: First Night
Overwhelmed is one word to describe my feelings tonight.
I didn't know my first dinner with the pack would turn out to be like this.
It was peaceful and welcoming but I would be lying if I say there weren't people who seem to dislike my presence. Others gave me the 'who the hell she thinks she is' look.
Barbie Bitch was one of them. Her eyes were on me but her fork was slightly stabbing her food then she eats it with so much hatred throughout the dinner.
It feels like that it was my head she imagined that was on her plate. Yet I try to be a non-passive she-wolf for this night only.
After dinner, I had a good chat with other women in the Pack. They were all seems to concern about me especially the ones who are the same age as my dad.
I wonder if it's sincere or they just trying to be nice to my dad. Ugggh, like seriously some of them were shamelessly gawking at him all night.
They even went over to him and went cocoon on my poor innocent brother.
"Hey, how do you find it living here?" Gia asks me when everybody else is gone and it was just me and her.
"Pretty good, actually I am enjoying every bit of it. No dramas yet" I say while smiling
"That’s good" she hugs me on the side.
"Adassah"
"Hmmm"
She glances at Matteo then whisper in my ear "how are things with him?" she pointed to my mate
"Progressing" I reply to her.
"You guys didn't talk of anything else?" she raised her brows and I began to grow curious.
"Why are you wondering? Is there something I should know about?" she shook her head no
"Unless you wanted to hear other things...you know" I joke winking at her and she slightly slaps me on the shoulder.
"Did he talk to you about anything regarding your past?"
"Not that I could recall but why, did anything happen?" Gia again shook her head no
Growing a little bit annoyed with my friend's attitude I turn to her.
"Gia, did something bad happens to me in the past?" I ask and she looks contemplating before shaking her head no again.
Something did happen but she is refusing to tell me. I wanted to push her with my questions but my dad calls me to take Wesley to my room.
"Sorry got to go"
She hugs me for a long time before going over to Ed. Before she goes she turns back to me "Addy, don't fall too quickly."
I wanted to scream at her and ask what the hell she means but my dad was waiting with Wesley sleeping in his arms.
I skip over to my dad to carry Wesley to my room as he is leaving for his night duty at the border.
I kiss him on the cheek goodnight and went to my room with Wesley.
"Did you enjoy tonight?" I look over my shoulder to find Matteo standing at my room's door.
I stealthily then gently put Wesley in the middle of my bed.
I was about to move down from the bed when Wesley suddenly cries and quietly I move back on the bed and try to make him sleep.
Lying beside him I gently pat on his stomach. My head pops up to see Matteo there then I motion for him to come over.
He pointed his finger to himself and I nodded my head to him yes. He slowly walks up to my bed and stood by the side.
"You can lay there on the other side of him" I whisper to him and again he slowly moves on the bed taking off his shoes and then socks.
I gave him my other pillow to use then he lies down facing me with Wesley between the two of us.
"I did enjoy tonight," I told him in a lower voice.
"Glad you did" he smiles before his eyes shift towards the sleeping Wesley.
I watch him staring at my baby brother capturing the image of him and imagining if this was us before I lose my memories.
I wonder if we ever going to be like this in the future. Well, I hope this image I have would come true but then I wonder how I am going to react once he touches me sexually.
I mean am I going to be good for him when we do it or I'm one of the weirdest mates in doing it.
Alera rolls her eyes in my head saying "oh dear that would be my job to teach you the erotic, sex, or whatever sex scene to have with him."
I cut off our links and focus my attention back on Matteo. I am mesmerized by his green eyes and the way he stares at Wes. I know I sounded like a stalker but what can I do when he is so damn hot.
Smiling at him Alera groans in my head forcing her way through our links "stop staring at him like that" yet I don't care at all.
I saw a tear slip from his eyes then suddenly he sat up wiping them off and then reaches for his socks and shoes.
I look down at Wes and saw that he is sleeping deeply.
Rushing out of the bed I move and held back Matteo's hand before he opens the door to leave.
"What's wrong?" I ask turning him around to face me.
His eyes were close refusing to look at me as if he is afraid to open them.
My hand reaches up to him and caresses his cheeks "what's wrong?" I ask again.
He slowly opens his eyes and more tears burst from those beautiful green eyes of his.
His hand held my hand to his cheek. "Adassah, I don't think this is good for the both of us" he tries to breathe
"What do you mean?" I ask with worriedness.
"What if this moment is not the moment we share in the past? What if I was a disappointing mate to you? What if? What if I did something unforgivable" I pull him in my arms shutting him off with his worries.
"I am always going to be there for you no matter what but you have to promise to tell me all about it," his sobs grew a little bit louder and I try to hush him up like a pup.
He stays there in my arms for a while before he pushes away from me then kisses me on the forehead.
"I'll see you tomorrow," he whispers to my ear and went out of my room.
I hope so too to see him the next day but who could have detected that he lies about seeing me the next day.