Caelan Rainer Vassamonte POV
WAITING IS sometimes tiring. You always reminded yourself that it's okay to wait, because it will be worth it in the end. But is it worth waiting for the person who left you to come back?
Sometimes it crosses my mind to just forget the past and move on and think that the person who left me will never come back. Because you didn't even know what's happening in her life while you keep on holding on to the idea that she will come back.
But the beating of my heart always reminded me that I should wait. And if waiting for so many years just to be with her in the end will happen then I guess the waiting will be worth it.
I parked my black sedan in the parking lot and immediately went out. I put my car keys in my jeans pocket while looking at the name written on the entrance. Asher's Club, that's the name of the club.
I see people who are new comers immediately enter the club and the excitement is evident on their faces. I tilted my head to the side when I saw a girl and boy kissing torridly in the dark. I sighed and massaged my head.
Damn why am I here anyway? Uh for some reason being here is okay. Because for sure when I'm in my room I can't think about anything but the past. That no matter how hard I try to forget, it won't get out of my system.
The pain and wound of yesterday's is still here that even if I try to bury it in oblivion, it won't go away. I wonder if the pain will go away or it will always be forever engraved in my soul. There are so many questions running inside my head but I chose not to entertain it and keep it unanswered.
Because I know that only one person can answer my questions.
The smell of alcohol and cigarettes mixed in the air as I entered the club. I crunched my nose when the smell of cigarettes hit my nostrils. I hate how cigarettes smell for me. I can stand the smell of alcohol better than cigarettes. But I can't complain because I entered this place.
The music of the club boomed like thunder making some people go wild. There are people who are so drunk and they're dance in the middle of the stage. I licked my lower lip and walked towards the VIP stairs.
I saw some girls looked intently at me but I didn't bother to even look at them. My face went sour when I saw Luka smiling widely after seeing me.
He stood up quickly and immediately come to me.
"I thought you weren't coming. Did you change your mind baby boy?" He teased and handed me a drink.
I smirked at him and accepted the drink he gave.
I saw Maven slightly hit Luka's arms causing the latter to laugh. I sat on the chair while looking around. There are a lot of people today.
"I thought you weren't coming. Change of mind?" Maven asked while sipping on his drink.
I nodded and smiled lightly "You're not tired?" I asked him curiously while drinking my whiskey.
"I'm tired but this asshat wants to celebrate his success of his new project in Las Heras Island. Because finally he can make a move to get his girl back." Maven muttered while pointing at Luka.
Luka just smirked at us. I also laughed softly because of the cool things he does just to be the head engineer in a school project in the island of Las Heras.
I'm still tired after coming home from that Island. We went there for Luka's awesomeness. we're his friends so we support his antics when it comes to his woman. I don't know if Maven has a girl. He's too quiet when it comes to his personal life.
Same with me. I didn't tell them that some girl broke my heart into pieces when she left. I kept it all by myself.
"Rai when do you plan to have a girlfriend?" Luke asked.
I looked at him while sipping my drink. I want to answer his question that I already have one but it's better not to tell it. Maybe he would just laugh at me.
I just shrugged my shoulder and poured another drink into the glass.
"I thought you and Flaire had a thing?" Maven asked confused. I saw how Luka turned to him and pursed his lips.
"Flaire Harmonia? That hot and beautiful angel?" Luka asked in disbelief and looked at me. I raised my right eyebrow at him.
"We don't have a thing. It's just a rumor." I said calmly while looking at them.
Luka burst out laughing and palmed his face.
"Shit, why are you denying it? Dude that's Flaire! Don't you find her beautiful?" He asked amused while Maven was laughing beside him.
I placed the glass on the table and leaned my back against the sofa. I wet my bottom lip before looking at them seriously. What's with Flaire? They keep on making an issue that we have a thing but the truth is I don't even have the slightest feelings towards her.
She's just my co Engineer. Yeah I admit that she's pretty and has an appeal but I'm not attracted to her. Plain and simple. So what did these idiots trying to say?
"I admit she's pretty. So?" I asked Luka seriously.
"Why didn't you court her? Are you gay?" He asked with a laugh. My brows furrowed while looking at his face.
"Why aren't you the one to court? She's your type, aren't you?" I asked tauntingly.
