Lucius
I couldn't help but feel restless about tomorrow. You might be wondering what will happen tomorrow. Tomorrow would be the D-day for the duel, which would take place in this pack. I couldn't help but feel worried about what would happen. I knew that the book had classified me as a, but the truth is that I have never felt anything different about myself since the day I was told. I was worried that it was due to some reasons, but as I trained harder, I hoped that I would get what I wanted.
I knew this might sound lame to Freya if I were to tell her all what I have been feeling. I knew that she would want me to back out of the duel after knowing all this. I knew she had expected me to be what the book had talked about. The fearless who goes against two alphas at a time, but I guess if that would ever be possible. I knew that if I were to ever become the thing that was talked about in the book, I'd be grateful. I knew things wouldn't go as planned, nor would it be possible for them to. I felt hurt knowing that I wouldn't be able to do anything other than watch as the council made her get married to another person.
I knew that I would kill myself instead of watching and bearing the pains of my mate being with someone else. I knew that I had improved greatly, but not as much as I wanted. I know that I may not be able to fight warriors, but I can still fight pack members. I knew for a fact that there would be a few pack members who would want to contest the duel. I knew that they would be afraid and wouldn't hesitate to back out before the fight. I knew that I'm fighting mostly warriors and alpha's because no pack member in his right sense would try joining the duel.
I also would have backed out before, if it were when I first got to this pack. I would never try joining and trying to fight in the duel. I have always cherished and loved my life, but now that all seems to have vanished, All I wanted was to become one of the strongest warriors, or Lycan, to be able to be with my mate. I have the urge to stay and protect my mate, no matter the condition. I have the urge to be with my friend now. I want to be by her side every moment.
I sighed heavily as I moved away from the punching bag, which didn't seem to have moved. I have been training with Stephen (Freya's father) . He has taught me so many things, and I'm grateful for that. He has hope in me. He had placed his hope in me, and the same was true of his wife, Caitlyn. They all want me to win the duel; they want their daughter to be happy with me, but that can only happen if I win the duel. I know my chance of winning the duel is very slim, but I'm ready to do that. I would do whatever it takes to prove to the council that I'm strong enough to keep her safe.
I knew that they had thought I wouldn't be able to protect her due to the fact that I'm an Omega. I knew that they had planned all this because they found out about my being an Omega. I couldn't help but feel the need to become what I had read from the book. I knew that if I had the powers of the duo, I would be able to win the duel. I knew that being an Omega wasn't as easy as I thought when I was in my pack, but now I do because I'm being discriminated against. I knew that having a strong mate by someone's side was good, but with me being an Omega, or rather, a person who hasn't discovered his powers,
I sighed heavily as I walked out of the training center—not the pack's training center but Freya's training center. I was breathing heavily, with sweat dripping down my body. My eyes were covered with sweat that dripped into them. I wiped off the sweat that had formed on my forehead. I felt myself getting dizzy due to the fact that I hardly rest. I knew that not resting for days wasn't good. I hardly have four hours of sleep, let alone nine hours of sleep. I knew that this wasn't what I had expected.
I had also thought that I would be with my friend immediately. I had accepted her, but I was wrong because the moment I accepted her was the time when the crisis started arising. I knew that if I had accepted her earlier, then things wouldn't have been like this. I knew that if not for the fact that I now know how I feel about her, I would have backed off from this duel.
I tried hard to stop thinking of the past because I knew if I kept standing here wallowing in thoughts, then I wouldn't be able to see Freya. I knew that this might be our last meeting, but I want to make it memorable. I knew that all this might be altered if I kept standing. I knew that I wouldn't be able to see her again until the duel started. I knew that she would be scared to watch me fight, but there was nothing she could do to stop herself from watching. I knew she would be curious and wouldn't want to watch me get beaten, but on the contrary, she wants to watch as everything unfolds.
She wants to watch me, but I doubt if that can happen because of who I was up against. I knew that those whom I would be told to fight in the beginning might be easy to crack off, but as soon as the fight gets more intense, I bet I would have a chance against any of them. I knew things would get harder by that time, but I'm not going to back down. I would not let anything make me back down from this duel. I will do everything in my power to make sure I succeed, but I was nervous. I'm nervous about the things that will happen to Freya after I am gone. I knew it wouldn't be easy for her, but there was nothing I could do about it.
It has been written down, and there is nothing I can do to change my fate. If I'm to survive, it will be good, and if I don't, there is nothing I can do. There is nothing anybody can do to change his or her faith; all that needs to be done is to stick to the right path. I knew the right path for me was to be with my mate, which I found out too late. I would have enjoyed the time we spent together if not for the fact that I was blinded by anger and hatred for strong mate's.
I don't know how it feels to be in power, but I guess if I become, just like the book has said, then I will know how it feels. I knew that alpha's are so cocky and full of themselves, thinking that nobody nor anything can get in their way. I knew all this because of what Stephen had told me. He told me that I shouldn't fight like he has taught me but instead fight like I was taught in my old pack and try to make my winning against warriors luck. He told me to get hit in every duel I have with anybody and make them get distracted before acting. He explained to me that they would think it's easy to beat me, and when they don't see it coming, I should attack.
I knew the plan he made might sound easy, but it would be hard to do. I knew that all I had to do was follow what he had said and I would have a chance of winning, and I was glad for the tip he gave me but also sad, angry, and restless for not being able to get my Lycan power. It was like I'm getting obsessed with me being a, but I knew that happened because I strongly believe that I was a and also because Freya can't lie to me.
I shrugged off my thoughts, and I made my way toward Freya's room with a deep sigh. I couldn't help but wonder what she was doing right now. I knew it was late at night, but I feel like she hasn't slept yet. I was hoping that we could have a talk together because this might be our last together. I opened her door, and immediately I entered. I took a peek inside her room, and I saw her pacing to and fro with a restless look on her face.