I ran out of the conference room, with my hand half covering my mouth I ran with no destination on my mind. Tears were streaming down my face, the anger and pain that they caused me. I was furious at them but my frustration kept pouring down my face in the form of tears. The memories of what they did to me, and how they treated me kept replaying vividly in my mind.
My anger fumes at each remembrance, they hated me. They wished for my death, sending me ousted from their pack as if my existence doesn't matter. He didn't care if anything happened to me in the woods, my best friend more like my sister stabbed me in the back. She took my position and planned for my death in my presence. Every day and day her laugh hunts me, it breaks me………… She made me have trust issues, I couldn't allow people into my life again because of the fear of the past repeating itself again.
My eyes turned ice cold as I remember how she sat in the chair with a smirk discussing what I don't know, she took my position. I was supposed to be the one there, not her. Lucien shouldn't have lost his leg, we were supposed to be a thing before she walks in. She used my secret against me! I trusted her and allowed her into my life to share with me my happiness and sorrow but she shattered my life with no remorse.
A smile curled up my lips as the condition that Lucien finds himself, he deserves nothing but pain! I cried out. She hurt me so much, she crumbled the tiny hope that I have ever had. I didn't know that the pain was too much until I saw her today, laughing and acting as if it was her right.
She seems comfortable when I am managing, and she has a smile on her face when I am always in pain! Grieving all day. She has everyone at her feet when I succumb at others' feet. She hurt me so badly. I pray she doesn't recognize me, I know she won't recognize my face but I am afraid of her recognizing my voice.
I so much wanted to have my revenge, to have her test half a quarter of what she did to me but I am afraid of facing her without venting all my anger on her. I don't know how long I can stand those pathetic faces of hers, staring at those faces brings in a lot of bad memories. Though I am scared of what will happen if I leave now, what will be next for me? No! I can't hide from them forever.
I can't bear seeing those smiles on their faces when they left someone out there to rot in hell. I know that I can't have Ryan forever. If he finds out about my real identity he will leave just like others. I have to hurt them, I have to make them pass through this exact pain that I suffered when they discarded me within this little time that I have. I have to look around and find what I am searching for because I know that in little or no time everyone will know the real me and I am not going to sit back and watch them have the last laugh.
I know that someday I will die but before them, I wanted to see their downfall……. Before then I want to ruin them all!!
They hurt me so badly, and seeing them reopened the old wound. It makes the wound raw and painful, they are happy in there but here I am broken on the floor. Crying and crying, they discarded me and gathered for my death in my presence when I did nothing wrong to them in the past. I saved Taylor twice and was always there for him at his darkest hour but what did he do………. Immediately he was crowned the Alpha and as his first rule as their leader, he rejected me and turned me into a rogue choosing my half-sister over me.
I swallowed with a bitter laugh as I recalled what Lucien and Juliet did to me but they all lied because to myself I will make sure that I crush them. That I ruined them, I will make them regret every morning and night for ever hurting me because they left me broken.
I am broken!! How long will I continue to carry on with this heavy burden because the bad memories are still there? The memories that hunt me down every night. It makes the night so long and frightening, making the cut so deep. Back then in the penitentiary I always thought that Juliet would walk in someday and tell me that all those were a nightmare. I thought that she would ask for forgiveness and I know that I won't resist forgiving her and having her back in my arms.
For days in pain, I have always wished for her to change and come back to me but I was only hallucinating because she is gone and gone leaving me all alone in distress and nothing but raw pain.
All I asked then was trust and loyalty but she took something dear to me. Not only did she take away everything, but she also planned for my death with my so-called mate. I was always in shadow, in the penitentiary with my hands chained. Trapped in the basement with the whip lashed across my body leaving endless scars on them. The scars that will remain there for eternity. Look at them in all their glory when I am here fighting to succeed in life. I suppressed my wolf, the only person that has been there for me even in my darkest hours due to the cursed gift.
But in everything, I blamed the moon goddess if only she didn't curse me with this thing she called a gift. I won't be in this condition, I won't be experiencing this suffering. They said that she loves her kind but she hates me! Because my case is different! She despises me and wants nothing for me but pain and hurt. How can I suffer for someone's wrongdoing? Since my birth, I have never experienced any atom of happiness.
A tear slid down my eyes, wetting my cheeks, wiping my eyes. I bite hard on my bottom lips, I am broken and eager to escape this pit of hell. With eyes as cold as ever and a wounded heart, I swore to make them test what they made me pass through in life.