Josh's POV
"Hyung, it's okay. She's fine already."
My eyes landed on Yohan who is sitting on the couch while I walked back and forth in front of them.
We're all now back in the house except for Jake who stayed because he was her brother after all.
Our manager sent us back home because a lot of fans heard about what happened and had camped outside of the hospital.
It's a huge mess actually.
Once we reached the hospital, several articles came online about Samantha.
There are some photos of us on a date in the amusement park and even a few when we were outside the house.
I don't even know how this happened. I was sure there were no paparazzi on the area. There aren't even some fans who noticed us when we were on a date.
Another one were the photos of us and Ara when we were on the station.
It was even captioned that I was in a relationship with Ara and I was cheating on her with Samantha.
There is also one while she was hugging Jake while I was holding her arms like I am trying to break them apart. Technically, theories about multiple love triangles had arisen.
The last one was pretty bad. An article showed that Samantha was actually living with us in the house which made all the fans furious.
It was pretty chaotic.
A lot of hate comments were directed towards her saying that she's a slut and she's breaking me and Ara apart. I didn’t really know how things have happened like that. Normally, our fans will also be angry with any of us dating. Apparently, they’d accept the fact that I was dating Ara rather than dating a fan, or so they thought.
Some even says that she's ruining VOELEVARD for going in between me and Jake.
Everything had been crazy and all of these happened in just a matter of few hours.
To be honest, I was hurt when I read all of the comments about her. I wanted to go and tell people that she's not like that.
My Samantha isn't a bad person. She's the purest and sincerest person I have ever met.
I almost did but the boys said I should stop reading the comments for now.
How can they even tell those things when she's almost dying here at the hospital?
Before we went home, the doctor said she's already fine and stable but she won't be waking up anytime soon.
I almost went crazy when I saw her almost lifeless on the floor when we all rushed into her room.
What if Jake did not ask for her?
Or if he hadn't checked what she ate?
She could have died and we won't even know.
A lot of scenarios went through my mind
I want to kill myself. I'm so stupid. I should be the one lying there not her.
I was never this afraid my entire life. After what happened, I realized that I can't take the risk of losing her in my life.
I mean, I love my fans but I can't lose her either. Not anytime soon. I don’t think I can ever live with that.
You're a fool, Josh. I said to myself.
I should have gone to here immediately when she came home so we can fix things out.
I knew she was hurting but instead of coming to her first, I decided to satisfy to my curiosity by confronting Jake who turned out to be her brother.
I'm such an idiot. Why did I even think about those stupid things?
I know in my heart that she's not the kind of person to cheat or play with people.
I should have trusted her.
I should have hugged her real tight and said everything is fine.
I should have been there when she was crying. I should have told her I love her.
I've been thinking about these things over and over. If I actually just talked to her, none of this should have happened.
God, I just remember, I've never even asked her last name. If I did, I should have figured out that they were siblings.
Furthermore, I am her boyfriend and I'm not even aware that she's allergic to peanuts.
My heart almost shattered into pieces when I saw Jake crying. He's having a breakdown.
As much as I love Samantha, I can't imagine how he's feeling right now.
He surely love his sister to death to the point that they were not talking for a long time just because he doesn't want to be away from her.
I saw how Samantha looked earlier. She was so pale and was barely even breathing, I almost went and hug her. She's so fragile. I was afraid I might crush her when I picked her up on the floor.
I messed up with my hair and sat beside Yohan. The others are all looking at me in pity.
"This is my fault." I can't help but say while my tears are still continuously falling down my cheeks.
I'm a mess and I don't care.
I felt a hand continuously tapped my back.
I looked up and saw Vash standing in front of me, his eyes also red from crying.
Actually, every one of us cried earlier. The boys have gone to love her as well. She's almost a family to them.
I swear to God I almost collapsed on the floor when her heartbeat stopped for a moment.
I mean, we all saw how the doctors and the nurses were all in panic when the line connected to her started beeping as a signal that her heart stopped beating momentarily.
After that, everything went silent. It feels like everything around me started moving in slow motion and I was afraid of what will happen next.
My heart was just hanging of my chest.
When we saw that the doctors were trying to bring her back, we were all crying outside.
After a few minutes, we saw the doctor looked relived and the monitor beside Samantha started showing her faint heartbeat.
The doctor said that she was lucky to survived because if she was brought to the hospital a few minutes later, she would have died. Her allergies were so bad it had caused her to stop breathing properly.
Everyone was in panic. My eyes continued watering and Jake continuously punched on the wall until Jason and Vash pulled him and hugged him really tight. It was so heartbreaking.
Jake and Samantha's parents arrived after a few minutes.
I don't even know who called them because everyone was in panic.
There were some reporters who came but were thrown out by the security. Everybody wants to know who she is and why we are all in the hospital.
In the end, our manager's came and escorted us home because everything is in chaos.
"Hyung, it's not your fault. It's not anyone's fault." Vash said as he cupped my face. He's now sitting in front of me.
I felt someone hug me from my side and saw Jason giving me a hug.
"It's all my fault. She almost died. Fuck!"
I don't like cursing. I hate it so much but I can't express my frustration enough.
"She's okay now. Jake called and said that the doctors informed them that she's out of danger." Haiden said while he tries to calm my nerves.
"The only problem we have now are the articles on the net. How did they found out these things anyway?" Rome added.
I sigh in frustration. That's another thing. Our manager said not to post anything on social media and the management will be handling it.
I haven't even told them that I'm going out with her.
Everything used to be fine but why does it feels like everything is starting to fall apart?
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