I am listless and keep clock watching today, even though I have nowhere to be except down in the club, and getting ready for another night of business as usual. I have an idea why it’s making me so restless and frustrated, beyond the obvious sadness. It’s called Alexi.
This place is running so smoothly nowadays that I really have nothing much to do most of the time except observe and supervise. Apart from paperwork occasionally and overseeing deliveries I have tuned my well-oiled machine to perfection. Spectacular organisation means it can practically run itself and I can swan around more than actually do anything.
Mico appears and catches me sitting at the bar.
‘Hey you … future mistress.’ He breaks into a huge amused smile and dumps a pile of files on the bar carelessly that he has obviously brought to go in the office. It looks like some of the accounts we have been waiting for. I’m guessing this is not a random passing joke.
‘He told you?’ I turn to him with amused questioning and lean back against the bar. Letting my eyes wander over that familiar ‘head of the mob’ attire of his. Dark tailored suit, black tie and a heavy black coat, even though today is still on the warmer side. I swear they have a manual somewhere with all the rules and codes of being a Carrero henchman that states—black is the colour and Savile Row for tailoring.
‘Alexi tells me most things … especially when sassy Brits accuse him of underhanded jealous behaviour.’ He winks this time and then moves to sit beside me casually, as he motions the tender cleaning glasses for a bottle of water from the fridge in our view. The man obediently does so.
‘He didn’t admit it.’ I shrug, knowing full well it’s exactly what it was.
‘Yeah well, he sent me to pick these up at the accountants and drop them off here, so I think he’s trying to prove you wrong, Camilla. How you doing today anyway? Jackson took that …’ He trails off before saying cat and I just throw on my fake happy face and shrug again, trying to ignore that pit of biting sadness which has followed me all day. I couldn’t even bear to go into the kitchen and see the food stacked on the counter for the scrawny little creature. I told Jackson to get rid of all traces that I ever knew a cat called Feral.
I don’t want his ashes either— I want to forget all about him. It’s just easier that way.
‘Fine … just planning my seduction of Alexi’s henchman to take over his world,’ I jest diverting the topic, and he shakes his head too.
‘Give him a break; he’s out of his depth on so many levels when it comes to you. Alexi has never had to navigate this kind of relationship before, and you still screw him up. He’s like a teen boy learning from scratch.’ He looks down at the bar and has that same annoying habit of tapping his thumb there. I guess it’s a sign when they are hiding something or thinking something through. Weird that DNA can carry mannerisms.
‘What kind of relationship would that be? Respecting a female instead of tormenting her?’ I add drily and Mico just throws me a darkened look.
‘I told you once … there’s more to him than meets the eye, and how he feels about you is his business. You two need to learn the art of communication.’
‘Ughhh. You’re so loyal sometimes, it’s painful.’ I prod him in the shoulder and he just smirks before getting up and sweeping up the files into a neat pile he picks up.
‘I love and respect my cousin … I won’t be the one who talks for him though—that’s on him. He needs to man up when it comes to you two.’ He moves away and I shove him as he passes, frustrated with his vagueness.
‘Meaning?’ I ask snottily, eyebrows arched in expectance of a real answer. He just raises his brows right back at me in the most infuriating way and walks off towards the corridor, obviously dismissing the rest of our conversation.
‘Stop annoying each other for a start and start being honest … even if it’s terrifying. Running is a bad habit!’
I swear a little inkling in my gut tells me this isn’t a random observation. Maybe Alexi realised I bottled out of talking upstairs this morning and these are his words, not Mico’s. I pale with the thought that he could read me up there, and I wasn’t so great at hiding that from him.
Running is all I know. Both physically and emotionally, when life throws me shit I don’t want to handle. It’s an impulse to protect myself, and he has no idea how necessary it has been to me.
I don’t get a chance to talk more as Mico is out of sight and leaving me pondering his wise words that he has a habit of spitting out and then walking off after.
He is fucking infuriating sometimes.
He’s like Jiminy Cricket; sweeping in to offer guidance, then buggers off without giving you any real answers, so you have to figure it out for yourself.
I guess him and Alexi could be Pinocchio and Jiminy. I giggle as the connection hits me and find it hilariously funny the more I think about it. Mico sits on his shoulder being his conscience, so he doesn’t have to have one, and Alexi … well, he’s the adventurous and stubborn little boy who likes to lie; ironic really. I wonder if Alexi has a desire to be a real human too, although his nose certainly does not grow when he talks shit … it would be an advantage if it did.
I go back to focusing on the book I have propped on the bar, trying to kill some hours, and ignore my uptight and fragile mood; Pushing the stupid out of my head along with visions of wooden puppets and donkeys. I sit lost in words, pulled into a fantasy romance when Mico prods me on the way past in the back of the shoulder.
‘Gotta go. Catch you later. Alexi will be back to get changed this evening and I’m to pick him up from here, so guess till later’s …’ He smiles and I smile back warmly. Waving as he disappears, and he doesn’t give me a chance to pick his brains anymore.
I do think it’s funny though. Alexi sent him here specifically to prove he’s not jealous and he hasn’t been deliberately keeping him out of the way.
Such a childish thing to do, even for him.
Cute that he wanted to prove it, even if it was the actual truth.
Boy needs therapy.