: Faults
Matteo's Pov
I felt myself burning with hatred and at the same time, I'm still emotional about what happened to my mate and her family.
It's my fault again, everything is my fault. I destroyed a family tonight if only I could be patient a little more and wait for Addasah. Things wouldn't have gone this far.
I don't think she'll ever forgive me.
I had prayed for her mother to be alive and now the burden is becoming heavier and heavier with her losing her memories and her mother's died.
I have been walking back and forth in the same spot for an hour with a lot of things occupying my mind. Like my mate, James surprised attack on our pack and my father's escape.
Not forgetting Quinn and this whole messed-up situation I'm in.
I went back to my office and find Aaron sitting there talking with Jay and his luna Claire.
"Hey" I walk inside and sat on a couch opposite them
"So how did it go, after I left?"
Aaron sighs leaning back against the couch while Claire rubs on his shoulder.
"You're lucky Eric and Dante has supported me," he says
"Please tell me," I told him.
Aaron began to fill me in with info about the meeting after I left. Practically everyone was disappointed in what I did. They have asked for a petition to strip me off of my title as an Alpha.
Yet Aaron has convinced them to give me a second chance which I don't think I deserve at all.
He has explained my situation and the logic behind my actions which then Alpha Eric and Dante along with Alpha Jesse from the Nightfall Pack support Aaron.
I was more grateful to my cousin for doing that to me even though I was willing to step down. Since my pack is in danger and the life of my mate is on the line here, therefore, I couldn't do it.
I have to make sure nobody or even myself hurt her again.
"Thanks, bro" I hug my cousin when he was to leave for his pack.
When they were gone I lean back closing my eyes "so how is she?" Jay asks.
I clench my fist and simply told him the truth "she lost her memory"
"What the hell! It is so rare for werewolves to lose memories. Aren't the humans are the only ones with that problem" he rants on.
"Unfortunately my mate does," I say cutting him off in a frustrating tone
"Okay...she remembers some things but not the life where her mate keeps messing up her life"
Yeah, so it's funny when she doesn't remember what happens between us or tonight's event.
"So what now?" he asks me again
"I don't know Jay. I just can't act like we were perfect mates before. And I just can't tell her the truth immediately... not right now" I bury my face in the palm of my hands.
"Yeah totally, right now is not the best idea since she has been through a lot. Maybe tomorrow or after one week" he suggested before walking up to me and pats me on the shoulder
"But I know you'll figure it out bro"
"Matteo" someone knocked on that door and I knew that voice immediately.
It was none other than Quinn. "Come in"
Jay nods in my direction before going out letting Quinn inside. I stood up and went behind my desk. She took the chair in front of the desk sitting down opposite me.
I could see that she's nervous but I know I have to do this. I will take responsibility for my pup but I can't be with her and act like a perfect family man.
"Matteo" she started but I stop her
"Quinn I don't know what you're thinking but I can't be with you" it is better to straighten up with her than run around the push.
"I will still be responsible for my pup but not us as a family, I can't do that and I'm sorry" I reaffirmed and she starts to tear up.
"Matteo but you can't do this, I love"
"Not that word again Quinn" I intervene.
"I don't know how it will work out for you and your mate if you ever met him but you know how it will feel like to have one. You would feel what I felt now after you met him"
"He rejected me" she shouted at me making Thunder stir within me due to her disrespecting us in that sort of manner.
She sobs "he rejected me and left for his pack because I told him I love you and you know what he says" she hiccups. "Good because I don't want a slut for a Mate" she continues to sob.
I kind of feel sorry for her yet again it's not anybody's fault. Somehow this was also her fault. If she did not insist for my dad and she for us to be together things wouldn't go this far.
"I'm sorry Quinn but my answer remains. I need to be with her because I love her. ‘Us’ is in the past, and you know this cause I have been telling you in the past four years" she sobs out loudly expecting me to comfort her but I know I can't.
After Quinn left I sat there in my office thinking of the danger on my pack. I don't know where and when they will attack but all I can do is to prepare my pack for the worst. Therefore, I have to ready myself and train my pack hard.
"Alpha I'm here to see you" Lyndon links me and I instantly replied to him to come in the office.
I began to feel nervous… I don't know but Adassah's father visiting me at this hour is making me nervous as hell. Also, there is fear creeping up in my veins.
"Alpha" he came inside and sat on the chair that was occupied by Quinn a while ago. "Please it's Matteo to you" I nervously sat down facing him.
"Is there anything?"
"Alpha I think it's best if I just voice out why I am here. I know we're all at fault here and it would be a lie if I'm not on the verge of killing you right now but currently I'm trying my best to be more civil here.
You hurt my daughter, you blame yourself for my family but I know some part is my fault too. I am not here to make amends but to ask you a favor and I think you owe it to my daughter" I let out a heavy sigh.
"Matteo I'll forgive you if do this right for her. I'll help track down James and your father but you need to focus on Adassah. You don't have to worry about her friends as I have already talked with them. Besides, I think you should know Adassah didn't lose her memories."
I look at him with surprise on why the hell he would say that. I mean if Adassah hasn't lost her memories then how come she doesn't remember what I fucking did.
"You need to listen to what I have to say" I look dumbfounded at him.
"Then explain Lyndon," I say and he did.
Sometime after Lyndon left I sat there not making any move and thinking hard about what he has proposed for me to do.
It's not so easy to do what he says but maybe it will be good for Adassah but then again she'll forever hate me.
I look at my clock it's 2 am Thunder wanted to see her and wanted me to buy food for her. So I did what he wanted besides I want to see her too.