"She came here saying that she's not after rich people and just here for work"
"Wasn't Sir Christian enough? What that woman is keeping quiet about is the stench of her hidden habit."
"What a waste!"
"Has something happened to them?"
And those were the words I heard over our lunch break and I couldn’t help it when I was about to get up just to see Roe pouring an ice tea on top of a girls head
"Are you man Roe? What's the problem?" Miranda asked
"That's for running your mouth because you're so jealous of Lily." said Roe
And I was about to take Roe away but suddenly a woman spoke again
"Why is it true, she's acting clean but she's not really clean." he said to me and that hit me
I wasn't expecting to drag this too much attention to whatever I was doing and that hit me, I don't know if I'm a dirty woman for having Steve especially because of my attachment to Christian, especially Liam
"Come on Roe let's go." That's all I said and I never heard what they said
We went to the rooftop of the building and I was just seating next to where the shadow of the rooftop door was and I was thinking and thinking of what they said
"Don't think too much, Lily that's not really true and I believe you." said Roe to me
I don't know why he also came with me to join me here if he hasn't really eaten his lunch yet
"Cigarette?" he asked me
"You just left me." that's all I answered with him
I've been hearing those since the time I stepped on the floor of this building, and I was trying not to get what they were saying in my heart but it was so much to take I can't even say what my reason is but that was not for them to know and I don't have to say what's wrong with myself
Roe passed the cigarette close to its tube and I was about to suck the rest of it but Steve flashed on my mind and I ended up stumping harshly on the cigarette to let out what I truly feel and I felt good for some amount of reasons
"Felt better?" Roe asked
"Yep!" I said as I caught my breath
"Then let's go, our shift is also coming to an end and next week you'll be at night shift so hold your horses." she said to me and place her hand on my shoulder and I smiled while going down the stairs
My day of work were 2 weeks day shift 2 day off then it will be 2 weeks night shift, I was so lucky because I was close to the owner where else can you find such a great opportunity, now one was lucky to have this kind of job like mine
"Good thing you came down Lily, and order up you need to serve." she said to me and I just held the tray and I don't know if she's not dying at her work, she works at night and day shift but she earns a lot of money but doesn't she also care about her health but who am I to interfere it's not like close kami or what
I was walking towards the VIP room and more and more eased I entered here than when I was there on the night shift I always get this feeling like there is something in me and just wanting to stay alive when the next order arrives
I knocked and was surprised to see Liam, with the girl he was with when I met them at the pool and I was looking all intensely but I also quickly unloaded their food.
And they were just talking but I couldn't hear it and it was like another language so I just bowed again and hugged the tray I used
"Don't hug that don't you know it's dirty?" said Liam and I just glared at him and see myself out
and then shut the door and scoffed I already knew that he was like that, playing with some random girls feelings, so if he's only after my child and I won't stop him but I can't stand that sight that always appears in my brain so i was getting pissed
"Looks like someone is having a bad day. Care to join me for dinner?" Christian asked me while looking up
those rosy lips, pale skin, freckles and his two-block hair cut with bangs and his dark colored eyes how come now I just saw how nice he looks
On the other hand, Christian noticed that Liam came out of the room where Lily has been and then that bought up the tension especially when Liam came walking towards where they are but Christian acted normal
"Of course, Mr. Christian Falcon." Lily said and that made Christian smile and Liam stop from his tracks
I smiled at Christian and then I was curious to what he was looking at my back but I didn't look at it and I took a few steps and then I was stopped from behind
"Why are you agreeing to what this man said? You agreed to come with me." he said to me and then dragged me as I passed to the shocked Christian and then I felt like I've had enough with the wishy washy
"When did I agree to come with you Sir?" I asked him and he was looking at me intensely, I was so angry at him but why do I feel so aroused?
"I'm not some kind of girl you can drag around. Please let go of my hand, I'm not yours to hold." That's what I said to him and ended up removing my own hand from the hand he was holding and as I walked away I could still feel his gaze as if it was going to pierce my body and I never looked back I never did
And yes, I'm not him to hold and will never will.