....And I sit under a tree thinking, have you ever wondered about me the way I wonder about you. Thinking that no one but you interrupt me from that thought and take me to reality. But in the end that never happened.....
Evelyn POV:-
I continued to sob at the raging fire created by my delusion that if I have to keep the harsh truth away from him, everything will be fine. If I told him before, then this would never happen.
"Lawrence, please... trust me.." I said between the sobs but nothing is affecting him as he is lost in his emerald fury.
“I don’t want to hear anything, Evelyn.”
I continued to plead, in the end, being vexed by me he stopped the car in a corner and gave me an infuriated look which caused me to be stiff in dread.
“Please…” Being tremendously terrified, I began to pant.
"Speak anything else and my actions will speak louder than your words." He said so menacingly that it made my very soul shudder in fear.
I never fathomed his rage would be this terrifying.
I gave him a tentative nod in vast apprehension. Just thinking about what he might do, I continued to tremble as my uneven breath clearly shows that I am drowned in the horrors.
We reached my house and my heart skipped a beat. He stopped the car at the entrance and yanked me towards him. I let out a gasp of fright when I did that.
"I don't want to go. Please go back. Please. Calm down and listen to me for once." I begged but he scoffed and leaned in and whispered in my ear.
"You are going to live there until I come back to take you, got it?" He spoke in such a threatening tone that my body went numb.
"No. I don't want to go. Please. What if you won’t come?" I asked sorrowfully.
“I will but just give me some space to think.” He breathed out, trying to stay composed.
“Lawrence, why can’t we just talk it out?”
“Why don’t you understand!? I need to be alone! Your presence will only remind me that you love my fucking brother!” Growling, he raised his voice, slamming his hand on the steering wheel.
Shutting my eyes, I gasped in fear. He gave me an outraged glare that quickly shut me up. I wiped my tears with my trembling hands as he left me there.
I took my suitcase and entered with that crushed heart.
Sniffing, I wiped my tears, trying to look slightly better but to no avail. My eyes showed my pain.
Mother and father came and smiled at me. I forced a smile and hugged them. I bit my lips to not to cry but being much heartbroken, I began to cry.
"What happened, Evelyn? Is everything alright?" I sniffed and wiped my tears.
"Everything is fine, father. I just came back home for the first time after my marriage, that's why.." I smiled sadly. They hugged me.
"Lawrence didn't come?" Father asked.
"No, He was busy and I was missing you guys so much," I said, smiling while trying not to cry as they nodded.
I then excused myself and went to my room. I closed the door and leaned on it. I fell on the ground and hid my face in my knees.
When I cried enough to dry my eyes out, I called Jane,
"Hello?" She said,
"Jane... Come to my parent's home.. please.." I said as tears began to fall again and I began to cry again.
"Evelyn, you okay? Wait. I am coming right away." She said and cut the call in a panic.
I wiped my tears and looked at my room.
An empty smile was formed on my lips. I was just getting ready to go to Lawrence's wedding and ended up being his bride.
They are right, no one has seen what the future holds. Sometimes, unpredictable incidents can happen that can change lives.
I thought that when I come back from the wedding, I'll cry to myself. I am crying but not because of the reason I thought I would. I never thought that loving someone would give me this grief...
After a while, Jane came and I hugged her and began to cry again. She patted my back as I cried.
"What happened, Evelyn?"
"Everything is ruined..." I began to cry. She continued to console me.
I told her what happened as she remained silent. Her face remained emotionless as I stared at her. I know she's gonna burst and she did,
"What the hell? Can't he just listen to you for once!? He should listen to you! Everyone has a lover before their marriage if you also have one so what's the big deal in it?! What the hell is wrong with his anger issues!?" She said, frustrated.
"The big deal is that person is his brother," I said and she took a deep breath.
"I'll talk to the idiot!" She said.
"No, Not now... please," I said as she looked at me with a commiseration. She sighed and took me with her.
"Come and sit with your parents and calm yourself first." I continued to whine but she dragged me away.
"Uncle! Aunt!" She called mother and father as we both entered the lounge. I passed them a smile and sat with them.
"So, How's your life?" Father asked. "Good.." I said.
"Really?" Mother asked. I nodded and forced a grin so that they wouldn't think that anything bad had happened. I never felt this shattered before, I can't hold my facades, I'm falling apart.
"So? What's new you have felt?" Mother asked. I smiled and opened my mouth to say something but Jane said,
"Marriage is a strange bond, I've fallen for Lawrence. I felt so fortunate to be married to Lawrence. I just love him. I feel so lucky. Now, I am nothing without him. It feels so incomplete whenever he is not around…" She continued to mumble as I threw the cushion at her.
"What? That's what you said." She argued.
"But I didn't tell you to tell it to everyone!"
"I will!" She clicked her tongue at me as I did the same. Mother and father chuckled looking at us.
"Okay, We understand you are very happy." Mother said. We stopped bickering and looked at our mother. I flashed a smile at her and mumbled a 'thanks' to Jane.
We continued to chatter and after dinner, we came to my room.
I smiled sadly and looked at my ring.
"Call Lawrence, I bet he can’t stay mad. You have to call him once and he will come." Jane suggested. I nodded and tried to call Lawrence but stopped.
"I think I should give him some space to think… It must be hard to accept..," I said sitting on the bed.
She sat beside me and patted my back, "How about we go to meet him?" She suggested once again. I shuddered in fear and shook my head 'no'.
"Why?" She asked. "Because, he said so," I said, hugging my sides. She muttered something under her breath and we both laid down to sleep.
I look at the ceiling, being unable to sleep and missing the warmth of my husband. A tear rolled onto my cheek and soon the tears glisten my cheeks. Jane turned on the lights and hugged me and I cried in her arms.
“I don’t want to lose him, Jane. I can’t live without him, I need him.” I whispered, my heart was breaking badly.
“W-What if he didn’t come b-back?” I asked, shivering slightly only by the thought.
"Don’t think ridiculously, of course he will return... Just stay strong for now." She reassured me.
"I can't live without him.. I love him.." I continued to cry. and she tried to comfort me for the rest of the night but my mind wandered around Lawrence only.
Wondering if he was thinking about me miserably the way I do or not…