: Open Wounds
It is finally the D-day. My mom's funeral and for the first time since I got out of the hospital I woke up before breaking dawn.
I find my brother not sleeping beside me. Taking in the scent in my room I knew my dad must have taken him to his room.
My speculations were confirmed when I find him sleeping peacefully in my dad's arms.
My lips stretch out into a smile seeing my dad finally at home.
"Adassah" my heart panics when I hear a voice similar to my mom's voice.
No, it sounded like her. It must be her because there can't be two her in this world.
"Oh my gosh! Is she alive?" I swirl around wishing and hoping it's true unfortunately it wasn't.
"Grandma" I run into her arms hugging her tightly.
It's been so long since I haven't seen her. "Oh, my poor child" she kisses me on the forehead.
"When did you arrive?" I ask while she still hugs me to her side as we walk downstairs.
We settled on a couch and I snuggle closer to her.
"Child, I swear you're getting heavier" she dramatically tries to push me off before she pulls me in her arms again.
"We came around 10 and you were sleeping like a damn child and yet you're not. Wesley is the baby here" she jokingly says while brushing my hair with her fingers.
I listen as she talks "your dad picks me up last night. He came on the day after the attack telling me of your mom's death"
I became stiff in her arms, not wanting to hear the word go.
Then I heard her sniffles "my baby girl" she sobs.
"I wanted to come right away for you but I was in denial of her death. Adassah your mom was my only child. She is my everything and hearing her pass away I just couldn't bring myself to believe it"
I push away my emotions that were about to surface and snuggle closer to her giving her comfort.
"So I wanted to become strong first before coming here for you. I needed to and I'm sorry if it offends you somehow."
I just held onto her still refusing to cry. I need to be strong for all of them.
I didn't know when I fell back to sleep but when I woke up I was sleeping on the couch with a blanket over me.
I push it away folding it neatly and follow a delicious scent coming from the kitchen.
I saw my dad already dress in black holding Wesley in his arms.
I'm more surprised to see women's working around the kitchen with my grandma. She links me that Alpha let them come to help out.
"Adassah you need to be ready"
I nodded at my dad and went to clean the house neatly even though everything was already set.
I felt like I was a bad daughter with everyone setting things for my mom's funeral while me the daughter just stupidly sit around in my world.
Everyone in the pack was coming and they all relay their condolences to my dad.
I stood by the window looking outside of the house after getting ready.
Some of them I never knew of just only Gia, her brother Evan and Cora who came today with Jem.
Her funeral ceremony was held at our ancient packhouse that also known as a prayer house for the moon goddess.
Afterward, we then move towards the cemetery for her final moments.
I watch my mom's photos in her teen years and the one with me and dad surrounding her glass casket which is decorated with rubies and emeralds diamonds.
I never cry but I comfort my dad who was holding Wesley in his arms with my grandma on his other side.
Matteo concluded the ceremony by throwing roses on her casket before he howls towards the sky above.
Then howls of warriors in their wolves were heard followed by the howls of everyone at the funeral.
It was a way of respect to pay tribute to any fallen werewolf warriors.
One by one everyone went to throw in their flowers. I was the last one to be there.
I took a deep breathtaking in every last inch of her and painted her in my head.
When it's all over and she is buried underground my father looks at me and he knew I needed this.
He left me there by myself and I bid my friends goodbye.
Loving mother, mate, and daughter
Forever will be remembered,
Forever you remain in our heart
Forever is our home with you.
I mumble the words engraved on her headstone.
Right when everyone is out of sight and has gone back to their home.
I felt my walls come tumbling down immediately
All my scars are open with my body being torn and my soul being stripped bare in front of her.
All the emotions that I have bottled up and buried beneath my core are now dug up. Here I am finally facing it all and ready to be let it all out.
There were so many things I wanted to tell her but all I could think of now is; "I wish you're still here mom"
Slowly a lone tear made it to my cheek.
I may not remember everything but I do remember the time I was happy.
From my younger years to the time I was ready to become a lady.
I remember my mom holding me in her arms, her scolding, her kisses on my cheek, and the way she cares for me.
She is my infinity best friend the one that no friends of mine can replace in my heart.
The more I thought of my mom, the more tears burst from my eyes and my body began to shake violently.
For the first time since I woke up I mutter "Mom" my voice broke into sobs.
"Mom"
I try to say what I wanted her to hear but I couldn't as I just sobbed out loudly.
"Mom"
Why can't I say what I want? Why is it so hard to talk?
Damn these tears! Damn this stupid heart, for not letting me say it.
I beat on my heart vigorously
"I... I" sobs again "I love you mom"
I sobs and my body is ready to crumble on the ground. Instead, two arms snake around my waist keeping me up.
Sparks ignite through my body. I thought everyone was gone. I lean back on his chest with my back against his front.
Slowly we went down on the ground with him still holding me and me in loud sobs while trying to tear away from him and scraping on my skin especially my heart.
His tears wet my shoulders as he held me. I lean back crying out loud while still scratching at my skin
As if the abode of the goddess above felt my sorrow. The sky turns grey and rain pours on us while I cry there in the arms of my mate.
I keep on shouting at her to wake up and come back to life.
I keep on begging and begging for her to come back with my fist hitting the soil.
Her death is still unacceptable
I can't accept that she's gone
Matteo didn't say anything as he just held me back close to his chest with his head in the crook of my neck.
"Please mom, I can't do this without you" I shouted in tears
"Please, I don't remember if I ever told you I love you" I keep on sobbing with hopes she'll just come back to life.
"Please mom"
My vision turns blur and after losing my energy in my tears. I felt my shoulders heave and my body going limp in his arms
And just like that, I was gone as a feather, still begging for my mom to come back to us.