I open my mouth and lick his finger and tasted my own juice. My tears flowed because of what I have experienced tonight. But that's all I can do. To cry and cry. Because I can't do anything to defend myself.
I have never experienced anything like this with Asher. But now I’m almost no different than a paid toy. He manipulated me and played on me anytime he wants.
"Good girl." Then Asher pulled his finger and wiped it into my face. "Next time, don't make me angry so you don't get hurt." He stroked my hair and kiss my shoulder.
"I feel cold," I whispered.
"What do you want, I can heat you up?" I shook in response as I continued to cry. "I'm getting hot too, Ashley," he said once squeezing my chest hard as he kissed me on the neck.
"Asher, please enough. Please forgive me and have mercy on me." He stopped then grabbed my face and looked into my eyes.
"I don't want to, I'm not done with you. Come with me because we're going home." Then he wrapped me in a blanket and held me then pulled me.
"No, I can't, this is my house." I refuse and take back my hand.
"You will go with me either you like it or not. You will live with me until your contract ends. That is my decision and you have to obey me." At once he dragged me but I insisted on not following him so he pulled my hair. "Why don't you follow me? Are you really tough?!" he shouted.
I can't go with him because for sure he will not allow me to go somewhere. I will have no chance to meet Charles.
"Stop, please,"
Asher punched me by the stomach and so I knelt down. I felt like I was running out of breath and my world stopped in excruciating pain. I don't seem to be able to breathe because of too much pain.
"I've been being nice to you but you're still being stubborn to me! You really love to get hurt."
Asher lifted me. I feel like a sack that was put on his shoulder. I wanted to shout but I was still gasping for air because of the pain.
We got out of the house and went to his car. He opened the car compartment and there I fell.
"Argh!" I moaned in pain when my side hit the iron that was placed there.
"Stay there, so you can't refuse."
Asher closed the compartment. I trembled in fear when all I could see was darkness.
"Asher!" I shouted while hitting the car.
The car move so I was even more nervous. "Asher, I'm scared!" I shouted in a trembling voice.
My whole body is shaking. It was as if I was going to faint with fear because I had not completely recovered from his blow. I was running out of breath and anytime I would lose consciousness because of what he was doing.
It's dark.
Scary.
My brain is confused.
"Asher!" but I could do nothing but cry.
Is Asher really doing this to me?
What happened to him?
Why is he overdoing it?
No, he didn't do it because he loves me. He loves me and he says he will protect me.
But ---
But he was with me earlier.
"Asher kill me!" I shouted as I am about to lose my breath and I feel weakened and my eyes slowly close when I felt the car stop.
I don’t know if he can hear me or just by chance.
The vehicle started again and stopped for a while. The compartment opened and the light was exposed to me so I chased my breath which I felt was slowly coming back.
"I'm tired,"
I'm still shaking. Afraid of what might happen to me. I’m even more scared now because I don’t know what else he can do.
"Are you still alive? We just playing and you're too nervous."
"I'm tired," I said repeatedly but I got no reaction or answer from him.
He lift me and carried me like a bride and then came back home. While in his arms I could do nothing but cry. He brings me to the bed and fell there. He approached me and pressed his face to mine.
"Can you still handle the torture I am doing, Ashley?" he asked softly as he caressed my face. I shook then hugged myself.
"Please enough, Asher, I am asking forgiveness and I meant it, so please have mercy on me, I am tired."
"Did you feel sorry when I was asked you not to leave? Did you feel sorry as I knelt in front of you, begging and crying? Did you feel sorry for me when you traded me for someone else?" he asked calmly.
"I'm sorry,"
"I am easy to deal with, Ash. you're the only one who's really stubborn to me. All I want is for you to come back to me and leave that man. "
"I can't, Ash. All I'm asking for is understanding that I can't afford to leave him. And forgiveness for leaving you."
"There is no forgiveness for what you have done. I'll give you a chance now, but only tonight. Tomorrow is another torture." Then he took the blanket and wrapped it around me.
"I'm nice, aren't I? So be nice, ok?"
"Just kill me, Ash, if that makes you feel better. Kill me if that's the only way you can forgive me."
He did not respond to what I said and immediately stood up. He remained standing while looking at me.
"Kill me because I'm so tired of everything that's going on," I said crying as I hugged myself then turned away from him. "I don't want to live, I want to die." He did not answer and a long silence between us. "I'm tired of living, please kill me,"
"Take a rest. I can't use you tonight because looks like that idiot make you tired." Then I heard him walk out the door as I was left alone crying.
'Charles, you're really the reason I am fighting. So please don't leave me now or I might end my life when you disappear.'