"He's my mate."
There was a pregnant pause, my mom sitting without saying anything at all.
I sat there nervously with my eyes locked on my mom. The way she sat with her eyes on me is killing me inside that if there is a hole, I would find myself in it or better shrink into an ant woman.
'How cool is that?' I deadpan to Alera, who only purr through our links.
Another thing I'm glad, it's just me and her but not Cora or dad. It would be a total disaster.
When she moves to stand up, I gulp my saliva wiping the sweat of my palms over my rhombus. My legs are going numb. She paces back and forth in front of me.
Then suddenly she asked, "how far did you go with him? And how long have you two been together?"
I blink my eyes while my head goes round and round in a circle.
"Ma," I stutter, "how far did you two go?"
"Not far," she shut me up with a warning growl.
"You know what I mean, Adassah, stop playing dumb."
'Gosh, your mom is so scary when she can be,’ Alera whinny in my head.
Tossing from side to side and wagged her tail nonstop. She was beyond nervous too, and the way my mom acted is freaking the both of us out.
I took a long deep breath, "nothing happens, mom, we just kiss, make out with our clothes on," I tell her, hoping it would ease things, "and tonight was our first date," I bit my lip.
She stops, then she looks at me, and I know I kind of sound stupid. She closes her eyes with her fist clenching then unclenching them. I know my mom is trying so hard to calm herself.
"Adassah, when I ask you before why did you lie?" She asks.
"I didn't want anybody to know about it. I just want to handle it on my own. He's my mate, and so I thought he's my business alone, not anybody else," I stood up, throwing my hands in the air.
"I'm sorry if I didn't tell you, but mom, you and dad have a lot of things on your hands now."
"They are not important," she retorts quickly, "you are more important to us."
"I am sorry mom, and you know it's not just that. I also need time before letting anybody know."
She looks at me with disappointment, "Adassah, if it wasn't for your grandma, I wouldn't have known it."
"Grandma," I mutter.
"Yes! Your grandma told me that you and Matteo were pretty close over the weekend; she knew you two were mates. And if you think how, honey, your grandma lives longer than any of us," I was more than speechless.
"Yet she didn't want to interfere with you two, but Adassah, I have to know about you and him together, that's why I call your grandma.
When I heard he was there, I knew I have to call her. Forgive me sweetheart, but I need to confirm this, you know Matteo is with another girl."
"Was mom and as I said before, I can handle it". She scoffed, "then we're you able to handle him introducing another girl as his luna huh in front of the pack huh," I didn't answer, I just stood there, "were you?" She repeated.
"At first yes, I did, but only Alera was affected by it," yet she shook her head in disbelief.
"What about now?" She folded her arms, again I didn't want to admit anything yet to her, "I'm handling it very well."
She didn't say anything for a while, then she fully turns back to me, "I know I said when you meet your mate and be with him everything is magical but Adassah," she started moving close and held both of my hands together.
"Matteo, is not the one for you," she says, and I stood there speechless.
I thought this was the moment she would be happy for me. Tell me that my mate is my other half and that without him, I could never be whole and be truly happy.
When I was young, she used to tell me about those beautiful moments. If you met the one made for you and she was right cause my date with Matteo proves her words.
Yet here she is telling me I can't be with him.
"Mom, what are you saying?" I ask and wonder if this was the reason she was mad at first, she didn't want me with me.
"You can't be with Matteo, trust me," I shook my head no, "Mom, you can't say that, you and dad."
"Are mates," she finishes, "but it's different with you and him. Adassah, it's complicated."
"What do you mean it different, mom and complicated," I said with frustration while tears burst from my eyes.
She takes my hands in hers and led me to the couch, sitting us both down again.
Her hands pulled away strands of hair covering my face, "if he is someone else from the pack, I would have approved, but Matteo honey, it can never be," I started to cry.
"Why?" I sob, "just trust me, my dear, please Adassah," tears were pouring out of her eyes.
"Whatever you have with him, please stop it this instance. Break up with him Adassah, not everyone will approve of you two," mother was sobbing too in saying this.
I just couldn't believe this! Matteo and I just started our relationship yet everything just came crashing down before it even started.
Worst of all I think I am in love with him, and it is something my mother wouldn't know. Not for now, but maybe in the future.
"Adassah, my dear, one day you'll understand, but please do what I say. I'll explain everything to you, my dear," she hiccups pulling me in her arms.
"I promised," she said, and I cry in her arms while my mom kept on rubbing my back smoothly.
"I promise, my dear," she keeps on repeating.
'How can this be?' Alera kept on howling.