"Wow, my wife is sexy." I whistled when I saw Lileth come out of the bathroom.
"Really." I slapped her ass and then laughed out loud. "Dustine!" She angrily rebuked me and glared at me. I just give her a peace sign while still laughing while she's glaring at me.
"It's just a slap because you're so sexy and thrilling. Really delicious."
"Literally delicious." Oh God, suddenly my pet awake.
"Stop teasing me, Lileth, and we'll leave."
"I don't think I want to leave," she said then sat on the bed so I frowned. We talked about eating out to have a date. Since we became ok my wife and I have been dating a lot. To create new memories.
"Dustine!"
"Let's not leave." I removed the towel and her body was exposed. I almost lost my smile when I saw her body. Until now there is still a pain in me when I see her scars caused by hurting her. Large welts and occasional candle burn when I am angry.
"Dustine," she calls me when I can't move. I gave her a smile to let her know that I am ok. "Are you thinking again?" She wrapped the body in a blanket.
"Your marks reminded me how ass I am." The position was reversed when she stood up. I am now the one at the bottom and she is the one at the top.
"That's the stain of love." My eyebrows frown. "The taste of what is served after ----"
"Hey!" I scolded but she just laughed. "Stop being a masochist."
"I really want the sadistic Dustine. The one who beats me while making me happy."
"Lileth." But she laughs harder and kisses me.
"I love you so much, Dustine," she said while looking into my eyes. "Don't blame yourself. Don't be guilty of hurting me because that's all I want. Don't think, we're ok and I still love you and that hasn't changed. It has increased even more."
"I love you, too." She kissed me passionately and I kissed her back. Her kiss fell on my neck so I closed my eyes.
"Let's go," she said and quickly stood up.
"What the ---- Lileth."
"I have a period."
"Fuck," I cuss and then stand up.
"It's okay, it's delicious too, isn't it?" she said teasingly.
"Is it OK?" I ran over to her and hugged her. I raised my eyebrows to tease her.
"No, I don't want to litter because I don't want to clean."
"I'll clean up the mess," I suggested.
"No."
"Please, Lileth."
"I will cry."
"Ok fine, I'm going to get dressed," I said and was about to turn around when she suddenly hugged me.
"If I can get it back." She hugged me from behind so I faced her. I kiss her nose and smile at her. "Promise, I will do intense bj and cowgirl with your pet when my period is done. Just pee that can rest us." I laugh and hugged her tight.
"You're so naughty, but I like it," I said with a sigh. "I love you."
"I love you, too."
"All right, get dressed so we can leave." We dressed the same but I finished first. "I'll wait for you outside." She nods and gives me pick kiss.
I go out and wait for her in the living room. I look at our wedding picture and then smile. That genuine smile I had back then had already come back. And I will never waste it all again. I will bring back that smile completely.
I stood up and then approached the picture. I caressed it and felt it. I remember the happy days it happened. It refreshed the emotion I had behind that smile.
Happiness.
Happy that I finally marry her. Happy that the woman I love is already mine. I can't explain my fucking feeling at that time. I am the luckiest man alive way back then.
I glanced at the side of the dresser. The place where everything changes. The night that changed everything. I sighed remembering that night. To this day I still regret what I did.
I never thought I could do that to her because of the anger and pain that another woman gave me. My anger at another woman who should have been hers alone I poured out on my wife. I am an ass way back then.
I look back at the picture. From now on, I will make sure that Lileth will be happy. Now, that we are ok she will never hurt again. I will take back everything wasted because of me. She will now prioritize.
I feel someone hug me from behind. I took her hand and felt her hug.
"I've been behind but you don't notice me."
"I'm sorry. I am busy thinking of you."
She moved in front of me but still hugged me.
"Why are you thinking about me?"
"I'm thinking about how I can get back everything I wasted," I said and caressed her face.
"You're already forgiven, Dustine. We haven't been confused like this yet, you're forgiven. I am the one who needs to get back because I lied. I am at fault. It started with me so I have to get it back from you."
"No." I give her a kiss. "It's all started with me. Dad is right, whatever else is your fault if there is any, I shouldn't hurt you like that. And Dylan is right too, I shouldn't have sent in anger and I calmed down first before we talked. I am sure if I talked to you and promised that no matter what happens we will get through it all, I know you will tell me the truth. We could not have reached that point because we have to empathize in the beginning to find a way."
She leaned her head on my chest. I put my arms around her and smell her hair.
"I was really the only one who was wrong, Dustine. But you're really right - I didn't trust your love. I was afraid that when you found out that others had disgusted my body, you would attack me. I was afraid that your love for me might not be so strong and you would dislike me. I was also afraid to tell you the truth. Because you might not be able to handle what you will discover." Then she looked up. "Sorry, Dustine."
I kiss her head and kiss her lips.
"We can't go back in time, Lileth. But I am happy right now that we are ok. I can do everything I want with you. Whatever happened right then, makes us stronger. If we get past all that, there is nothing we can't get past."
"If you get through all that, you have nothing you can't get through. You're right, Dustine."
"I love you, Lileth. I love you."
"I love you so much, Dustine." I kiss her and hug her tightly.