shout and take him away from me, when I feel him move over me, his abruptness and the way he hits my body make me complain, I feel everything he does to me but I am not able to react, I am very disoriented.
"Let's take off the ties, I also want to enjoy."
I feel like they take me in weight and accommodate me as they wish, feeling full on both sides gives me tremendous pain.
"No ... no please." I draw my words almost inaudible.
"Damn it, leave her alone," Ian yells, "this wasn't the plan, we should have left while she was sleeping," his voice is one of concern.
"Quiet idiot, don't be a queer, she's drugged, she won't remember anything, you're into this, either enjoy yourself or shut up," the one moving behind shouts at him, the force they exert hurts me.
"Look how the fox bleeds. How did you not decide this earlier Ian? Your girlfriend is very delicious.
Tears flow from my eyes, I want to react, I want to scream from the heartbreaking pain I have, but simply, neither my body nor my brain react. Once all five of them were satisfied with me, including Ian who forced himself, they leave me lying unable to move.
"Plug her in again and let's get out of here," says one of them.
"No ... no please," I ask without voice, "don't ... Ian please," I try to get them to listen to me, but I know they won't, I feel the prick in my arm again and everything goes strange, sore, tired and scared, I fall asleep.
"I want you to look for them, you know where to take them." I hear the voices again, this time some how louder.
"Hamann you can't do this, you know." It's Malcolm, my breathing is shaking, my eyes are wide, I am somewhat disoriented. What's happening? I wonder, lost.
"You won't tell me what to do, I'm living a damn nightmare, you know what I'm talking about." Kahin's voice is furious.
"Kahin ..." I call out to him in a whisper, "Kahin..." I call him again when I notice that he didn't listen to me the first time.
"I'm here Dulce, I'm here." Looking at his red and crystallized eyes, tears spring from mine, I feel like a train has passed over me, more than ten times.
"What happened?" I close my eyes and things in my head are fuzzy and blurry, "it hurts ..." I complain.
"I know ... I know ..." I open my eyes at his broken voice, "I had to take care of you, I had to protect you and I didn't, I promised to take care of you and I didn't keep it," he rests his head on my forehead and I feel his tears fall, that makes me cry more, I don't understand what to happening to him.
"Let me see my daughter," I hear my mother yelling and then Kahin jerks away from me.
"Are you crazy? How could you pull me like that?" He yells at her furiously.
"She's my daughter, you don't have to be her," my mother yells back, "get out of our lives, leave my daughter alone." I look at them through my tears, they look into each other's eyes and each one is angry, "get away from her Kahin."
Hearing my mother call him by hisfeels strange, she, after my birthday, refused to even listen to him.
"No Camilla, you're not going to take me away from her, I love her, I'm not going to let her go." My confusion keeps increasing, I want to intervene, but the pain I feel overwhelms me.
"No Kahin, you can't love her, you know you can't ..."
"It hurts," I say between a sob, "it hurts me a lot," mom walks over to me and strokes my hair.
"I'll call the doctor honey," my mother looks at me crying, I'm about to ask her what happens, when I hear that thick voice.
"We better go Hamann," Malcolm says, "you know you must."
Ignoring my mother, I look at that man whose tears runs down his cheeks, his fists clenched and his eyes closed, which tells me that he will listen to Malcolm.
"Kahin," I'm called him, I'm confuse and can't understand what's wrong with me, have I had an accident? "Don't leave me," I ask you, I see him open his eyes and look at me.
"Daughter, what are you doing?" My mother squeals, "he'll finally leave you alone," she moves away from me, "go away, I don't want you to be near her, she's just sore from what happened to her, but she'll be fine, get out," my mother shouts.
"No Camilla," I see Kahin ready to respond to her, "you won't take me away from her, you won't be able to take me away from her, you can do whatever you want and you're not going to achieve it, not anymore." They are yelling at each other and the pain in me increases.
"Hello, please," enter a doctor, "you can't scream, you're in a hospital, that's not good for your daughter, save the discussion for when you get home," does he think they're my parents? I look at Kahin, I know he's going to clarify everything but he doesn't look down. The doctor, seeing that they calm down, comes to me, "how do you feel?" He asks, I close my eyes to avoid tears, but they're still coming out.
"It hurts a lot, I want to die, that way it won't hurt so much," I look at him, "how did they hurt me? Have I been beaten?" I ask trying to figure out what happened, "what's wrong with me? Why does it hurt so much?" Looking down, I frown, why does my sex and anal cavity hurt?
"Quiet, everything that happen, when you recover more, I will speak with you, in agreement?" I'm about to protest but the pain is so intense that it won't let me. I Look at Kahin and my mother, "I have to sedate her to help her with the pain, you can talk to her for a minute," the doctor moves away, my mother is the first to get to me.
"I love you honey… I love you so," she doesn't stop crying, "I'll be here for you always, together we'll get through this, once you can get out of here, we'll go to Italy."
Hearing that only causes me more pain, why don't you want Kahin to be with me? What should we overcome? Moving past my doubts and wanting to know what happened to me, I look away from my mother, "Kahin, don't leave me!" I ask him again, I cannot allow my mother to treat him like that, when he only suffers for me or whatever happened to me, "I know that now I don't even know what happened to me" I close my eyes in pain, "but I had thought to tell you, I don't want you to leave me, I love you." The pain is excruciating, but I want to make sure that he will be here when I wake up.
"Daughter please," my mother whispers.
"I love him mom, I love him," I repeat, my mother covers her mouth with her hands and looks at Kahin who is also looking at her, "do you know each other? Aaahhh," I complain.
"You should rest," he walks over to me, "I will never leave you," he comes over to kiss me and I accept it, I don't want to listen to mom anymore.
"You must rest, you're right," the doctor intervenes. I look away, not only my body hurts, it also hurts in my soul, knowing that my mother doesn't love Kahin hurts me. I want to know why my body hurts and why my mother and Kahin are so worried, but I can't tolerate the pain.