LUCIUS
I was shocked that I would have to fight another person in the duel, and I could feel my heart beating fast. My eyes were red with unshed tears. I knew for a fact that there would be no way I would be able to win the fight, but I promised myself not to give up easily on that. I had made my promise, but there was no way I was going to break it.
It came as a huge shock to me after knowing that Freya had approved of me fighting twice, and not only me but others also. She knew that I'm not strong enough to go against two people at the same time, but she doesn't seem to care. All that was on my mind was that she didn't care what happened to me during the fight; she only wanted me to win. She wanted me to prove how strong I am to others. She wanted to flaunt me by doing that, but what I wasn't expecting was that she would do something like this. It hurts me to know that Freya is aware of this, and she even allowed it.
I have always thought that she would try to help me whenever I'm in need of something, but this seems to be wrong. This was proven by this duel. I feel mad, and all I could think of right now is to quit, but I knew that I had gone too far for me to quit. It would be better if I were to win the duel and be able to be with her, but I won't. I would make her pay for what she has done to me. She isn't going to go scot-free. I have always thought she cared about me by worrying, but she went ahead and accepted the terms of the duel without checking it out. What does she think she was doing when she did that?
I was glad that I was able to win the duel against the next warrior I was to fight. It wasn't a good fight, like you would have thought, but it was hard. It wasn't easy for me to throw the warrior out of the ring so he could win. The warrior was a tough opponent, even tougher than the first one. It wasn't easy, but I was glad I won. I knew that winning the duel was nothing but a step in countless steps. It would be hard for me to be able to win against Alpha's, but I'm ready to try. I knew that in my next duel I would be made to go up against an alpha, which wouldn't be as good as it was now.
I know that there is no way I will be able to avoid getting hurt. I knew that I would have to fight to be with my mate. I may be angry about the decision Freya made, but that doesn't make me stop caring about her. I knew that what she had done must have been because she wanted to get over the duel as quickly as she could and that she forgot to look at the terms to know what was allowed and what wasn't. I knew that the chance of me winning even when the fight isn't twice as long is slim, and I knew that I had to take advantage of every situation.
I can't make Stephen feel bad about not teaching me well. I knew that he wouldn't be happy with the way I was being beaten, but I couldn't help it. I knew that he wouldn't be happy to see that all the time he spent on me while we were training went to waste. He wouldn't be happy to see that I couldn't end up with his daughter after all that training I had with him.
I was glad that everything went well, but I knew that it wouldn't be as easy as this. I knew I would have to be more cautious tomorrow. I knew that I would have to wash away all the blood stains on my body. There is no way I will be able to find out what will happen tomorrow other than for me to watch how the Alpha's fight. I knew that watching them fight was nothing and that it might not help me win, but it might help.
I staggered into my room while breathing heavily. Blood was covering my face, and all I met on my way ran away. I knew that Freya wouldn't be happy watching the match, and the same was true of her parents. I knew that the duel I had with her this morning should have taught me something, and that's not to care about my opponent because they might use that as their ticket to winning against me. I knew that if I was to relent on strength, then I would be getting nowhere because I was told by Freya that I was weak, and I knew she was right the moment I was fighting the warrior's.
I saw that my strength was nothing compared to theirs. I wished that I had their strength. I knew that throwing them out of the ring isn't as easy as I have always done. I knew that if I was to face the warriors with my strength, then I would be dead, so I had no choice other than to use the disgraceful win. You might be wondering why I called it a disgraceful win. It was because I didn't work hard for it, and it only proved how much of a coward I am. I knew that the people weren't happy with the way I won, and I knew that they all now know me as a coward.
What was I expecting? Isn't it clear to me that even if I won this duel and managed to win against all the Alpha's, I was told to fight by throwing them out of the ring? But the truth still remains the same: I will forever be a coward because I didn't win that through hard work, but I don't care. I knew that being known as a coward who won against alpha's was still better than being known as someone who lost his wife to someone else in a duel.
I walked out of the house with a deep sigh, all staring left and right to know if I would see Freya. I had thought that she would have come to my room, but she surprised me by not coming. I had seen her walk toward me before I was called back into the ring, and I couldn't help but wonder why she wasn't here yet. I was back to myself now, and all I could think of right now was Freya and tomorrow's duel.
I couldn't help but think that something had happened that made her stay, but nevertheless, I'm going to the place to watch the duel. I want to be confident in myself and not be scared of losing again. I knew that failure isn't something good, nor does it mean that one would die, but one can still get back up after failing, but I knew that the moment I lose against someone in this duel is the moment I won't be able to be with my mate.
My head was filled with different thoughts, and with that, I made my way toward the direction where the duel was taking place. As I was walking with a foggy head, I was not concentrating on where I was going until I stumbled upon someone. The person was about to fall down when I used my hands to grab her by the waist. The person turned out to be a girl, and I could smell a familiar cologne on her body.
"You should be careful next time," I said to the girl without looking at her, but my eyes were opened with shock immediately. I saw who it was.
The person turned out to be Selene. My body was filled with shock, and I could feel my stomach rumble with nervousness. Staring at her, unable to say a thing, she stared back at me with an angry look on her face. Her eyes were glowing brightly, and I knew with no doubt that she was angry.
"Selene, what are you doing here?" I asked while trying to keep calm with a straight look on my face. It might have been easy for me to break off the engagement with her over a letter, but it isn't easy for me to break off the engagement with her here.
My throat went dry immediately, not knowing what to say. I knew that this would have been the most happy day for her if it weren't for the fact that I had broken off the engagement. I knew that she would have been more than happy to come to this pack to see me, but she seems sad. I couldn't help but feel angry at myself for causing all this, but there was no way I could stop it.