Nengi's Pov:
Pacing around my room in total disbelief with a glass of wine in my hands, trying to wrap what happened between me and Nicholas around my head. It still baffles me how he thrust roughly into me without caring if I am hurt or not, his sudden behavior still has me at the edge. He hasn't sex me like that before, I could have enjoyed the sex but each moment that I tried he move roughly and painfully inside me, the pain was more than the pleasure though he came rushing the next day. Apologizing and all that but once I asked him about the reason behind his sudden change of mood he stilted and refused to open up to me which still seemed strange. Nicholas opens up to me no matter how small the problem is, he never resists telling me but now I couldn't say the same.
I know that something might have triggered him to pour out his frustration and pain on the sex, I can easily read someone's expression and I can see very well that he was pained and frustrated. My pain is that this whole thing started the very first day that this wench stepped her foot into this pack! She shattered my dream, my desire of having Nicholas' wife, I will crush that girl if I ever lose Nicholas, she is fucking annoying and frustrating.
"Gosh……" I slam the glass at the wall. Curling my palms in anger I cursed angrily "Shit!........"
"Madam, are you alright?" Rushing inside my room my maid asked me, Susan. Holding my head I tried getting that smug out of my head, she is fucking driving me insane.
"Madam….." Susan trying to touch me fueled my anger. How could she plan on laying those filthy hands on me? Has she lost it completely? Glaring dangerously at her, she flink back in fear "Haa….. My…. My……" she stumbled when stammering.
"What do you think you are doing……?"
"Trying to touch me with those things you called hand, right?" I blew hot at her. Shaking like a leaf she stares at me.
"I ask you a damn question!! " I coldly snapped at her.
"Ye……yes…..ma….I mean….ma," nodding as her lips twitched and felt dry to force a word she nervously gaze at me. She looks frightened, I am too innocent in front of every single soul but she here knows the real me.
She knew how dangerous and mad I could be, she knew how disastrous I was. So what still gave her the audacity to try touching me? is something I still can't get, when I become the future Luna of this pack I will match on them like a piece of trash that they are, I will step on them like a hungry lion.
Their fate will be determined by me, I will forcefully take the respect and honor that truly belongs to me. I will make them strong because they are all weak and disgust me, whoever attempts to go against me will have his or her life shortened in my palms. I will burn them alive.
"Do I look alright to you?" My eyes glowing in anger I snarled at her.
"No…yes….no…. I had had enough of her stupidity using my hand, I motioned for her to stop, nodding in fear as she fiddled with her nails. Glancing disgustedly at her I signed for her to get out, she complied immediately and closed the door on her way out. Seeing her here might trigger me in pouring my frustration on her and with her looking so weak and pale I might end up squeezing her to death.
Moving around in frustration I grit my teeth in anger, I need to finish that girl. I needed to wipe her and Derrick out of the way and that was when it dawned on me that he had been working on something lately that his parents were trying to hide away from us. I need to find out what was behind those closed doors and once I find out I will piece all the ideas, I will crush the ideas, and use it against them.
Nobody keeps a secret away from us for long, Derrick thinks that I don't know that one of the rogues that he held captive has told him everything, especially us being their leader. Though my father has no idea, I know I am very smart and that's why I know this whole thing. Derrick knew about us and that's why he has been behaving strangely since his return, and whenever he is around us, he thinks he can mask his emotions but I can see through him.
He is very poor at masking his emotions, he acts as if all things were ok. I know he was looking for a valid reason to track us down as the culprit but I will hunt him down before he strikes. But before then I need to find out why he has been locking himself indoors for days now before I will divert back to Nicholas's case. But how do I find out? Tapping on my jaw I questioned myself before it dawned on me. The person that I have been searching for has always been staring me in the face for a long time now and I couldn't see it. How could I be so silly not to notice? He thought I wasn't going to find out? My father is going to be fucking proud of me for my smart move, I overheard the conversation between Mira and Luna. More like I eavesdrop on their conversation, she thinks that she was too smart not to let other parties know about his son's sudden absence but still wonders why Mira has to ask about Derrick's way about other than her husband Nicholas.
"Is something going on and I have no idea?" Because it was obvious that she didn't look satisfied with the half-baked gist that Luna said to her, she doesn't seem happy which looks strange. Is she up to something? And I have no idea but I will have my eyes fixed on her every move. But I need someone to be my informat, my lips curled up as I remembered the one person that will do things perfectly without any mistakes.
"Lucien……"