=AGATHA's POV=
I saw Asher come and he immediately went straight upstairs. I wanted to talk to him but when I approached him he ignored me. Based on his action, he is drunk again.
Ever since Ashley came back he has been drinking every night and always out of his mind. If before I always saw him crying, now, I see him always drunk. Plus he's always hot-headed and with just one mistake he's going crazy.
Maybe this is the right time for me to talk to him so that he can stop what he is doing. He is also the only one who is hurting and struggling. Even though he was stubborn in front of Ashley he was still secretly crying. He just tortures himself every time he sees Ashley.
I followed him to his room. But even before I arrived, I heard the chaos inside. I run fast to find out what happened.
"FUCK!" he screams loudly.
The door was slightly open so I went straight inside.
I was shocked when I saw Asher’s belongings. The small glass table was cracked. The mirror of the cupboard, the tv, and other fragile.
"FUCK YOU!" he shouted again.
He was on the floor sitting in the corner of the room. As he huddled there he covered his head with both hands.
"Asher." I approached him immediately and I heard his soft sobs.
"I hurt her," he says crying with a groan. "I couldn't control myself and I was carried away by anger. I hit her so much that I almost killed her. She's hurt and asked me to kill her." I hug him to comfort him. For sure he's referring to Ashley.
"Ash, that's enough and let her go. Have pity on yourself. You are only hurting yourself in what you are doing. You are also having a hard time." He shook his head then pushed me softly and looked at me.
"How about me?" he asked like a baby. "I almost died when I lose her. You know that don't you? Now that she's here I don't know if I'll be able to cope again when she disappears from my sight." He said crying.
My heart pounded and it seemed like anytime it would explode in extreme pain. It hurts to see my brother like this who has done nothing but love. He did not deserve it. But it hurts me more because I can't do anything for him. I didn’t know what I could do to help him because I knew he only wanted one.
ASHLEY.
"Asher, you're having a hard time. You're not like that. You change when you're drunk because the pain haunts you so just let her go so you can both be happy."
"No, I don't want Agatha, I can't. I am still hoping that she will come back to me. I don't want her to disappear again. Better I will die before that happens."
"But she doesn't need you anymore. She's not happy with you and she loves someone else and it's not you so let her go."
"I just want to die. Just help me die so I cannot feel this pain."
"No!" I shouted then touched his face. I could not hold back my tears. "What will gonna happen with me, Ash? You said you wouldn't leave me. You said no matter what happens you'll take care of me. You promised to Mommy and Daddy that you wouldn't leave me."
I was suddenly scared because of what he said. Asher has attempted suicide several times since Ashley left. Drug overdose, slit wrist. And the last thing is when I caught him with the gun pointed at his head. If I hadn't come yet, that shot would have exploded in his head. Fortunately, I was able to snatch the gun at the same time as he pull the trigger.
So I'm afraid he might do it again.
"Where did I go wrong, Agatha? You witnessed how much I loved her. You all saw how I poured into her all I could. Everything I gave her. I sacrificed what we have in the US for her. Why? Haven't I been a good husband, haven't I fulfilled my role as a husband?" I shook my head.
I don’t know how to tame him because I don’t know how to answer his questions.
Even I, I have no idea why Ashley did that. I know Ashley loves him. I also witnessed how she also loved Asher. When she told me she loved Asher I knew that was true. So I knew she had a reason.
"Maybe it's my fault because I left her and prioritise my job first. I thought she would understand that what I was doing was for her. If I had any regrets about what happened, it was to leave her so she became free. It's my fault. My fault."
"Ash, it's not your fault. Don't blame yourself."
"I want her to stay. I want her back. I don't care even if she cheated with me and go with another man. Even if we start over and over again it’s okay. I love her and I don’t know why. I just love her and I will love her over and over again. Agatha, just her. She is the only one I want and I know that I can no longer love anyone else. So I'd rather die than lose her forever."
"Asher, I don't know what I'm going to do to help you. I don't know how to erase your pain."
"Help me to get her back," he said.
"Asher,"
"Help me to get her back to me. I will accept her again. I will never leave her again. Where I am she is also there. I'll give her everything she needs. That's right, that's right. Will you help her, will you Agatha? Will you help me get her back when that Charles dies?"
Asher never asked me for anything except to help him to take Ashley's heart. So I know how much he loves Ashley. I know Ashley loves him back. When she said YES to Asher she had already given everything to my brother. I know her and I know that she loves my brother.
But why did Ashley leave Asher?
Is there any reason for her leaving?
Maybe this is the right time for me to give back to Asher everything he did to me. I will find out the truth and what really happened to Ashley. The real reason why Ashley left. I don’t believe in her reason that she has someone else.
Now, I just realize everything.
Anger consumed me so I hated her and I immediately believed in her reason.
I immediately sympathized with Asher and do nothing.
Asher is unable to find out the truth because he is afraid to know that maybe it was because of him that Ashley left him. He hesitates to know that he may have made a mistake. He was afraid to face the truth so he was unable to investigate.
So I will make the way. I am the one who will uncover the truth.
"I will. I'll help you to get her back and I'll find out the truth."
"Thank you, Agatha, thank you." Then he fell asleep on my shoulder.
You're all I have, Asher. I will do everything for us to know the truth and for Ashley to come back to you.