: Lie To Me Alpha
Seeing him after five years, I smile with sincerity as there was no pain or hurt anymore between us.
I don't loathe or regret him. The only thing I'm feeling right now is pure happiness.
I didn't expect him to be here in this meeting today as usually Jay and his son Jona attend. If I knew he would be here I wouldn't have brought over the twins today.
Yes, there wasn't anyone who could handle them back at home. I swear I called Tricia who came over and take them outside as they were whinny and wanted to stay here with me but I just couldn't do that.
This meeting is important to me, as I will announce my resignation as a substitute luna to the Owslebury Pack.
Yet seeing him today changes my mind and maybe I'll do that when I get back home.
A lot of things happened to me when I left him that night. I was able to go back to my grandma and took Wesley with me, and then we move to Owslebury Pack.
It was a new Pack at the time and basically, Alpha Jordan and his Luna Kristen were recruiting anyone who wants to live a normal life instead of becoming lone and rogue.
So I settled there, as it was a new start for me and over the years the pack extends and now we have the largest number not bigger than Dante and Aaron.
Today I'm here as a luna because Luna Kristen is now bedridden and requested for me to be her substitute for the meantime.
It was either that or I have to mate Alpha Jordan fully and become their official luna.
He's been a good and great Alpha but he wasn't the one I want, neither the one made for me. He wasn't the twins’ father and I could never do that to my babies.
It's something that I would never do since I am sincerely happy with what and where I am now especially with my two bundles of joy.
Having two pups is a blessing in my life by the moon goddess after all the pain and hurt I went through.
So yes they are Matt and mine.
When I left, I found out later day that I was carrying his pups. I almost went back to him after a week but I decided not to as I have my reasons.
I look from across the room and saw him looking at me and I swear his sons and mine, the ones he never knew of are a copy of him.
Except one has dark green forest eyes like his and the other has sapphire like mine.
So they were kind of both our mixture when it comes to eyes. Other than that there both look like their father.
Sometimes I complain that I was the one who carries them and in the end, they have his look. Nevertheless, I love my pups as they are my saving grace.
There are times that I always wonder if I had made the right choice by not going back to him. Yet deep down inside I always knew why I chose what I thought was right and it was the right choice.
Legacy is something I wanted to give to our pups without competition. I didn't want them to compete with her son for their father's title or his love.
I didn't want them to ever grow up with thoughts like 'which is the most favorite and which is less favorable? Whom to inherit and whom to not?
What I did was for my pups and myself. I didn't want them to be torn between love and hate. Watching them grow up with all the love and care I give along with their uncle's support was indeed the best thing to do.
They knew who their father was cause I told them in vague details with no negative storyline. Only to replace it with the word complicated as I didn't want them to be grown up filling with hate and holding grudges against him.
I have also shown them his photo, that one photo we have together on the night of the Gala and our mating. It was given to me by Elle a year ago.
After the meeting, I quickly got up to attend to my sons. I found them both playing outside with Tricia watching over them.
"Adassah" I turn around to find him standing not too far from me.
As I said, there was no hate or pain there but I would say my heart did race a little but not as bad as it was when we were together.
"Hello Matteo" I smiled at him but something was pulling on the edge of my skirt.
I turned down to find Matthew and Mason tugging on my skirt while both pointing at Matteo.
"Daddy," they both said more like screaming in unison. I swear these two are going to be the death of me one day.
His eyes set on his sons with surprise. He then looks back and forth between me and the twins who are now running in his way.
As if he just notices and came out of his shocking state. He sat down on his hunches spreading his arms wide for them.
The boys run into his arms hugging the life out of him. He laughs a little holding on to them with a look as if he's about to cry.
He is crying as he held them tight before pulling back and kissing them on their forehead. I knew this day would come.
Watching them as they have their moments made me wish that we were a family but I know I wouldn't go back or maybe that is just my thoughts for now.
He released them and I motion for Tricia to take them away as I know Matteo has some questions. Yet the two refuse to leave his side and so I have to convince them that their father will always be here and he won't go away.
They pouted their lips folding their arms. Warning me that he better not disappear which I roll my eyes at them promising that he won't.
They gave us both a kiss on the cheek before they happily left with Tricia.
He wipes off his tears "how long?"
"I found out a day after I left" I lick my dry lips nervously.
"I'm sorry" he apologizes and stood up with his eyes now filled with tears again but I only smiled at him. The ones that used to hide the sadness and pain behind it.
"You know I won't stop you from seeing them," I said, and he thanks me.
I know that he should be livid like other mates when they found out that their mates have hidden his pups from him. Yet I know Matteo so well.
He will never be mad at me, especially when he knows he has done so many wrongs towards me.
We both stood there watching our sons as they both play with Tricia before we turn and gaze into each other’s eyes.
Looking at him this up-close did not bring any more pain to me. I am happy but I am reluctant when I truly saw that he is not the same old Matteo.
My thoughts now keep running through my head and in my head, I was repeating every word that I practice to tell him but never got the chance to after everything that happens.
Even now I don't dare to say it out loud except to replay it in my head while gazing up at him.
'We could be one of the couples like Elle and Eric or Dante and Dani.
We could have been a happy family together with our kids both growing up.
Unfortunately, we could not have all of it.
And this distance between us was all because you lie to me Alpha."