Aria
I relaxed myself. I didn't want to be stressed my baby inside me will be affected.
I got out of the car and entered the house.
I saw Rosaline and Ana looked at me shocked. Rosaline was holding Luke in her arms.
"What happen Aria?" Ana asked concerned.
I gave them a sad smile.
"Just clean this up please, never let Lucas see it," I said softly, looking down.
"But.."
"Just do it for me please and promised me not to tell him," I said softly and they all nodded.
"Yes, if that's what you wanted," Rosaline said in defeat.
I went upstairs and packed my stuff into my single luggage. I have small cash in my purse this was my last salary.
Thank God, I have my own home.
After packing all my things. I lastly looked at the bed for the last glance.
Where we shared happy moments, we made love, we fight and we say sorry.
My tears started to flow again. I guess I am the one believing that we are ok and he loves me.
I was so dumb and idiot for not knowing it.
I don't know what will happen after this. I guess, back to my old life but added someone.
My baby
I headed downstairs with the luggage in my hand. The living room was back into normal.
"Where are you going?" Rosaline asked worriedly.
"Aria, what's happening?" Ana asked confused.
"Somewhere away from here," I said softly.
I got Luke from her arms and I can't refrain to stop crying.
"Please take care of Luke and Lucas. Rosaline and Ana make sure they will eat and stay healthy." My voice broke, saying those words.
The heaviness of my heart leaving them but I need to do this.
I guess I am not the right one for Lucas.
"Aria..." They said sadly in unison.
"I can do this." I gave them an assuring sad smile.
"Goodbye baby, mommy will miss you a lot."
"Always remember mommy loves you." I sobbed.
"No…Mommy… no…" Luke said and started crying. I hugged him tightly.
"I need to do this baby. I am so sorry." I cried harder.
I gave him a kiss on his forehead and little lips.
I looked at Rosaline and she understands what I was saying in my eyes.
She got Luke from my arms.
"Mommy NO!!!" he shouted.
I am so sorry baby.
I turned to walk away hearing Luke's sobs and cries.
I can't stop crying.
I took a cab and told him my address.
It was so heavy in my heart leaving there. I will miss my baby. I will miss Lucas. I will miss my family.
Waking up with the two by my side. Waking up Lucas and Luke kissing me and cuddling me.
I was so wrong about choosing this. I ended up being hurt.
I did all. My heart fell for him; I gave myself--my time. I gave my best to impress him but unfortunately. I wasn't enough for him.
The thought I was thinking was so wrong that we are ok but in reality, we are not, though he loves me but in reality, he said he didn't know.
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I got home and do the little cleaning. I have never been here since I got married to him.
This is my home.
My soon baby and me.
I lay down to my bed and cried my heart out.
Why did I do to deserve this?
Why do people? I love always left me behind?
I touched my stomach.
"We will be ok baby. I promised we could do this together. I will work hard no matter what. I never regret having you, baby. Remember that. You are a gift from God. " I muttered under my breath.
I balled myself up into the bed.
My heart is in pain.
I need to relax. I don't want to be stress.
My phone keeps ringing but I ignored it. I am tired. My efforts have been ruined.
Minutes have passed.
I wanted to rest but my stomach growled. My baby is hungry.
I was craving for Oreo and fries but I don't have any more money.
I didn't expect this to happen.
After I refreshed myself up and calm a little bit. I picked up my keys and went to the nearest store.
I bought some rice and omelets.
I remembered I needed to apply again to the cafe for me to save money and for me to live.
I got my phone and saw a lot of missed calls from Ana and Rosaline.
It's 6 pm; I think Lucas isn’t home yet. He didn't know. I was not there anymore.
He just doesn’t care, I think. He didn’t run to me when I left at his office.
I texted Rosaline and Ana that I am fine, just do what I tell them to take care of and0 make sure they are healthy.
I called Brent.
"Hey A " He answered.
"Hey, Brent. How are you?" I asked softly.
"What happen to you?" He asked worriedly
"I'll just tell you when we meet. Do you think the cafe has a slot for me?" I asked him.
"Yeah, why?" he questioned.
"I just need it. Thank you Brent I need to rest. Talk to you tomorrow." I said and dismissed.
"Oh ok bye A." Confusion filled in his voice.
I hanged up.
It's a new day for me tomorrow.
I failed Leticia.
I hurt myself.
I let go of Lucas.
I left my son crying for me.
What a life.
PAIN! PAIN! PAIN! PAIN!
I needed to be strong. I don't give up, right?
I will always find a way to step out in this pain.