: Heart Wants….
"Matteo what are you doing here?" he slowly turns to me and within seconds he engulfs me.
"Matteo you can't be in my room"
I try to push him away but his hold around me tightens.
I felt him squeezing me making it hard for me to breathe. "Matteo, I can't breathe" I try pushing him off.
He let go of me resting his forehead on mine but I push him away from me making him stumble back.
"Adassah"
"Not here Matteo," I wipe off the sweat from my head.
"Can we go talk somewhere but not here?"
"Adassah" I hear Cora calling my name and her footsteps come near my room. The knop twisted "why is your room locked?" she twisted the door knop again.
Yeah so usually I don't lock my room now is practically the first time I locked it when it was just the two of us.
I quickly turn to Matteo holding his hand, with my eyes begging him.
"Not here, I'll see you in the southside 78 Street. I will text you I promise" he nodded his head. I open up the window and he climbs through it.
"Addy"
"I'm coming" I call back while my eyes are fixed on him.
Once he safely made his way down I took a deep breath and walk back to open the door.
"Yes, Cora" she rolls her eyes pushing her way inside the room.
"I am going out tonight with Jem. Do you want to hang out with us?"
"And be the third wheel" I sarcastically say and she laughs.
"Gia and Ed will be there too" I smile at her.
"Don't worry I wouldn't miss it. Mate or no mate Nah this girl still going strong" I said and she sighs replying "as always."
She went out of the door stopping holding it open "be ready, we're leaving around 8 pm"
I slump back on my bed watching the ceiling when she closes it. I checked my phone it's 5:00 pm.
I quickly send a text to Matteo to be there now and change into black jeans and a crop top then a jacket to cover my waist.
I ran downstairs "You're ready?" Cora took a sip of her juice.
"No, I have to go somewhere first" she nodded her head.
"And how would you get there" she raise the glass to her mouth.
I halt in my steps looking at her then turn back to the wall where the car keys are hanging. My eyes moving from her to the wall she shook her head
"No, you wouldn't dare girl"
Too late! I grin like an idiot and run towards it grabbing one from the wall before Cora blocks my way.
Cora groans in irritating "you know your mom is going to kill you"
I turn around and came to face with my parents’ photo hanging from the opposite wall. I quickly got on my knees my hands going up in prayer.
"Please mom and dad forgive me," I rub my hands together in front of me.
"I promise this would be my last time touching these cars. I swear by the moon goddess name" I beg as if I'm talking to them.
I stood up immediately finding Cora looking at me with narrow eyes.
"I swear to the moon goddess you are not going to be a godmother to my pups. And never to name any of them after you" she dramatically slap on her forehead and I grin at her before dashing out of the house.
I made it there on time and saw his figure standing there against a tree.
Nobody lives in this area as it is secluded. None of the pack members came here; I know this cause I found it when I have gone through my history research.
I turn off the engine 10 meters away from where he stood. Slowly I walk there taking my time and thought of how to tell him.
His head turns up and he pushes himself away from the tree and walks to meet me halfway. He embraces me when we met in the middle "you're here" his head buried in the crook of my neck.
He pull away holding my hand leading me towards the woods but I took off my hand from his.
He stops turning back at me with a confused look "we can't anymore Matteo" I blurted.
"You were with Quinn and sure you love her" he cut me off "what are you saying?" I try not to cry in front of him
"I think it's best if we stopped this. I'm sure you don't want to be with me. So please let's not be together because the moon goddess has chosen us for each other" I pointed between the two of us.
He staggered back "are you saying?"
"I'm sorry Matteo but we can't anymore" I started to walk away from him.
I heard his footsteps then held back my arm "give me a reason" he held my hand tight.
He tilts my chin facing me towards him "who is he?"
"No, there is no one" I push him off.
"I'm not letting you walk away from me Addy"
"Just let me go" he held on to my waist.
"Not until you give me a reason,"
"You want a reason FINE; we can't be together Matteo because I don't feel anything for you"
He shook his head tears now fell from his eyes. "No then you shouldn't respond to my touch when I…." he was to hold me again but I step back.
Alera howled in sadness trying to push through to take control of my body but I was strong enough not to let her be.
'I have to do this for my mom. I know she has an explanation I thought to myself.
"Why?" he reach out for me again but I stepped back
"Adassah, don't do this" a tear escape from my eyes I quickly wipe it off.
"Please Adassah don't turn your back on me, please" he cries gripping at his hair.
"Adassah" I walk away with tears now running down my face. I got in the car quickly start it.
"Why?" he shouted falling on his knees on the ground crying.
I couldn't take this aching feeling in me. Without hesitation, I drove away from there. I was almost out of his sight when I couldn't take the pain anymore, along with my nonstop tears.
I touch my heart crying with thoughts consuming me:
This is the first time I fell in love, the first time I ever wanted to be with someone and wanted something apart from what I have. On the other hand, my wolf never pressures me yet here I am walking away and it's suffocating me.
My heart, I beat on it then I stop the car turning off the engine whispering to myself
"I'm sorry mom but my heart is in pain" I mutter and open up the door running back at him.
"Matteo" he wipes off his tears standing up from the ground and started to run in my direction.
I threw my arms around his neck when I reached him.
My lips slammed on him I tasted my salted tears on his lips with sparks flaring around us.
Everything was so magical; it was like both of us are submitting to one another.
This kiss was different from our previous one. It was full of emotion and passion.
He pulls my body against him with our lips never parting.
For once in my life, I have never been sure of my feelings for any other man and right now I know what my heart wants.
My heart only beats and wants my mate because in walking away from him I realize something.
‘That I am seriously in love with him.’