Sophia spins the bottle and it landed on Annie. Sophia seemed to be nervous and shy at the same time. Annie just waited for the dare not wanting to back out.
"Annie.." Sophia started "I dare you to get do a... split" we all looked at Sophia laughing. What kind of dare was that? The naughty and wild Sophia dare Annie to do a split? Annie is a dancer and is very flexible so no doubt she could easily do that.
"No change that you’re a dork! it’s no fun!" Ashley said and we all agree "Do a lap dance to Sophia" She smirked and we all looked at the both of them. Sophia seemed to be uncomfortable yet her eyes were excited?
Hmm.. I wonder who bended Sophia. Since Annie was so drunk, she does not hesitate to walk her way to Sophia and do a lap dance, after the dance both of them looked flustered and I can't unsee the blush they both have.
Ohmygod! A few more dares had done and we were laughing our ass off. Now, it's Annie's time to spin the bottle and to my luck, the end was on Celine. "Now, now, hot stuff" Annie smirked and looked at me and Celine.
I don’t like what she's going to do. Please don’t say anything stupid, Annie. Please please. "Kiss someone you like" And with that Celine just stood abruptly and made her way to...
Sophia!? What the actual fuck!? So, she reacts so jealous between me and Sophia because she likes Sophia!? And here I thought she still have feelings for me. My hope was jus again shattered into pieces and I felt my heart being grip tightly.
I was lost of thoughts and I wasn't looking at them, I can’t see them kissing just like that. My best friend and my Ex?? What if Sophia also likes Celine? What if Celine knows Sophia is not straight and they'll be a couple!? I can’t take this. I walked out deciding to have a walk outside. I hear them calling me but I ignore them. I still have feelings for that dork. And I was actually hoping... no.. why would I hope if she's the one who dumped me because she's not ready yet? Not ready for me, but ready for someone else huh. I can’t deny the hurt I am feeling now.
Yes, we did end things between us but I thought it'll be temporary. You know that feeling that even though you two broke up, there is still this connection that both of you felt? Basically, there isn’t anymore. Why do I have to feel this way! I hate this feeling! And I just can’t hate Celine because she's single and so is Sophia. but Sophia knows our history, she'll not betray me like that right??
But what's there to betray!! You and Celine aren't together anymore for fuck sake!!! The cold air of the night caress my skin causing a tingling sensation against my skin. The tranquility had drowned me into my thoughts as I overthink things through.
The anger and the jealousy I felt was still here, consuming the good feelings I am feeling earlier. It was so destructive that I couldn’t think straight anymore. I was pissed! I kicked the trashcan that's been my company for like thirty minutes now. I stayed outside for another five minutes before I go back. I was surprised to see Sophia and Annie waiting for me. "Hey." Sophia said walking up to me with Annie.
"You don’t have to walk away like that. You’re being obvious" Annie said half-jokingly. Unbelievable. I looked at them with disbelief.
"You guys knew what I feel with Celine right?" Both of them nodded
"It was a kiss yeah, no big deal but knowing the fact t-that she.. likes.. someone else hurts. I'm not being shallow if that's what you think, i-i just.. i don’t know how to feel. I am too dumb to still think she cares for me as much as i care for.. her?" I asked them now the three of us were sitting on the couch as Sophia held me.
Tears started to fall and I couldn't care less. I have been hiding my sadness and hurt feelings for a long time. I've repressed it and denied it the moment I walked out her door because I am the kind of person who does not want to exposed my weakness to anyone, even to her at that time specially that she’s the reason why I’m breaking. This was the bad things of repressing something because once it all came out, it drowned you, it breaks you.
"I've been acting like it’s nothing to me but i fucking hurt! I thought we both were ready for this, I thought we could fight together. You both tell me that it’s okay, but it’s not. It’s not okay to have someone you dearly love and the next time you knew she doesn't care about you anymore!" I break down at them still crying. It’s nice to cry it all out.
"Max.. We knew you're hurting. You're both hurting can't you see? You both were just blind. Both of you live each other but I guess Celine just needs time and so are you. " Sophia said worriedly as she hugged me tight "and she kissed me in my cheeks but after you left, I saw the longingness in her eyes, Max. You two are both hurting, didn’t you see that?"
I looked up at her, she just says this to lessen my pain to not make me hate her. "Don’t tell me that. She likes.. you. And I won’t stand between the two -" my sentence was cut off when Sophia speak her voice loud enough. "I like Annie, Max. I never told you earlier because I think it’s too heavy to digest. I just came out to you and I think telling you I like one of your friends would kind of messed things up." Sophia confessed and I was shocked but then my suspicions are right after all. Annie blushed by hearing this. I guess they two talked about it already. "So, you're not interested with.. Celine?" I ask dumbfounded she just laughed at me and shake her heads no.
"But she likes you. " Thinking of Celine liking someone really bring me pain. "Just talk to her Max. Clear things up. I know she broke it off but Celine's kind of indecisive when it comes to things, she's unsure of."
Annie said looking directly at my eyes. I sit up straight, hugged a pillow on the couch as if it was a cure to my longingness. "That's exactly the funny thing though, she's unsure of me. Unsure of us.
Why was she unsure of me? Am I not enough for her? Don’t I give her the satisfaction she want? Don’t I make her happy enough?
Relationships should be a two-way thing and I.. I never once like someone else like this.. I love her." Sophia gasped while Annie just sighed heavily.
"We can’t give you answer Max, only Celine will." After what felt like hours of venting all my emotions out. I finally relaxed. I felt so embarrassed that I had dragged Sophia and Annie into my mess.
"I'm sorry guys" I apologized sincerely
"You dont have to be sorry for feeling like this Max, what you feel is valid. Now go to your room, you need rest." Sophia told me as she stands up and so am I It’s already three in the morning when I decided to call it a night.
It will be a long day tomorrow.