XLVI
Axel's POV
As I sit in my car, driving, I glance at her to see her finally beginning to break down. Her entire body is trembling, she's curled up in the car seat, not caring about the seat belt and slowly watching the town outside. She's always looking out the window, that one. I bet that if she were to look at me in this moment, her cheeks would be all wet from her tears.
She always cries so fucking much and it drives me fucking crazy because I absolutely hate it. I want to kill her poor excuse of a sperm donor at this moment, watching her in this state because of him. Who the fuck is fucked up in the head enough to do this to someone like her?
A voice in my head whispers you, dickhead.
I push the thought away and gulp, looking on the road.
I pull up to my house and park next to it.
I almost couldn't fucking convince her to stay with me. Why the fuck wouldn't she want to stay with me? Doesn't she love me? When her dad kicked her out, I got really fucking excited to live with her for a split second, I gotta admit that. It faded away when I saw her reaction, but I didn't fucking think she wouldn't want to live with me. Was her dick of a father right?
Will she leave me when she realizes how fucked up I really am?
No. You already told her everything, you fucking idiot.
Well, almost everything.
I huff and shake my head. If she stays with me despite what she knows, I will never tell her about the rest of the fucking story. I can't risk losing her anymore. I fucking love her. I never fucking thought I would ever love anyone.
Is she leaves, I'm fucking done.
I look at her, her soft, gentle arms crossed over her legs, her head leaning on her knees.
Her dark hair reaches to her lower back, how I love that fucking hair. I swear to God I've never felt such a soft thing as her hair.
Well, except maybe her pussy.
Fuck, last night was good. I don't fucking know how I managed not to come in my pants.
She was delicious, absolutely fucking heavenly.
And all mine.
I reach out my hand to tuck her hair behind her ear and gain her attention. She turns to me.
Her beautiful mouth, perfect brows, soft, clear skin, deep blue eyes, almost blinding me. Hers is the most beautiful face I've ever seen.
And it's littered with tears. I clench my jaw, force myself not to clench my fist because it's still in her hair.
I swear I'll kill him. I wipe her tears with my thumb, gulping.
"I hate it when you cry." I whisper, like a pussy.
She squeezes her eyes, devoid of all emotion in the moment. "I'm sorry."
"Don't apologize." I tell her. "Come, we're here."
I get out of my truck at get her bag from the back, making my way up the few steps to my house. Sophie is waiting for me by the door and I unlock it, getting inside. "We need to go to school, Axel." she says, soft and quiet voice.
I look at her. "But-"
"We already skipped it on Wednesday. Come on, it's just today then we have the entire weekend."
I sigh, knowing she's right, as always. "Fine, fuck."
I put her heavy ass bag on the floor and she grabs her school bag and puts it over her shoulder.
Reaching out, I take her soft hand in mine and go back outside, locking the door.
"Are you sure about this?" I ask her, lifting her chin so she looks at me.
While I wipe her tears, she slighty nods, her eyes squeezed shut. Her hands wrap around my hips and she pulls me closer for a hug. I hug her back, she's so fucking small but I really fucking like it.
There are so many things I want to tell her, and even more things that I want her to tell me, but I just grab her hand again and lead her back to my truck. I close her door when she gets in.
All my stuff are in my locker. It's not like I ever study and I just don't feel like carrying those fucking things with me all the time. Only when I drive us to the school and get out of my car, Sophie getting out on her side, do I remember that none of these fuckers know about us.
They're looking at us like we've grown fucking tails and fur. Sophie taking my hand in hers doesn't fucking help the situation. A small part of me wants to rip my hand from hers and deny her. But then the other part wants to take her in my hands and shoot anyone who even looks at her.
I close my eyes for a second and exhale, trying to calm down my ass. You love her, remember? Don't fuck everything up just because you're afraid of what people will think. She's worth it.
I look down at her and see her smile at me.
Her gorgeous smile making me forget everything else and everyone else. I squeeze her hand softly and take the first step towards our school, ready to face all the bitches and fuckers in here, because I don't really give a shit what they think. From now on, Sophie is everything I need and everything I care about and I know, at this point, there's no going back.
And the best thing? I don't even want to fucking go back.