Chapter 38 - A shitty father
"A man inlove is incomplete until he is married then he is finished." ~ Zsa Zsa Gabor.
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Angelo Le roux.
"I wonder if it's a little girl or boy?" My fiancée said rubbing her invisible baby bump.
Frankly I do not care because I already have a little boy and girl. My pride and joy, Ashely and Ashton Le roux. My mind replied in my head, ofcourse i would not say that out loud.
"Whatever gender, I'm happy with it." I mumbled parking in the driveway for the Bridal shop, i wasn't getting in, she insisted she couldn't drive herself because her feet were swollen and she couldn't do much since the pregnancy.
"Now now baby you are going to ruin mommy's wedding dress, that's why we need to get married soon before you start showing...right daddy?" She was speaking while running her hand on her flat belly then she turned to me and I gulped down not knowing what to say. The wedding was already a week away and I just couldn't find my happiness, i was just getting cold feet or rather another person had already claimed my heart and happiness.
"Tell me when I should pick you up okay?" I said giving her a perk on the cheek and she nodded. This was an unbelievable sight, who ever thought that Yasmine Bruyne would be this happy to have a child. I wasn't buying it or maybe i just needed a reason to get out of this mediocre alliance.
As soon as she went out of my car, i waited until she got in the shop before driving off. I knew exactly where I needed to be. I had not seen my kids in about two months which wasn't entirely my fault things had been hectic. I knew damn right Raina would yell at me and hell, i was ready for it as long as she would forgive me. It didn't matter. I was out of the country for about three days, it was entirely business but also an escape from what is going on in my life. I feel like I have no control over whatever that is going on. I feel like I'm being entirely driven by another force because this isn't what I want or maybe sometimes it is. I don't know, God knows that I don't.
*Flashback*
"Lola ?" I whispered looking at her almost sleepy body that laid on top of mine...
"Angelo ?" She whispered, her eyes instantly blinking open.
"Have you thought about the future ?" She suddenly asked, i caressed her black soft hair tucking it behind her ear and giving her a light kiss on her forehead.
"Never mind the future, let's mind right now, this moment." I held her close feeling her erect nipples on my bare chest, i instantly felt hard. I could never get tired of her, never in my wildest dreams.
"Angelo ?" She giggled when I suddenly flipped us over, leaving me on top of her voluptuous body her bare thighs open for me while my length Pointed north. Her lips seemed so inviting, her second lips seemed even more wet and inviting. I didn't know which one to take first, she blushed looking away from my eyes.
"Angelo, what are we ?" She asked when I was about to crush my lips onto hers. "We are friends with benefits." I murmured kissing her neck.
"I want more...it's been over six months Angelo." She moaned.
"You know this isn't my thing, Lola." I said with an exasperated sigh.
"But you were dating Camilla whatever or Daniella just two weeks ago." She pushed me away pulling the white sheets over her body.
"I wasn't dating Camilla Hedstrom, she was just a fling." I rolled my eyes at the jealous girl who laid beside me.
"Yes you were. Angelo if you can date all these women and still be with me behind closed doors then I don't want this anymore." She mumbled wrapping the white Sheet around her body picking up the remnants of her clothing.
"Baby come here ?" I called her and she pouted her lips.
"I'm tired of whatever this is, I'm leaving Angelo, don't call me anymore and please don't send me your dick pictures that's just-" i instantly laughed. "Nasty." She added.
"That was one time, come on Lola." I let out a hearty laugh, a smile spread across her lips. "And you liked it." She blushed.
"Let's just end this here because I know it's not leading to anything. Thanks for the experience." I had not realised that she was already fully dressed and ready to leave.
I looked on the bed side where a box of latex condoms were still available. "I thought-" she banged the door to the hotel room before I even said anymore. "I thought we would finish these but anyways we only used four." I grabbed my phone looking at who I could call.
Olivia Dahlberg, the Swedish model, uh no last time we didn't end on a good note.
Marita Vega, the Spanish brunette will do but last time we hooked up she said she would be out of the country for a few weeks.
Luba Manakova, the Russian beauty had recently got engaged but that wouldn't stop me. Argh I was certainly not in the mood to deal with the press right now and bad publicity.
Tara Wilkins, this black American Beauty would do but last time we hooked up, she left me with two bruises on both my cheeks.
Raina Williams, the innocent virgin who just left me with blue balls.
The list was endless but they all had a reason for never wanting to see me again. I had broken hearts but it wasn't a big deal in my case. A cold shower would have to do for tonight, i guess.
*End of Flashback*
Raina deserved better than the arsehole I am. I found myself hitting my head on the starring wheel continuously, i knew as soon as i got there. Hell would break loose and swallow me. This was the right thing to do only it was a few months later. Ashton must have been mad. I didn't even have a gift with me to compensate for being one of a better English word 'a shitty father'.