Chapter 70
Unexpectedly, I spontaneously confronted them and my eyes were restless as to whom I was going to look at.
When I looked at Nanny Yuna, her eyes were teary as she looked at me, so my body seemed to soften.
I couldn’t move even if I wanted to approach her.
Nanny Yuna approached me with tears in her eyes. I don’t know what I’m going to do. I couldn't even move even though I didn't feel when Nanny Yuna hugged me.
But, is she really my real mother? That's why she's so careful to me? That I feel she loves me? Is that why she always worries about me? —She is my real mother?
“S-s-s-sorry,” she said in a cold and stammering voice to me and almost in a whisper in my ear as she hugged me. I, on the other hand, was silent and my eyes were just dumb. I just let my tears flow down her shoulder. I can not believe.
How did she happen to be my real mother? She told me that her family was in a distant province. She told me that her husband is far away. Does that mean she lied to me? Is everything she told me just lies?
Why? Why did she choose to keep the truth from me as well? Why did she pretend to be our maid when she was my real mother? Why didn't she tell me too? I have been with her for a long time but she never once told me the truth.
Is she really my real mother? How did it all happen? Why did she choose to be a maid? Why didn’t she introduce herself to me as my real mother?
What was the reason and did they hide the truth from me? I accept, but I can't believe that she is my real mother.
Am I just the daughter of a maid?
With so many things going through my mind, I didn't realize that I was already hugging her and that my arms were tightening even more when I hugged her.
I've been with her for a long time but I'm so excited to be hugged by a mother like her.
Now, I understand why she's so kind to me. I realized why she was always there by my side. I realize why she supports me in the things I want to do. She's my first supporter. I realize the reason why she’s so responsible to me. She still made me feel her love for me as my mother.
I can't believe.I have two good mothers. I have Mommy Sheraine and Mommy Yuna— slash carrying Nanny Yuna.
"Please forgive me, my daughter," she said softly to me. My heart feels no anger or hatred but shock and a mixture of joy and sadness.
If I only knew then that she was my real mother, I would not have let the days go by without hugging and talking to her. I would have devoted more time and days to him.
I still remember the moments I teased him. Even though I was rude and smirked at him at times, he still smiled at me and his voice was calm whenever I spoke to him. That's why it's just like that when he behaves like me. She is my mother. I can't believe that I was with my real Mother just then.
"Sorry, a-a-son."
It seemed like coldness enveloped my heart when he called me ‘son’. It felt like a different feeling and it was new to me. It was like fattening my heart and feeling that my body hairs almost stood up. His sincerity penetrated my heart. It's so good to hear.
She slipped out of the hug and stayed in front of me while holding my hands. Her tears started to flow and her eyes trembled as she looked at me. Draw the smile that catches my eyes. Her smile is better now as she looks at me than the smiles she drew on her lips then. Her smile is sweeter now which causes my lips to smile spontaneously.
He lightly combed my hair towards the back of my ear while still smiling at me.
I wanted to talk and ask him the things that were bothering my mind but I couldn’t because I was so attracted to the sweet smile I could see in him.
Soon her tears suddenly flowed while still smiling. This time I wiped the tears that dripped down her face. I caress her cheek as I meet her gaze.
"I'm sorry," he said softly and sadly and I wiped the tears from his cheeks again. I can't feel the anger. Why should I be angry with him? How can I be angry with him? She took care of me and made me feel her love even though I thought she was just my maid. I am very grateful to him. I can't be angry.I can't be angry with her because she gave birth to me. I came from her although she didn't let me know that she was my real mother, she did feel her love. I won’t be able to get mad at her. She's my mother. I can't hate her for lying to me and I have no right to be angry or hate her. Who am I to do that?
"Can I explain?" she gently and weakly asked. My head nodded spontaneously. First, she carried me to the sofa and I sat there. Mommy Sheraine and Daddy are side by side.
I just kept quiet while looking at them. I'm waiting for what they have to say.
"I want to say that ... I didn't have a relationship with your Daddy, he knew that and your Mommy Sheraine," she began in her explanation. Mommy looked at her for a moment and listened to what she said, and so did Daddy.
They didn’t have a relationship? How ... how did that happen? What am I? Who is my daddy then? How did I become Mommy Yuna’s child to Daddy?
I was confused but I did not say a word.
