: Fake Love
Matt has gathered everyone today, including Gia, who came back a day after I discover the truth.
Quinn, Lorentz, and Jay are also here.
He said a day ago he has something to tell me today. So here I am watching the people whom I thought were my rock and sanity making jokes around me.
I look at Matt who seems to be nervous about something but I just ignore it and whispered in a low voice asking them if it was fun seeing me like this.
None of them answers my question. It was all been ignored and they keep on smiling at one another.
My eyes now burn with tears as deep down inside of me I'm breaking limp by limp.
No one has ever told me the truth and I know it's been three days after but still, I couldn't handle the hurt and pain I'm living through.
It was so stupid of me to think that after that night I could walk away but I couldn't so I stayed and waited for anyone to tell me especially Matteo.
I have been giving him hint questions yet he always brushes them aside and today I ask them a while and again they seem to ignore the question.
Closing my eyes, I tighten my clenched hand into a fist 'I am sick of pretending' I whisper then I reopen them again.
"How can you all do it?" they were still laughing at Jay’s jokes. I raise my voice and try again "how do you all do it?"
Finally, all their attention is on me now. Matteo seeing me in an emotional state tries to move but I raised my right hand to stop him.
"Is it fun watching me?" they seem to be confused my tears now burn within my eyes and slowly they drop down to my cheeks. "Was it fun watching me acting like a lost puppy?" I try not to take a breath at the same time.
"It must have been fun since you're all laughing right?" I try to wipe off my tears.
"When we're you going to tell me, Gia!? I thought we're best friends. What about you huh Matt? that you never loved me, that you always belong with her. You being with me was because you could use me" he didn't move or say anything none of them did.
I guess I have taken them by surprise now. They just kept on standing there in shock watching me drowning in my misery. No one dares to comfort or even reach out.
My expression slightly changes and deep down inside I was hurting, angry, upset, disappointed, and worst I felt betrayed not only by him but everyone that I thought were my friends.
"When were you'll all going to tell me?" again no one, not even one single soul answer "when? huh" I ended up shouting at them
"was it before my memories recover or you were never gonna let me know" I kept sobbing and I rub my arms around myself.
"You all shouldn't pretend to care or fake your love for me," looking at him "you out of all people shouldn't do it"
"That's not true please believe" he tries to reach out for me but I take a step backward.
"Believe?" I laugh slightly "now everything makes sense now, thank you and no thank you for your fake love"
"that's not true I truly love you. It wasn't fake, please Addy believe me" he raises his voice more like shouting at me.
"What Matteo? When did you ever truly not lie or even sincerely love me? Because if you did I wouldn't be asking you right now for the truth and because if you did you wouldn't have taken all of me and piece by piece you broke me" that cause him to shut up.
He clenched his fist with frustration "you don't know how much I love you" he says in a low voice but I did hear him.
"You love me?" I cry out loud and repeatedly say those words which made me sick "so now you love me?"
"Yes I am fucking crazy in love with you" he shouted pleading to me with tears burst from his eyes.
I nodded my head in disbelief "the man who uses me then now loves me. The man who bit, humiliated me now loves me" I wipe off my tears.
"The one who made false promises to me after that night loves me, the one whom I returned after four years and was with the girl he loves along with a child now loves me" I shut my eyes
"Are you sure it's love or just your infatuation now she's with her mate and you have no option as I'm the only one available" I kept on sobbing and couldn't say anymore
"that's not true," he shouted out while crying.
"I swear I fell in love with you, way before the Ball night. I do love you and I meant every promise I made" he tries to convince but I just can't believe it anymore. In my head, us is far from over.
"Mommy" a cheerful voice was heard, my heart no longer beats neither my eyes went up to look at the child, that I grow to be attached to. The one who was birth from their love.
The child I remember he probably doesn't regret meaning he didn't regret loving her and maybe he did with me.
I held my hand to my mouth suppressing my cry to be heard, my head still in a bow.
"Hey Rue, can you please take him outside with you" I hear her voice and then the child's jolly laugh.
Her voice is the one I despise, that makes me sick and hated the most. I wanted to reach out and kill her, or bitch slap her. Yet I know she's not worth an ounce of my strength and energy, even my breath.
I wipe off my tears looking up at Matteo "I bet you never know what it feels like to be in my situation," he shook his head no at me while in tears but I just couldn't hold back anymore.
I am badly, savagely slain not only all over my body but my whole being that I couldn't stop the bleeding and to hear any of their explanation.
"You would never know how I die from you choosing her at first, you loving her, you have a kid with her. You would never know what it feels like because you have never been there," wiping off the falling tears I stood up taking a look around.
"It's must have been so good to be blessed by the moon goddess, to have everything you desire," I said to Quinn who just stood there sobbing.
"I bet if I was marked by someone else, bedded by"
"Please stop" he begs me through his tears but I continue "have a pup" "please stop" he screamed at me with his tears "I fucking love you, please believe me and just stop."
I laugh a little "did you ever stop when you were hurting me" that caught him off guard. "Did you ever stop lying to me?"
He fell on his knees begging me that he regrets everything he did and he and her were all in the past and he was wrong to do. He begs me that he would make it up to me for all those times he hurt me.
This very moment love may win. Love will urge you to forgive, forget, give time to heal. To fight for what is rightfully yours and to slowly heal from it all. They say love conquers it all yet what if that love was all fake.
Therefore, for me, I just couldn't let it be despite my sincere feelings and my wolf's whimper I push it all away and turn my wrath on them. My last words are to be imprinted in their heads.
I was like a lost wounded creature with no one to soothe or heal the gushing wounds all over me.
"You know what? It's okay, I'll be okay. Damn you all for what you did to me. I curse you. I'll never forget what you did and I'll never, never want to see all of you ever again. So spare your fucking words and"
I began pointing at her and everyone around saying
"Fuck you, fuck you, fuck everyone in this house and fuck the moon goddess for pairing me up with you" I pointed at him at last before walking upstairs to our room.
"Adassah" I heard him screaming in pain for me then I heard a commotion from downstairs but I didn't stop anymore.
Closing the door and slowly I slide down against it crying to myself while beating on my poor aching, broken heart.
When I was done I pack my clothes in a duffle bag then jump out of the window. Crying through the night, sensing for a place to belong to and out of this hell I go.