The man was tall, thin, and black-haired with light grey eyes that matched mine. His look was hot-blooded and his face screamed no mercy. I recall these features very well; this man is no one else other than my brother.
"I am sure you know who I am, sis," he pronounced the word 'sis' as easy as drinking water, what gives him the right to call me that?
"I am sorry, I think you got the wrong person," I retorted while passing by him unlocking my door.
I closed the door behind me but before I knew it, he was already inside slipping swiftly with her thin figure.
"Are you deaf, get out," I spat out to his face.
"I did not expect this reaction, I thought you would show me tears of happiness if I showed up like that," he started.
"Do you think I am the same fragile little girl from before? Why would I even waste my time and talk to you,"
"So you know who I am," he smirked.
Fuck him, he is really wishing for a beating.
"What do you want?" I asked.
I watched him as he walked boldly into the room and pulled out a bottle of water from the fridge to drink.
"I will not speak with you when you are in this state, let us wait until you calm down,"
"I am calm, so get out,"
He ignored my last order and sat on the couch turning on the TV. I decided to ignore him thinking that he will leave after a while but he did not.
"Aren't you going back to your wife?"
"Wife?"
"Oh, I wondered where you are, were you at my house?" he asked in surprise.
"Yeah, I wanted to burn the house but I knew that going to jail after committing arson and intentional murder isn't that good of an idea"
"Ha-ha, she isn't my wife though. She is some girl I am having fun with," he commented rudely.
I snarled at his statement showing contempt on my face.
"I stopped keeping anyone close to me after that day, you must believe I left you and never came back breaking my promise just because I was a douchebag. Guess what? I never had a choice, to begin with..."
"What do you mean?"
All kinds of thoughts ran through my mind when he said that, could it be?
"I was forced to leave the country because of my stupid attitude, I was a kid at that time and I never knew that messing with the wrong person could ruin your life. I wanted to save my mum but all I caused was more damage," he pointed out.
"Is the person you are talking about is Gerald, is that why you know where I live?"
I bombarded him with every possible question I could think about, just when I thought that this geezer would not be able to deteriorate my life anymore, I was proven wrong.
"I bet you know that you are my half-sister by now, Lily. I never counted you as one though, I never blamed my mom for giving birth to you, the only thing I detested was that man who kept threatening my mom and hiding you from his brother. When I menaced him that I will inform his brother, he made my life a hell,"
"From snapping my bones to making me unable of finding a job to feed my mom, he showed me how weak I am. After mom died, he pressured me with you ordering me to fly out of the country if I want our lives saved, I was forced to obey him," he continued.
Why have I never thought of that? When all of this happened to my mother, why have I never thought about where my brother was. I was focused on how much he is useless to our family and uncaring to me; I never once believed that he wanted our prosperity. He left me unable to even state the reason just for my sake.
"I did not know, I..."
He pulled me in a tight hug that nearly broke my bones as if he was preventing me from apologizing.
"I tried to come back but Gerald never gave me a chance, I kept thinking about you these entire years lily. I blamed myself for my stupidity, you could have lived a better life if I did not make such mistakes, I am sorry, Lily. It is all my fault,"
My memory of my brother was a cold-hearted man who did not give a shit about me or my mom, he was always out working or doing things that I don't know about. I could not imagine that he is this caring; I guess all these years I just wanted someone to blame.
I hugged my brother back, this time I prevented my tears from falling. I don't have the right to shed tears of sadness, my mind was full of contempt towards my younger self and hopes of avenging my life. I do not want to run anymore, the father I never considered as a human being, the brother I thought was cruel and gave up on me, my mom whom I thought was mentally weak were all victims of that man. I ought to avenge them as well as avenging myself.
From the very beginning, my life's everything was taken by Gerald, even now, I can't be with the person I love because of him. My friends' lives are in danger and my will is as good as nothing. I have to claim my rights and seek my dreams; I will not crawl into darkness any longer, and in order to achieve that I need to go back.
I will definitely go back Shawn, wait for me.