She continued, “When my husband, Albert, y-y-your Daddy's brother, passed away, I was devastated. The day he died, I became alcoholic. I was pregnant then. I was very drunk and crying every night. I was always looking for the warmth of his arms and the tightness of his hugs. We had an accident then and he was driving the car. The car we were riding in crashed into a large tree, killing him and our child in my womb. I could hardly eat well and sleep soundly. I was always getting drunk and exploding until I was so drunk at the bar. Your Daddy saw me until that night something happened to the two of us that we both did not expect. ”
I almost took a deep breath at her explanations. Mommy and Daddy were quiet while Mommy Yuna told her story. I was a little shocked by what she told us. My eyes almost widened at what she said.
Does that mean what she told me before are true? Now I understand what she meant when she said that her child and husband were away. She meant they were already in heaven. It is sad to think that a terrible tragedy happened to Mommy Yuna before she gave birth to me in this world. A tragedy shook my Mother's life before she even gave birth to me. That's why every time I ask where her family is, sadness always shows in her eyes but somehow I can see the sparks of love and joy in her as I remember their love story. I was sad because I did not think that there was a bitter taste of life in her. I knew she loved her husband dearly and I felt that every time she told their story. Her eyes indicate that.
But, wait! What should I call him? Uncle? It's a pity I didn't see and know him. I'm sure he's super smart too and super handsome. He's a sacristan.
"... and then I can't believe I'm pregnant," she continued her story. A smile drew on her lips as her gaze is on me. "... you are the angel who came into my life despite the pain that happened to me."
She stopped and I noticed that she was suppressing her emotions. I can feel the sadness she feels. I could also feel the joy in her chest that I had just felt in her. I want to come over and just hug her and say that I have forgiven her. I want to say that I am very lucky to have a mother like her. I also want to make up for my shortcomings as their child. I want to fill in the moments wasted. I want to let her know that I am so blessed to have her. I want to thank her because she gave birth to me in this world even though she did not introduce herself as my real mother then.
Even though I identified her as a maid, she didn’t just do being a maid. She stands as my mother and father but the truth is that she is really my real mother. I can't believe.
Now that I know the truth, I won’t waste any more days. I will thank her every day and let her know that I love her more than I love myself.
"When I found out, I told your Daddy." She looked at Daddy. "... until Sheraine, your mommy, found out." She looked at Mommy Sheraine. “...she found out that her husband got me pregnant. Of course, she was shocked and cried. She was angry with us. She thought we were betraying her. She thought your Daddy was cheating on her. I explained, we explained to her what had happened.She understood that. Your Mommy Sheraine is very good because she accepted me. She accepted me and the angel in my womb. It's you, Pershey. ”
I couldn’t help but smile at what she said as her eyes looked directly at me. She proved that Mommy was very smart and good because even though she knew I was not her real child, she accepted me and loved me as if I were her real child. I am so lucky to have two good mothers. Two mothers who made me feel how much they loved me, so I had no reason to be angry or resentful with them. I shouldn't be angry because they sacrificed for me.
“I was really hurt when I found out the truth,” says Mommy Sheraine. “I was really angry because I couldn't accept the truth. I don't know what I'm going to do but I've exercised my love for your Daddy more, sweetheart. I understood everything and accepted even the pain inside me. I thought that's what I should do because I don't want to ruin my relationship with your Daddy. I don't want to ruin our family because Bria was only 1 year old then and I don't want her to grow up without a father. I don't want her to experience a broken family, so I just chose to accept everything. ”
I noticed Bria — sister Bria sitting on the sofa next to me. She smiled at me.
Which means she’s a year older than me. She's 19 now and I'm only 18.
“We agreed to give you to us after she gave birth to you. We want to be your parents too. I want us to be your family, me as your real mother. We begged Yuna to keep it a secret that she is your real mother. Because, honestly, Arthur has many business partners. They will be surprised and suspicious when they find out that Yuna has a child even though Arthur has died and their child that Yuna was still pregnant with also died in the accident. We don’t want to be stoned by hurtful words, so we take you on. Your Mommy Sheraine is your real mother. We moved house with your Nanny Yuna to be away from other people who know us,” Daddy explained to me. Gradually, I came to understand everything. “We did not deprive you from your Mother, Shey. We left you with her while we were in the States. Bria, we took her to the States so that her grandparents could take care of her while we were busy running our company. Until the years have passed and you have grown. You both grew up with good will. I hope you understand us, Shey. ”