Synn's POV
"Wow, you sure have a strong and determined heart," I watch as Arika ate all of the chocolate Gold had been sending. I raised an eyebrow at her before focusing my attention back to my nails as I try to put on some nail polish.
"He looked so dejected and sad Synn. I swear, earlier, he's even close to crying!" she added. As if that would make me waver.
"He's been coming her nonstop waiting dor you to talk to him,"
"It's been a week since they came back, Synn. You're not coming out of your room every time he visits and you're not answering his calls," I blocked my ears as I listen to what Snow says
And even from a distance, I can feel Elisse's stare from afar.
"And you're not telling us what's wrong. Gold had to come here every day to see you but you're not letting him. Like, what's the problem?" she continued.
I never told my members about my conflicts with Gold's ex-girlfriend nor gave them an idea that they were once in a relationship. I kept it all to myself. And even now, I won't tell them because I know what will happen. With Snow starting a relationship with Mono, I don't want to cause anything that will affect both our group's relationship.
It's been a month since I broke up with him. Thank God he had a lot of concerts to attend to that I've had the time to think and reflect on what happened.
"Did you fall out of love?" Arika asked and my heart clenched at her words.
For a week, I've trained my heart not to feel and to forget everything that has happened.
I've blocked his number and stopped checking my social media for anything related to him. The less I see photos of him, the less I remember, the less it hurts.
I've seen Steffy one time and she looked like she was startled when she saw me. But I didn't bother giving her any attention.
"And you still won't talk? Yah, Synn, aren't you being too much?" my jaw clenched a little. I was trying to stop myself from balling my hand into fist.
Calm down, Synn. They don't know. They don't need to know.
"Synn...." I heard Elisse spoke and by the tone of her voice, I suddenly got scared.
I lifted my gaze and met hers.
"Did Gold cheated on you?" she asked but it feels like she was sure about it. Her arms were now crossed over her chest and for some reason, she looked mad. "Don't even lie to us Synn. I know you. You won't get mad unless it's something unacceptable,"
I bit my lower lip and avoided her gaze.
"What?" Snow exclaimed and the chocolate Arika was munching immediately dropped on the floor.
"Hey, Synn! Is that true?" Arika sounded angry too.
This is why I don't want to tell my members. I stare back to Elisse and pouted. Why does she have to know every time?
I focused my attention back to my nails, my eyes moistening a little.
Don't cry, Synn.
"Uhhhh, Synn..I'm sorry..." I heard Arika cooed. She was close to crying before moving forward and engulfing me in a hug.
Even Snow and Elisse moved forward and started hugging me too.
"Yah, my nails!" I tried laughing it off but my tears are now streaming down my cheeks.
"Oh gosh Synn. I'm going to kill Gold!" Elissed hissed and I chuckled.
"Did you catch him doing it? Who's the girl?" Snow sounded angry as she started tapping on her phone.
"It's okay Snow. I broke up with him," I muttered and they all looked at a loss.
Elisse looked worried. "Did you talk to him? What did he tell you?"
I smiled bitterly. "I broke up with him over the phone, before his London concert,"
Arika gasped. "Gold injured himself at that time. Oh gosh, does it have anything to do with what happened?"
My lips quiver at her words.
I knew Gold got injured. I saw clips of him crying. I tried to stop myself from checking up on him but I still did and I almost called him again to make up. Thank God I stopped myself. That's when I stopped checking him out over the net.
I love Gold. I do. I fucking do but I love myself too. I won't let him break myself apart. I won't let him ruin me.
I'd rather let him be than let him stay just so he can wreck me.
"I feel so proud of you Synn. Don't worry, we won't let Gold come near you. I'm going to break his face if he did," Elisse pouted and I smiled at her.
"I mean, how dare him! I'm going to give him an earful once I see him!" Arika exclaimed.
Just then, Snow's phone started ringing and her face scrunched up immediately. I tilted my head a little. I don't think this is a good idea honestly. I know how protective my members can be. It may not like it but they are. Once, I was bullied when I was a trainee and both Arika and Snow stepped up and made sure nobody can mess up with me.
"Mono," she answered. My face grimaced at the sound of her voice. I feel so bad for Mono. He'll definitely be the receiving end of Snow's anger.
"No. Don't come here today. Oh no. Erase that. Don't come here until I tell you,"
Elisse chuckled while I pout at what Snow stated.
"Well, too bad your so-called Golden member did something horrible towards us. He cheated on Synn. Tell him noto to visit our dorm or I'll break his face myself, do you understand?"
And then she ended the call. I feel so bad for Mono. Snow can be a little hard sometimes.
She started tapping on her phone again and I laughed.
"Hey, you don't have to go hard with Mono like that," I smiled and she pouted.
"Nah, I'll make sure that Gold kid will get it after what he did," she stated and I cried again.
I'm just so thankful I have my members like them.
I guess I don't need a Gold Simons in my life after all.