"She lost her life, sir was devastated. After her death, Ma'am Merlin's behaviour changed too, she turned rather prideful and arrogant and began to fight with every second person she meet, including Sir Christian. But Sir never raised his voice against her, he always smiled whenever she argue, she sometimes pass heartbreaking comments that made him depressed, he used to ask for advice to make her happy, but things got out of hand and when he finally couldn't be able to bear her, he divorced her." She said with a smile. I wonder how much of this is truth. Like she don't know why him and Merlin divorced. I smiled faintly, he is such a nice guy, he never let the world know that she cheated on him.
"After that, he was so depressed, he stop smiling, turned cold as ice. He turned hollow after losing everything. It's been three years and finally, I have seen him smile genuinely. Sir is a great guy, I truly admire him, He has suffered a lot. I am glad he's finally happy." She finished.
I just stare aimlessly at the floor. I don't know what to say. I am amazed when he is that broken, he is still fixing me when he is the one that need salvation the most.
What can I do for him? When I can't take care of myself, would I be able to save him? I won't know unless I'll try. I'll try my best to turn our relation into an everlasting moment that can give both of us redemption, so that we can be together, every breath, every moment, every life...
I closed my eyes and inhaled deeply,
"It's your husband."
"He gave us money to do this."
My breath hitched, my strength lost my body. I put a hand over my chest and began to pant. He can never do this.
'When he can defile you at the party, why can't he let you be defiled by someone else.' Another voice came from inside me. He removed this feeling from me.
'just to elicit it again.' He can never do this to me. I trust him, even if the world, even if my own self is against it, I still trust him with everything. I trust him with my life. He can never do this, his golden heart can never do something this low.
Tears brimmed in my eyes as I began to pant,
"Are you alright?" She asked rubbing my back. You have to prevail this Sophie, you can't be a burden.
I put a hand over my mouth to stop myself from crying and gave her a nod.
"You're not. I'll call Sir." She was about to leave but I held her hand,
"Please.. don't.." I whispered.
"Ma'am.." She spoke faintly. She continued to rub my back. My heart began to thump loudly. I close my eyes to let out this feeling. I have to overcome this. I clenched my hand and felt something metallic. I slowly opened my eyes and saw my wedding ring. I was out of breath but stared at it. I moved my hand from my mouth and wiped my tears. I put my hand close to my chest and close my eyes and hung my head low.
"Christian.." I mutter. Tears rolled down.
"Ma'am, I'm calling Sir." She said firmly.
"Don't.." I said shutting my eyes tightly.
"Please don't call him." I whispered. My body was trembling violently. Come on, you can do it. Whenever air touch my body, it feels like someone is touching me, toying with my dignity. No matter how much I try, I can't remove this feeling…
Christian POV:-
I quickly finished the meeting. That Henley, she arranged the meeting for the collaboration for the new campaign of ours with Mr Houston. I told her that I'll handle it but no. I hope Sophie will be alright. I don’t want to leave her alone, I want to be at her side, She cannot be away from me; she needs me.
I know it's not easy to remove this feeling. It took me three months to remove my dread from her and when this is evoked by someone else, it's much harder but I have to try hard. For the lasting moment I sought to live. For the life I strive for. For her...
I entered and saw Sophie panting, her hand over her chest, she was holding our wedding ring and Henley was rubbing her back.
"Please don't call him." She whispered but it was loud enough to be heard by me. A sudden rage took over me when I heard it. She thinks that she is troubling me, can't she get it? She is far more important than anything else!? That her worth is far greater than anything else. I am willing to leave the world behind for her.
I walked closer and pulled her in my embrace and my anger calmed down when she held my shirt. She was shaking tremulously, I felt so heartbroken looking at her like this. Shattered, with no hopes of being saved. "Sophie.." I called her softly.
"Christian..I.. I.." She began to sob. I continued to rub her back, trying to calm her; to a halt to her cries.
"I-I am.. s-sorry...I c-can't remove ...t-this feeling." She said between the sobs, clutching my shirt tighter. I embraced her and in a swift moment, I sat on the sofa as she was sitting on my lap. She was crying and I began to stroke her cheeks and began to shush her because the sound of her cries are intolerable, it crush me hopelessly,
"You don't have to remove it.." I said tugging a strand of her hair behind her ears. She stopped crying for a second and looked at me in disbelief. I couldn't help it, it's just somehow a habit of mine to say incomplete sentences.
I cupped her cheeks and pulled her face close to mine, "For that, I am here." I said, staring intensely at her. She continued to convulse, I wiped her tears and passed her a smile.
"Sophie, You just have to call my name and I'll be there for you. Never hesitate, doesn't matter where I am, what I am doing, I'll rush to your side." I said earnestly. She sniffled and gave me a nod. I held her hand in mine and kissed it, my one hand rubbed her back while the other moved to her waist as I stared at her mesmerizing features. Wanting to give her consolation that I am here for her and there’s nothing to be afraid of.