: Reconciliation
Matteo's Pov
She stood there at the door nodding at Jay then he quickly moved out of the door locking it.
Once we heard a click sound both of our legs move and she jumps in my arms hugging me tightly then broke into tears.
"I'm sorry" she sobs "I'm sorry for being selfish you were right and I'm sorry for not thinking of you too" I pull back my head with tears in my eyes facing her.
"I love you and I'm sorry baby I am so sorry. I have no right to shout at you and I'm so sorry for avoiding you...I’m sorry. ..I just can't lose you, not now, tomorrow, or ever. I am sorry for being harsh with my words and I am sorry for everything. I fucking mess up again"
I wipe off her tears before my lips find her and we both mold in passion.
I seated her on my desk while my hands move under the hem of her dress trying to pull it off. At the same time, she struggled with my shirt buttons.
She gave up on being gentle and tearing it off my body. I smirk before doing the same with her dressmaking her moan out loud.
"I love it when you're being feisty anymore," I mutter while nibbling her neck leaving my marks to her neck down to her breast.
"And I love it when you're inside me Matt" I groan dropping on my knees before her.
I spread her legs apart and found myself devouring her with my mouth before I take her to my desk.
She kept on withering and moaning under my touch, calling out my name countless times as I drove myself into her with insane, making love to her beautiful body.
She lies on top of me on the office couch with my hands trailing and caressing her back softly after our love-making session.
"Do you think I'm going to get pregnant soon?" my fingers stop once I heard her question.
"We didn't use any protection Matt," she said and I tried to hide my emotions.
I should be more excited as she's going to carry my pup but now is not the right time.
I didn't want our child to be born from my lies to her. Therefore, I wanted to come clean to her before trying again with her and that if she ever forgives me.
My thoughts went back to Jona my son, whom she thought it's Quinn's mate pup and I wanted to throw up at that thought.
Truthfully, I love my son as it wasn't his fault that he happened to be born but I resent myself for it.
Still hope and wish that Jona was mine and Adassah's firstborn child.
I tried to clear my throat as the room was silent maybe now is a good time.
This could be our only time, I thought as I caress her bareback. I think Jay is right I have to tell her and now is that time.
I have to be honest with her now I clear my throat whispering to her "anymore," I started.
My hot breath fanned her forehead. Adassah look up at me "my love"
The way she says my love sends a bang to my heart. She's only saying this because she doesn't know what lies she's living in. At the moment I almost cry when I thought of it
"Amore" I try again.
"Love" she caresses my cheek as I close my eyes trying to suppress my tears.
"I am a monster to you. I did something really bad to you before you lose your memories" I couldn't hold it back and I broke into tears.
She sat right up and I buried my face in my hands regardless of our nakedness she moves towards me.
Her hand reaches for me, letting me face her. She looks at me with concerns and I just couldn't take it anymore and it broke my heart even more.
"Tell me, what happened?" I cried even harder not able to utter a single word.
"I... I..." I cry and she looks at me with sadness and I could tell that she didn't want to force me.
Yes, I know she could see and feel my pain but not the lies we live in.
"Matteo, I don't want you to force yourself if it's too hard" but I shook my head, refusing not to let the opportunity of telling her the truth slide away.
She moves and sat on my lap this time taking my face in her hands
"I lie to you about so many things" I keep on sobbing as I say this. She kisses my forehead, then to my eyes, to my nose, and on my lips.
"It's okay, I'll always be here for you" and I could hear her thoughts wondering how bad did I hurt her. She didn't know that her walls were down and I could hear what she thought
'It must have been worst for him to cry like this' I hear her thoughts and I try to block it.
I could also see that her thoughts of the truth are scaring her even more now.
Whatever happens in the past I hope she will try and forgive me depending on how worst it is.
"I love someone before I met you" I started and she didn't move away from me.
"I thought I did, not until I fell for you and to me, it supersedes my love than the one I did before. Yet some things could not be under our control"
Taking in a deep breath I was ready to tell her everything when there's a knock on the door ruining my chances.
Adassah stumbles out of my lap. She looks around for her clothes, unfortunately, both of our clothes were torn.
"Adassah, just leaves it," I stood up and tried to stop her from answering the person outside the door. I just wanted her to hear the truth but I fell back to the couch wincing in pain.
"Matteo"
I knew that voice outside of the door and I curse her for ruining it. Adassah turned red like a tomato while I rested my head back feeling the pain on my back then suddenly I chuckle.
"Amore I think you went deeper this time" I chuckle at her.
She became confused then she looks at how I bit my lip and my back arching in pain which made her blush even more.
My body is slowly healing as Adassah and Alera's nails dig deep into our skin.
"Well, it's not like I was the one pounding in you. It's just a scratch Alpha while I'm sore all over... I thought my big bad Alpha won't hurt that easily."
I nodded my head and slightly laugh a little forgetting what just happens.
A knock came again "Alpha" I groan "fuck off Quinn I'm with your luna" and the knocking stops.
"You shouldn't scream at her like that," Adassah said.
I curse Quinn in my head and link one of my pack members to bring over clothes, which arrived after a minute. I felt Addy's lips on my back making me moan "more," I said.
"I'm sorry I hurt you" I smiled turning around to face Adassah who is now fully clothed.
My words that I was sorry with everything which Adassah doesn't know of.
All she ever thought was that I'm apologizing for doing her hard and rough. Yet it was deeper than anything. It meant another way and I felt my heartache every time I said it.
I peck her on the lips "it was worth it" Adassah said and then left for training. I clean up my office before sitting down behind my desk sorting out some files and finalizing contracts with other packs.
I think Jay is right I need to tell her but before that, I have to talk to Quinn about my son.