: Only a Time
My friends stare at me in disbelief.
"No way" Gia tries to slap herself again.
"You, Matteo wow! That ass hole" Cora stood up with her hands on both hips.
"If he was here I would skrill him alive before feeding dogs with his ba-" she stops in mid-sentence seeing us both stare at her.
"What?" she rolls her eyes and I crack up laughing.
"Wow, never thought I would live the day to hear you talk like that... Wooo wow" Gia and I applaud her with enthusiasm.
"You are both crazy but seriously I despise him" she sat down on the other side of the bed.
"So you wanna tell us about you and him again" I lower my head in shame fiddling with my hands.
"It's okay you can take your time, maybe" I interrupted her, cutting out what she was trying to say.
"I knew he was my Mate on my eighteen birthday when I came to pick you guys up."
I took a deep breath then there I began to tell them how everything between him and I began. From the first moments up to the one that I gradually began to fall in love with him.
Our first kiss, the way he makes me feel when he's around and I stupidly believe everything he says.
How we sneak around everyone's back to go on dates, then I finally admitted that I love him and how he avoids me afterward. I also told them how I find out about the truth and I confronted him.
I was in tears after telling them about it "I love him you know that. I just fell for all his lies. Fuck, it felt like I wanted to die when he admitted the truth" I beat on my heart sobbing out hard.
"Gosh" I try to wipe my tears again
"I'm sorry for not telling you guys. I'm sorry" I sob.
"Did you ever think of telling us?" Gia asks
"I did try but you went in heat and Cora left for her pack... I'm sorry guys and it is okay if you hate me I deserve it."
They both surprisingly hug me tightly "aww our poor baby, we could never hate you" their hands smoothing my back with comfort.
"You know I think things are making sense now," Gia says while pulling away.
She held my hand "I overheard my dad and the Gamma's conversations the day after Matteo attack you. I didn't understand then but now I can piece the puzzle" she took a deep breath.
"I heard the Alpha practically gather Bilford College football team including the ones that were there at the event and have ordered everyone never to speak of what happened that night.
He made them submit and swore to never utter anything about his Mate. Well now I know you're his Mate," she sighs.
"I don't know why the Alpha then does not want you and Matteo to be Mate. I mean you are a daughter of a top warrior" Cora says with curiosity.
Gia shrugged her shoulders "yeah now I'm curious too," he finger pointed the end of her mouth as if thinking before giving up.
"I wish I knew more or maybe I'll try and snoop around my dad's office. Anyways I also heard the pack warriors are looking for"
Gia looks as if she didn't want to say it but Cora was hard out gesturing at her to spill the beans.
"Matteo, he ran away after he bit you on that night" she blurted.
"Pussy" Cora scoffs at that and we just sat there in surprise,
"And girl you are one spy who listens in to her father's conversation... bad girl" she nods her head at Gia.
Gia bluff folding her arms "can you blame me for being there. I never told them this: hey dad I'm here to start your conversation and I'll listen in a corner" she rolls her eyes and flips her hair dramatically.
"Besides it wasn't so bad to listen in, now we get most info, and what about you?" Cora just heaves her shoulders with a mock expression.
"Ahh right, the only thing you listen in is when there's pussy, balls, and" her words were muffled by the pillow making me laugh.
Gia narrows her eyes at Cora "Oh you won't get away bitch" and she threw her with another pillow
"Major bitch" Cora retort throwing another one.
We all ended up in a pillow fight as if I wasn't in a bad shape when I woke up. We play around chasing each other like kids until we're exhausted and hungry.
We made lunch then watched random movies on TV. Then play dare games without alcohol. We were so childish and for a moment I forgot all about what happened.
Gia was the first one to head home. She got picked up by Ed then Cora got picked up by Jem as they have a date today.
I sat there in the living room by myself staring at the TV, even though I wasn't interested. I still watch it until it was dark.
I went and prepared the dinner trying to get myself busy. Afterward, I sat there at the kitchen table taking a break.
I was so consumed with my thoughts on the time I was happy, every moment of it before I fell in love.
Suddenly I thought of Matteo and the days we spent together and that's when I broke down again.
It wasn't easy to forget what he did to me, especially when my heart stupidly loves him.
It felt like it happens yesterday so I cried there in the kitchen with no one to comfort me this time.
A lot of bad thoughts consume my mind like not wanting to live anymore.
I was too hurt that I could not know what to do.
No matter what happiness I felt earlier with my friends I knew it was only for a moment.
Because once when I'm alone this is me.
The foolish,
Stupid
Broken
Adassah.
Who does nothing about her broken heart but cry in pain again and again.