CHAPTER 75
(LONGING INTIMACY)
The tension was palpable!
Our breath entwined, savoring the feel of our lips against each other while he ran his hands down my back and grabbed my butt.
S*x could be enjoyed even in the most unconventional moment.
Without breaking the kiss, Finn carried and took me to my bedroom like he's been there before. Carefully, he placed me on the bed, letting me lay on my back.
He knelt on top of me as he began to unbutton his shirt.
I assisted him.
Removing his shirt, my jaw dropped as I gulped hard. Finn had a familiar seemingly perfect body with chiseled abs and defined muscles. I traced my fingers along the lines and curves of his chest.
He looked into my eyes, the same gaze he gave the last time we were positioned this way at his place ~ like he wanted me to give him a go ahead sign but before I answered, he lifted my chin and our lips locked again. A slight moan escaped my lips as my breathe began to cease.
Doesn't he understand that my body wanted more? I was so down.
I broke the kiss and ran my fingers down the ridges of his lower abs then I shoved my hand into his trousers as if I were a professional.
“Fvck!” Finn groaned.
My breathing became rapid and goosebumps formed on my skin the moment I touched his shaft. I hope I didn't hurt him though.
“Make love to me Finn” No, that was too plain. “I'm horny, fvck me!” I whispered.
His hardened d*ck poked at me as if it was tryna get out of the clothing. He was in the mood too, why then was he taking so much time?
He unbuckled his belt and pulled down his trousers, alongside his boxers.
His erection eagerly pointed at my direction and my eyes were fixated on it. Mr B.D! I was supposed to be terrified or shocked but it brought back memories that made me yearn for him more.
He raised up my flare gown, so he could easily pull down my panties.
I held onto his hand and moved it between my legs, into my hot, wet sheath. His eyes stared in amazement as he felt the wetness between my legs and the tightness of my p*ssy.
He rubbed my p*ssy, I instantly got scared but I enjoyed it.
Without any warning, he pushed in a finger, evoking a loud moan from me.
“Hah… Finn! Oh my God!” My fear increased.
He slipped the finger out and rubbed my clit lightly.
“You're damn so tight” He whispered into my ears. “Should I continue?”
I didn't say anything. I really wanted him inside of me but without the pains. He suddenly inserted the finger again.
“Hah!” I yelped and pushed him aside.
I was trembling.
It was just one finger, infact half because a full finger couldn't go in, talk more of his hardened d*ck which was erecting to penetrate.
“Oh My God! It hurts. Hold on Finn! Wait a minute” I closed my eyes and bemoaned.
Like the patient and understanding man Finn was, he paused although the s*xual urge was too much for him.
I wondered why he wasn't shocked that I was a virgin; like he already knew he was gonna meet a tight V. Maybe he has already seen through my charade.
“Are you ready?” He asked me softly after a while.
I can't believe that I was wet even in serious pain.
When I didn't say anything he got off the bed.
“I'm ready” I pleaded.
“I don't wanna go against your wish” He said calmly.
But if I don't do this now, when next or when ever I decide to, I'll still feel the pain, so what's the point? Afterall, the pain is just for the first time.
“Slowly and gently” I added, making him climb on the bed again.
He laid me down in the position he wanted and slowly rubbed his skin against mine as he lowered himself on top of me, letting me wrap my legs around his torso.
He teased my honeypot with his d*ck trying to make the pain subside as well increasing my want for him but when he tried to insert into me again, he couldn't. It was just the pinkish cap poking at my v- wall.
With harsh and uneven gasps, he moved from on top of me and fell to the bed, right next to me. I guess he has given up.
“What's.. what's happening?” I asked, exhaling roughly. I was also already beginning to fall out of mood.
“I can't do this, I can't penetrate” He complained.
“Why not?” I asked.
“I…I don't know” He replied.
“Check it out, let's try again” I urged.
I spread my legs shamelessly, Finn knelt in front of me and peered at my virginia. He forcefully drove his finger into me and I screamed. “Don't.. don't do it again” I flinched.
I gave up once I noticed a little droplet of blood sliding out of my clit. The pain was inexpressible. I suddenly felt sore and boneless.
“I'm sorry” He apologized.
I grabbed the duvet to cover my nakedness, like he hasn't seen or touched it.
“You are in serious pain” He picked up his trousers and began to dress up without his shirt.
He laid next to me, shirtless and pulled me closer to rest on his chest, our bodies entwined while we covered ourselves with a duvet.
He kissed my forehead.
“I love you so much Finn, I'm sorry for not admitting sooner” I mumbled.
“You already admitted” He smiled, gently cupping my face.
“I mean.. I wanna be together with you forever, I don't know why it took me this long to tell you this”
“Likewise, I want you to be my woman, not just a girlfriend but the mother of my unborn kids. I want to spend the rest of my life with you” He proposed.
“Me too” I smiled and he kissed me.
“How do you feel now? Relieved?” He asked.
“Not really” I responded coldly.
“I'm sorry”
“It's not your fault” I told him.
“It's not yours either”
We chuckled.
“It's usually like this for a first timer right?” I didn't wanna panic yet.
“Hmmn, the pain, yes. But… I don't know why I couldn't penetrate” He huffed. “Maybe because you are so fvcking tight or maybe because I have never disvirgined a girl” Finn replied.
“You are a virgin too?” I almost exclaimed.
“Hell no, I meant you are my first virgin girl”
“Ohh” I felt pleased and delighted.
He smiled; “I've indirectly just confessed my wildest secret to you”
“You met so many different girls before me?” I mumbled.
“I promise, I regret not finding you sooner. I'm sorry for wasting precious time with other women” He apologized, gently patting my head.
I rolled my eyes and inquired; “Are all guys actually the same? S*x is supposed to be a form of bonding. You can't bond with so many women” I argued.
Although, I knew within me that the only reason why I was still a virgin was because I wasn't opportune to have sex!
“Maybe you're right. Well, life is too short to be uptight about sex' Finn remarked.
I felt I've heard this exact statement, somewhere.
While I reminisced about the statement, the situation on the ground unexpectedly bothered me, I frowned and unsnuggled him, then turned to the side to face him properly, he did the same.
“You are not frustrated, are you?” I asked him, referring to the longing intimacy that couldn't work out.
“What? Not at all. We can do this again when you've recovered or when you're ready” He said as he gently pulled me closer again, returning to our initial position.
I swear, I am an innocent woman who unyielding yearns for physical connection, physical touch, physical intimacy, sex and everything in between.
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To Be Continued