agnelo
I go back inside the apartment where the biggest party is still going on, I feel a little dizzy from the strong drinks I've had, what the fuck am I doing with my life? I've never been like this for any woman! What the fuck did Olivia do to me? I don't know how to explain what I felt when I saw Salvatore kissing her on the lips, I know they are together now and I needed to follow my life as it did, but I chose the worst way.
Hastily put on decent clothes and run towards the stairs. Waiting for an elevator at these times isn't worth much, I need to know what brought her here when I thought I'd never see her again, hell! The scene she saw, if it was me I would kill the son of a bitch who touched her. I run to the garage and find her car leaving, driven by adrenaline and despair I get in front of the car, she looks at me furiously and throws the car at me.
I fall to the floor feeling pain in my buttocks.
"Fuck, Olivia!" I growl trying to get up.
"Shit, did I hurt you?" She is standing in front of me looking worried.
"I am not well." I speak and get up.
"Phew! I thought I was going to have to apologize for running you over on purpose!" She speaks and makes a move to get back in the car.
"Hey Hey!" I grab her arm but she pulls it out of my hands abruptly.
"Don't touch me, not when you were just minutes away fucking two women in your house!" she exclaims and I notice her red eyes.
"Why did you come here?" I ask and by then my heart is already beating like a drum.
"For that!" She screams and takes something out of her bag and throws it in my face.
"What is that?" Indago picking up four long objects from the floor.
"Are you going to tell me you don't know what a pregnancy test is?" I widen my eyes and swallow hard.
"What does that mean?" Astonished I ask and I don't want to hear what will come out of his mouth.
"I'm pregnant. I came here just to tell you, but I regretted it as soon as I saw that shit up there." She exclaims with tears in her eyes.
"How dare you come to my house to affront me like this? Did you just want to pass on my face that you're happy with another guy now? That he's the one you're having sex with and he's even carrying his child now ? " I see her face die, her gaze suddenly clear and anger arises.
"How could I ever fall in love with you?" She leaves the question and gets into the car, starting it.
I'm lost here in the midst of whirlwinds of thoughts that oppress me insanely. Doubt gnaws at me, the pain of loss is even stronger now, I sit on the parking lot floor and for the first time in years, I shed tears for a woman, for Olivia who has moved on with her life, more certain than ever .
It's the worst pain in the world, imagining that someone else is tasting the taste that I'm so addicted to, and above all remembering that I had her in my hands and hesitated, I didn't value it, damn I thought she too just wanted sex, to be sincere, she never charged me anything, never anything demanded from me, apart from me with my harsh words that hurt her intensely.
Me with my darkness, with my evil, dryness, internal rot, I decided that it wasn't good for her to be with someone like me, I thought it would be easy to leave, to leave when I got sick, and who said that was possible? She's the most beautiful thing that's ever come into my miserable, perfect life, motherfucking Salvatore is one lucky fuck.
I want to run after that car and fuck her until she begs for mercy, make her scream with pleasure in my arms, tell her that I... I... I fell in love, that I... Fuck! I love her.
And it fucking hurts like it hurts.
olivia
And once again the attempt at conversation was a failure, imagine, you go to your baby's father's apartment and come across two women, one kissing and the other sucking his dick. This is very difficult to forget, it is a scene that for those who love, traumatizes, bleeds inside and corrodes any kind of caution and consideration.
It had already been clear for a long time what kind of thoughts he had about me, today that was only confirmed, since when he saw the tests he thought I was pregnant with Salvatore, a man I never managed to go to bed with who walked in my thoughts and made my body on fire was only him.
I'm determined, I did my part but Agnelo didn't cooperate, I'm going to move on with my life, work to take care of this child and who knows as soon as he's born, I'll leave the country, take a break from England, maybe Spain isn't a good option?
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The next day I wake up with my head about to explode with so much pain, take a painkiller and get ready for another day at work. My cell phone was turned off all night, I don't know if anyone would call me, but to avoid anyone I preferred it that way, the only thing I need is to be alone for a while, organize my thoughts and think about the direction I'm going to take my life.
When I arrive at work, people walk back and forth, some are smoking outside, others are arguing over the phone, heels make an impact sounding a loud noise inside my ears, and I try at all costs to concentrate on my work .
"Olivia! There are more documents for you to sign, after that there's a meeting with all the managers in Doctor Salvatore's office." The secretary catches my eye.
"I already know, thank you very much." I give a sarcastic smile.
"Doesn't look like it, there's only half an hour to go." It implies.
"Sometimes I think you're confusing positions here? Who's the manager and who's the secretary again?" I ask raising my voice and she shuts up.
Excellent. I'm already tired of this woman giving me orders on a whim, is it my fault if she dies of love for my boyfriend? I mean ex boyfriend.
The minutes pass like slugs, I'm sitting listening to the whole litany of the meeting, I glance at Salvatore who completely ignores my presence, I feel a sinking in my heart, maybe I was really starting to like him, without realizing it I feel tears wetting my face and a crying fit wanting to hit me, I swallow hard and hold on for as long as I can until the meeting is over.
When it finally ends, I get up in a hurry and run to the bathroom where I cry until I can't breathe anymore, then I wash my face and go back to my room, as soon as I enter there is a note on top of my desk.
"Come to my office. -Salvatore." My heart races and fear consumes me.
Will he send me away? I can't lose this job, here they pay me very well and without it I won't be able to live. I push away any kind of negative thought and head towards my boss's office, before that I have to go through the complicated and well-designed floors.
I see myself facing the door and take a deep breath, knock lightly and then I hear the husky and sexy voice that always sounds from inside.
"In between." He speaks in a hard tone.
"He asked me to come..." I speak softly.
"Yes, close the door." He orders and stands up.
"All good." I answer and bite my lower lip nervously.
When I finish closing the door and look at him, I see him very close to me, I look up trying to hold his gauze and he kisses me, sticks his tongue in my mouth and kisses me madly, I separate our lips and look confused .
"Heavens! What was that?" I exclaim staring at him.
"A fucking kiss." he growled.
"And why are you furious? You called me here, you kissed me." I'm wondering about all of this.
"I want to forgive you, I want to be with you. But I'm too angry for that. Go away, go back to your room." He orders and I leave immediately.
I'm starting to get scared of working here.