He held the hem of my shirt and unbuttoned the first two buttons. I am so scared. I couldn't do anything in my defense. And I don't know how and when some courage was bestowed upon me,
"I will find that kindness!"I said with determination as I pushed him away with all my force.
He looked so angry yet sad. I want to hate him but I can't because his look wasn't the same. He isn't showing his Dominance. He was Hurt. Why are you hurting so much?
He came closer before I ran away as he pulled my hair and brought me close to him. His other injured hand was holding my jaw.
"You are not getting it..." He said as he pushed me away. I backed away with a few steps and wiped off my tears.
He then bends me over to the table as he bends over me. I shuddered in dread, my legs gave up on me, my breath was heavy. He moved and whispered a scowl in my ear,
"From now on you'll suffer hell."
"And From now on I will save you." I whispered back.
And finally, he broke, his anger couldn't stand against my persistence, he yelled in a Broken voice,
"I never wanted to be saved! Leave me! I DON'T WANT ANY KIND OF LOVE!!"
He left me in his studies. I fell on the ground and began to cry. Not at myself but at his misery. How can a person be so cruel and detestable yet so broken and ravaged at the same time. Deluged in despair, he couldn't hide the pain of his voice but can show the silver fury of his action. He had blended emotions of heartbreak and rage in him. He was broken but fierce.
After crying and letting out the agony building inside me upon seeing Raymond's devastation, my eyes dried out. My heart crushed, my emotions for a minute, were connected to him as I could feel the tingling sensation of his pain surging through me as well, giving me the arousal to liberate him from the darkness he was living in.
I went to our room. He was sitting on the bed. He looked at me with pure anger but I couldn't help but to notice the tear present on the corner of his eyes as my heart began to beat so fast. He walked toward me, before I could ask or do something, he held my arms and threw me out of the room,
"Get out of my sight!" He yelled as he pushed me away. I opened my mouth to call or say something to him but he is not in the mood to listen to any of my talks.
"Raymond Pl-" He cut me off by closing the door on my face.
I bang on the door but to no avail. I leaned on it and sat on the ground as I buried my face in my knees. I sat outside the room with an almost crying face.
"Why are you pushing me away? Making me hate you. Why? When I want to save you, then why are you pushing me away?" I asked myself.
"Please don't neglect me, Raymond!" I called him and banged on the door again. "Please!"
I closed my eyes and remained like this, not moving an inch but soon after a while, I feel like I am sleeping. But before I could fall into a slumber, I felt someone picking me up. His strong scent filled my nostrils as I didn't dare to open my eyes. I held his collar and nuzzled myself in his chest, wanting to be close to him as much as I could.
He placed me on the bed and was about to pull away but I held his arms. When I felt the softness of the mattress and him leaving me, I began to say in a low voice,
"Please... Stay... Raymond.." I said desperately. I couldn't sense him for another minute but then he also laid beside me as I felt his arms wrapping them protectively around me.
"I am sorry." He whispered, kissing my neck tenderly. I snuggled to him, feeling protected in his arms and presence and smiled.
"It's okay..." I said. My eyes were heavy, I couldn't open them but I could feel his touch.
"Keep me close." I whispered. "I will, always." He murmured. "Let me be with you so I can save you from your abyss." I said in a croaky voice with my grip getting tighter on him.
"I want to save you.." I said, opening my eyes and looking at him with endless fondness. He also opened his eyes. My eyes bore in his, my breath moved in sync with his and turned into a pleasing sound of a lullaby.
"Please don't... I'm afraid of being saved..." He said in a broken manner as a tear fell simultaneously from both our eyes. And it broke my heart. Why do I feel broke? I was supposed to hate him not to feel that way but his tear of ravage evoked compassion mixed with inexplicable feeling from me. When the tear rolled down our cheeks it crumbled us apart, my soul harmonized with him and at this moment I could feel nothing but his pain.
We closed our eyes, not talking anymore as We both snuggled to each other more closely and we both fell asleep....
Violet POV:-
Why am I caring so much? I was supposed to make his life hell not to save him.I don't know what I am thinking now. Why do I want to save him? Why does seeing him like that hurt me? I can't bear looking at him.Why is he so hurt? Why is he afraid? Why is he making me hate him? Why? Why?
I took a deep breath and pulled my hair in frustration. I will save him, Even it's the last thing I'm gonna do. Why am I doing this? Because, I am his wife and I am bound to him forever. Maybe. I am not aware of my own feelings but I am sure of one thing, the desire to liberate him. The more I see his misery, his devastation, the more it hurts me and arouses the urge to be his redemption in me.
My thoughts were interrupted by my mum call,
"Hello."
"Oh Hello, my Child. How are you?"
"I am fine. How are you?"
"I am fine too, love. How's your married life going?"
"It's fine."
"Are you fine..?" She expected me to say nightmare or hell but she didn't think I would say fine.
"Yes, I am."
"Love...?" My mum asked.
"Yes Mum?"
"Are you falling for him?"