Chapter 51
"To my beloved...little brother...Damon,"
Starting from the first words, I feel like it's gnawing at the corner of my heart. The aches and pains are there. Maybe because I know that Alpha Devon's death was the reason why Damon's life was filled with darkness. I know that Alpha Devon is the most important person in Damon's life. Alpha Devon's death was bitter and painful for Damon.
It was added that Neticia was saddened by the death of Alpha Devon. And the most painful thing is that Jules is responsible for everything. Someone they considered family, brother, and cousin. This is painful for Damon, and I know it is even more painful for Alpha Devon.
I don't know what Neticia did then why Jules’s so angry with Damon and Alpha Devon. I don't know what the end of it all was, but I feel like...with this letter I will know everything about Alpha Devon's hidden past.
I took a deep breath and stared at Alpha Devon's complicated handwriting. Just from his letter, it can be seen immediately what his duty is in this world. Every letter and word consists of authority.
To my beloved little brother,
I won't forget the day you were born, Damon. It was a day worthy of celebration. Many have waited and longed for your arrival. Many people rejoiced and gave offerings. Maybe because they can all read your destiny. That the day will come when they see you sitting on the throne of the Alpha king. Maybe this is what is meant for you.
I'm writing this to you because I have a secret to tell. And I can't take it all by myself anymore. I can't say it to you in person because they are watching us. Just one act of mine will surely make me lose you. Just one wrong move I know I won't last long in this world. That's why I see this letter as the only way to reach you with the truth.
You were just five years old when our parents died. And I immediately was crowned as Alpha king like everyone expected. But that night was a terrible night, Damon. A lot happened that even I couldn't control.
Anna. I know you know Anna. She was the girl Solidad took to our palace to serve. We saved her.
Stone. He came from his loyal and great ancestors of Beta. Of all the wolves that guard the palace and our family, Stone is the most honest and honorable. I witnessed how loyal he is and how trustworthy he is in our family. With all the things he did, I only promised him one thing. That I will protect his mate, Anna.
But I failed. I failed him. Anna bravely fought the murderers of our parents, but she was hopelessly violated by those bandits. I was mad. I was angry. I was vengeful. I can't just let the killers of our parents and those who took advantage of Anna's weakness. So, I investigated. I tried my best but, in the end, I failed again.
A war began between Agama and Rema. I have strong evidence that they entered our kingdom and did bad things to our parents and Anna. I promised Stone and Anna that I will crush Rema as much as I can, and I will not stop until their kingdom disappears from the map.
But I was a coward. I stopped the war and started a treaty of peace between Rema instead of war. Not because I want peace...it's because before I was the Alpha king, I am your brother. Rema got you and held you hostage. They will kill you if I continue the war. It was like they gave me a choice between you or the justice.
And I'm sorry because I chose you.
Since then, I couldn't face Stone and Anna. I don't have the courage to face them because I was a useless Alpha king. And I'm even more guilty because I didn't regret the decision I made. And I realized, this is not the Alpha king. An Alpha king should make the justice and kingdom his priority. An Alpha King is a huge title and powerful thing you behold but in exchange for this is you forgetting your duty as a blood relative and family. But I forgot those teaching and chose you.
That's why I am not suitable for being an Alpha king. I will only continue to disappoint the people around me if I stay sitting on the throne. That's why Jules started to hate me. He didn't like what I did. He told me I wasn't deservng for being an Alpha. He swore in front of me that the time would come when he would be the Alpha king.
I understand him. He was angry and beyond mad. He ran away from home and never came back. Good thing Neticia and Solidad stayed by my side. Neticia continues to color life in the palace. She's trying to win your heart, Damon and I think she's succeeding. Solidad, on the other hand, was a kind and patient Luna.
But it's a mistake to pretend that everything is fine because I know that someone is still hurt by my decision. Jules was giving me threats. I also heard that he got inside the rogues. I know that his anger towards me is deep. It's also my fault because Neticia continues to protect me against her even though I know Jules is Neticia's mate and maybe he is hurt by what Neticia is doing.
I told Neticia several times not to keep Jules away from me. Instead of staying by my side, she must go with Jules because Jules is the one, she loves. But Neticia cried in front of me. She said...that she can't stomach Jules's darkness. She does not like Jules' pursuit of the throne. She said that she tried to convince Jules to stop his anger, but she failed. That's why she chose to protect me and Damon from her mate. I know it hurts for her because I know how much she loves Jules.
I tried to talk to Jules, but he attempted to kill me. He claimed that Neticia loves me and not him. I told him he was wrong, but he didn't believe me. He remained convinced that Neticia was in love with me.
Until I learned an even stronger truth that caused me so much pain and destruction. This is where I proved what a worthless leader I am.
Anna told me...that Stone was seeing Jules.
I don't know why but I can't hide behind my throne anymore. Anna remained loyal to me even though I hurt her a lot, but her mate Stone will never forget my betrayal as the Alpha king.
Damon...I know I have no right to say this but please...protect the throne. I know I may not last long on this earth and the day will come when you inherit the throne. Please...don't let Jules take the throne. I have failed to protect the people I love because I was weak and cowardly, but I believed in you that you will not do the same mistake I did years ago. I know that you can protect the people you love and the throne at the same time. So, please...Damon...I'm begging you to protect your Luna, the kingdom, your people and the...throne.