Lucius
What was wrong? I couldn't help but wonder. Freya's sudden change in mood caught me off guard. I found what was happening to be completely bizarre. I needed to find out what was happening, but she had moved in the direction of the pack's square, so I missed my opportunity. I was aware that it would be difficult for me to determine the true situation, but based on my assumptions and her actions, it appears like she is envious. I wondered what was going on, even though I understood that she might have been jealous of Selene being with me and all that.
I couldn't help but wonder why she seemed so envious as she approached me. I understood that she was justified in feeling envious, but not to the extent that she would scream at me. She appears to fluctuate in her emotions differently. I was aware that she might have believed that Selene and I were going to date. She's unaware of the fact that I can never return to Selene.
I realized that waiting for the duel to end was the only thing I could do at this point. I was aware that was the reason she wanted to call, and if it hadn't been, she would have informed me that she was upset with me. It infuriated her that I was with Selene. I couldn't help but wonder: if I told her that Selene is one of my friends, what would be her reaction? I was aware that she would find it difficult to trust me and that she would even accuse me of wanting to have an affair.
If I truly don't want to be with her but I still want to, then there's no reason I should take part in the duel. All she's doing is attempting to complicate things for me. I had red, swollen eyes and had no idea what to do. With fatigue, I headed for the pack's square. I was aware that I had been really energized before, but as soon as I saw Freya upset, all of that energy disappeared.
I paid close attention to the game so as not to miss anything. I was aware that anyone may face me in a match tomorrow, and that person would need to be one of the winners today. I was aware that the match the following day would not be as difficult as the one the day before. As I observed the violence each Alpha was using, I realized that everything they were doing was just for my amusement. I was feeling beneath them, and I knew that was what they wanted.
I was aware that I shouldn't be listening to their music, but he can't help himself. My eyes were red and swollen, and all I could think about was tomorrow—my failure. I couldn't help but question why I was organizing the decisive fight. I'm certain I can't win, but it won't stop me from fighting in the duel. The thought that I might lose the match to an Alpha and that there would be no recourse pained me.
If that happened, I couldn't help but worry what I would do. I was aware that my weakness would prevent me from handling the guilt and humiliation of losing my partner to another man. I've never felt so worthless in my entire existence. I felt as though I were an old, discarded gadget. I thought Freya was being punished by the moon goddess for choosing me as her spouse. I was aware that she wouldn't be going through all of this if the moon goddess had created someone as powerful and high status as her.
I was unaware that the crowd was starting to disperse until I felt Samuel tap my shoulder, startling me out of my reverie. I raised an eyebrow and looked at him for a long time. Sometimes I thought he was hiding something from me. He's been busy, so it's been a while since I last saw him. Seraphina was the only one I saw, and even then, I could tell how busy she was.
"What's wrong?" I inquired, peering closely at him and unable to contain my appetite for what was going on.
"You can see that you'd like to take a nap, but unfortunately you can't since there isn't time, and we can't take this lightly because you can see your opponents. Samuel added, "You need to go train," and I let out a deep sigh, realizing that he was correct.
We don't have time to waste, and if we continue to put things off, things won't work out. I was aware that I would lose tomorrow if I couldn't workout as much as I could today. I was aware that without the assistance of yesterday's training, I would not have prevailed in the fight today. I was aware that whatever instruction I would receive would only help me become more proficient in combat and increase my fighting abilities.
I knew that tonight would be significant, but I also knew that I needed to see Freya alone. I was aware that if we didn't work things out, I wouldn't be able to focus during training and might end up losing the duel. I was aware that the people I'm up against are not lesser werewolves, and I didn't want any casualties to occur during the battle. I was worried that one of them might kill me or hurt me.
I told him, "I will be there shortly," and he nodded courteously before turning to leave.
I approached Freya, who was sitting on the chair, blowing out breath and exploding with rage.
Despite my confused state of mind, I gently began, "Freya, it isn't what you are thinking.". I was doing everything I could to keep that aspect of myself hidden because I didn't want her to see it.
"You should know by now that I don't want to share you with anybody but instead you were all over her, How dare you do that?" Staring at me, I heard Freya's voice exclaim violently.
With a desperate attempt to get her attention, I said, "I can explain, Freya," and she turned to face me with a fiery gaze.
She said, hands on her hips, "You should do better," glaring at me intensely. Her words made my heart flutter with fear. I was baffled as to why I was afraid of her; I hadn't had this fear before our time together or since getting to know one another, but now I do.
"She just gave me the go-ahead to end the engagement legally and took back the diamond I had given her. I was just attempting to support a friend, not to lift her up." I started to say something, but Freya interrupted.
"A companion? She gave me a lethal glare as she questioned, "When did you guys become friends?" My mouth was clenched shut, unable to think of anything to say.
"We became friends today, and she said that we can still be the best of friends, just like we were when we were little," I replied with an earnest bow.
Her auras were felt by me, and although I made a concerted effort to resist them, I was nearly brought to tears.
Freya said indignantly, "I have nothing more to say to you; you should continue with your friend."
"You don't have to behave like this; Selene isn't as bad as you have portrayed her; she is actually a nice person." As I was speaking, Freya interrupted.
"She isn't as bad as you thought , so why don't you go to her?" she responded. "Talking of the devil, here she is," Freya said, her expression vehement.
I was going to respond to her when I sensed Selene's presence behind me. My jaw fell wide. She was walking toward me with her legs,,, making a lot of noise. When I turned to look behind me, Selene was running toward me and had an unidentifiable expression on her face.
I heard her remark urgently, "Lucius, we need to talk," and as soon as I heard it, my blood pressure dropped. I was left wondering what to do.
I knew there would be no happy ending here and that there would be no way out. I was aware that Freya would never permit me to accompany Selene. I knew that if I followed Selene, she would not be happy. If I had to choose now, I feel like it would be more than just this one day. I was aware that my actions would have an impact on their desires. I was stuck in a difficult situation and had no idea what to do.