Maven laughed so hard while looking at Luka.
"I have Savor!" Luke laughed. That's it. Why do you have to force a girl to me who's definitely not my type?
"What's your type then? Oh you like boys? Maybe Maven and I are your type huh! You're still pretending." The idiots in front of me clapped and laughed. I shook my head while smiling too. Really crazy people.
I stroke my hair upwards and think what's my type.
"I want a matured woman," I whispered softly making them stop.
"Dude, Flaire is matured?"
"I want a woman who's five years older than me." I uttered and bit my lower lip.
"Huh? You have a fetish on older women?" Maven asked curiously.
I have a fetish on one particular woman.
I really don't like older girls before but it changed when I met her. She made me realize that if you love, age doesn't matter at all. Age is not the basis for you to love someone. You will spontaneously feel true love for someone.
Even if that person is the reason why you've been hurt. You are hurting because you love him. If you didn't feel so much pain with that person then it's not love.
True love doesn't change even if the times go by. True love remains in your heart. Because that's true love. True love knows how to wait.
I closed my eyes as my vision began to spin. Fuck I think I drank too much alcohol tonight. But it's better so that I can fall asleep easily.
Six years I always had trouble sleeping peacefully at night without overthinking and reminiscing the past. There's so many what ifs. That I know to myself that will always remain a question.
What if I didn't sleep that night and just watched my girlfriend peacefully sleeping beside me. Can I stop her from leaving my side? Will she change her mind if I'll beg him not to leave me?
I laughed humorlessly with that thought. How many times I'd been telling myself that overthinking doesn't help me find where the fuck she is.
It's so frustrating that I'd been waiting for her like a fool. There is no certainty if she will come back or if she will come back to me. It's so frustrating that I have no power to find where she is. I'm just a simple man with the profession of Engineer. I can't even do anything.
I can't match whatever the girl I love has. I felt so useless. Why does my heart not feel happy when in fact I achieve all my dreams now?
I already helped my parents. I have treated Lana for her illness. I have already bought my own condo and car. I can buy things that I could not buy casually before. But why did I feel so unsatisfied with my life. Something seems to be missing.
I feel like I'm just floating. It's like I stopped somewhere and I don't know where to go. I was stuck in that place and the only thing I could do was walk around even though I was tired and I wanted to find the right direction to the place I wanted to rest.
While walking around that place, I suddenly got tired and stopped. I just wish that someone would see me and help me go to the place I want.
I slowly opened my eyes and decided to leave this club. My head is aching so bad. With blurred eyes I looked at my wrist watch and saw that it was three in the morning.
I laughed a bit when I saw Luka's head on the table. He's already passed out. I roamed my eyes around to find Maven but I didn't see him. My eyes went to the stage only to find him dancing with a girl. I stood up slowly, I suddenly hit my head when I felt the it throbbing badly. Fuck it.
I walked towards Luka's direction and tapped his shoulder. He slowly opened his one eye and smiled at me. The fool is very drunk.
"I'm going first. My head is spinning as fuck." I muttered while holding my head.
He pouted his lips making my face crumpled.
"Where's the asshat?" He asked unconsciously.
I pointed to the dancefloor causing him to follow it. His lips parted and he cursed softly.
I said goodbye one last time before walking out of the VIP rooms. Someone bumped into me causing me to lose my balance. I thought my face would be on the floor but thank God the fucker held me in the arm.
"Dude are you okay? I'm sorry." He apologized. I looked at him with blurry eyes before smiling at him.
"Yeah I'm fine. No worries. Thanks for the help." I said and patted his shoulder.
His mouth parted a bit while looking at my face. I squinted my eyes and looked at his face clearly. He looks familiar. Where did I see his face? Suddenly, my head throbbed again. Damn Rainer you drank a lot.
"I'll go first, Thanks again." I muttered and walked past him. I left the club with a heavy head.
Six years ago I didn't even want to drink alcohol but when she left I was forced to drink so that at least once I could fall asleep quickly. Alcohol helps me when I have troubled sleeping. But fuck it my head is hurting badly right now.
I smiled a bit when I saw my car, finally. When I'm about to go inside my vision got blurry and the last thing I know someone caught my body.