“If you think I'm going to make this easy for you, you're wrong Kahin,” I stand firm, “don't underestimate me, we're talking about my son, the reason for my being and if you think you can do your will in this, you're wrong. For my son, I am capable of being the biggest bitch in the world and I will not care if it is against his own father,” my tone of voice is nothing more than a twisted version of my original tone, “just like you can, I too can. You are forgetting the most important thing Haman, you hurt me in a very horrible way,” I run my finger over his lips, “a hurt woman is not good at all and if you add the stupid threat you just made to me,” I click my tongue and shake my head, “lethal ... That's a woman when they corner her for no reason,” I separate from him, “ready to lose again what you love the most?” Smiling sideways, I turn to get out of there. My heart wants to kill me, the fear that Kahin will take my son from me consumes me in a devastating way. Kahin is taking his fury against me and this facade I’m putting on, will not last long.
"Don't be such a fool," his grip on my arm pulls me back until my body collides with his. He’s really hurting me, “don't get into something that you won't be able to bear, your intelligence and ingenuity here will be nothing,” seeing in his eyes nothing but coldness, hurts me.
"Who are you?" I ask in a whisper, I know that I won't be able to fight him and although I'm not going to give up, I can't help but feel pain because of the way he treats me, “you promised never to hurt me and that's the only thing that you have caused me,” I hold back the tears. His expression doesn't change one bit.
"It was never my intention to hurt you, but all that changed when you hurt me too,” he presses my arm more, it's as if he would like me to disappear from the face of the earth.
"Kahin, that's enough," I scream trying to let go, when I do so, I fall to the floor with force, I look at him with fear. I do not recognize him, “I am not going to leave you, you are not going to take my son from me, you will not. Today I am leaving for Italy and you will not see me again,” I get up quickly and when I see that he is coming after me, I run, the fear I feel for his lack of control overcomes me.
"Calm down, son of a bitch," Malcolm interjects before he reaches me. Letting out the tears, I go to Lucy and take my son from her.
"Malcolm take me home. I have to go get my mother and get out of here right now,” not wanting to stay there anymore, I leave the place and get in the car. I wipe my tears, Kahin Hamann has brought out his true personality and I didn't like it, I don't want my son to grow up like that. I can't allow Kahin to raise my son like him.
"I know you're angry, I know you're very upset right now by how Hamann behaved, but you must be smart little one, leaving the country will only make this easier and more enjoyable for him,” Malcolm's words leave me cold. More pleasant?
"I can't believe he enjoys hurting me. Malcolm, you know how things are, why do things like this? I had planned to tell him that he was our son and he would not let me do it. Why now behave that way when it is not his role? He is being very unfair and that same phrase that his sister and he told me I am going to apply. Just as you love, you also hate yourself,” my heart constricts in my chest full of pain and resentment.
"I can't get into this, but if I can avoid being stupid on the part of both of you, I will. Let him do what he wants, he would never take your son from you and you know it.”
I put the anger aside and think about it more clearly; Kahin always does things for a reason. “Sure!" I almost yelled, “if he recognizes the baby legally, he will not allow me to take him out of the country, that's why his words will force me to stay here whether I want to or not, it's a damn thing," I grunt madly, he's making me pay and if I do not put myself on the batteries, he will achieve it. Malcolm doesn't say anything else, he knows I'm right in everything.
The road seems tremendously long for me, my son is very uncomfortable and I don't know why, he keeps complaining and whining. When we arrive without thinking about it I get out of the car and go to my mother's house, Malcolm for his part goes to the house of his wife, my aunt.
"You have arrived daughter, you had me worried," my mother gets up and takes the child from my arms, “what's wrong?" She looks at me, I try not to cry and that makes my chin tremble. “Sweetheart, are you okay? What's wrong? Have they hurt you?” My mother checks me with her eyes, she is worried and I told her to calm her down.
"Kahin knows the baby is his, he knew right away and made me believe he didn't know. I thought I would tell him, but I did things wrong, I responded to my sunshine being with him, he was enraged and made sure that my sunshine realized I was with him,” my mom pulls me and sits me on the couch, “he got crazy and when I decided to tell him about our son he simply did not allow me and now he is letting himself be dominated by his anger, he is going to take my son from me mom, he has threatened me and he wants me to feel what he does,” tears overflow from my eyes.
"Daughter," my mother whispers hugging me,"I told you, you should have told him since you arrived."
I look at my mother, "how to do it, Mom? I thought he had a wife and was expecting a child. I didn't think it was all a misunderstanding,” my mother strokes my hair.
"I will not leave you alone, you are strong and you will know how to turn this situation around." What my mother says to reassure me only clarifies more that I cannot. Kahin has much more power than me, he has everything that is needed and I have nothing, only money and that will not help me, I do not know people who can help me against the fury of Kahin Hamann.
"What's wrong?" Carla runs in. "Malcolm told me everything. Did he hurt you?” She approaches me and looks at me like my mom did.
“Not physically,” I look at my arm and the bruise appears, “but emotionally, I now know a part of Kahin that I would have liked not to know,” I look at my friend, “you must help me, tell him that he cannot take my son away from me. He…he's to blame for everything,” I complain.
“What are you talking about? It was you who left, it was you who hid his son from him, it was you who gave his son a father,” my friend's words hurt me, everyone has been willing to hurt me without regard and that hurts twice, “skinny, you know we warned you, you didn't let us give you explanations and you didn't want to tell him since you arrived. What reaction were you expecting?”
Drying my tears, I look at her more seriously, "he's not angry because I kept the baby from him, his anger is because I answered another man’s call while I was with him and it’s what hurts me the most, how can he fight for his son just because I answered another man’s call? He should fight, yes, but because I hid the existence of our son from him,” hearing my son cry, I take him from my mother, “I just have to be strong, I'm not going to make it easy for him, if he wants to harm me through my son is wrong. I'm not going to leave, I'm going to fight for my son even if it costs me everything,” getting up, I go to my room, today is being a horrible day, every time I feel that my life improves something always happens and everything fucks me up. Kahin is marking a full stop with me, I will not forgive him, I cannot believe that I gave myself to him that easily, I cannot believe that he made my sun listen. "God, he must be angry, very angry," I try to call him and I have no results, his mobile is turned off, it is not possible, it does not pass after 15 hours. Emotionally exhausted, I throw myself into bed next to my son, my life couldn't be getting worse.