Weeks passed and we are heading back to Casey's place, his Mom hugged me very tightly and Alexa sadden because she said she will going to miss me, his Dad just said take care and he also said that if his son did something stupid to me, I will just give him a call and he will talk to him, Tanner? Well he didn't say anything but tease he just said that I can't go back there again unless we're not still together while Tyler his son give me a flower that he pick on their garden I smiled and said thank you to all of them, for letting me stay there for almost a month and weeks, and since vacation is over it means back to stress life, back to hell, back to school.
And I'm still worrying about what changes will going to happened now.
And yeah another week have passed, and since we get back here, I noticed that Greyson was always coming late every weekend and he changed.
We still talk sometimes but whenever we did, he always need to go, his always in a rush or worst he have a phone call.
I evenly try to break up with Cody but it didn't go it too well, because when I'm about to tell him, he surprised me with our 3rd monthsary with his family, and that day was his Mom's birthday and they are happy so it goes... I don't want to ruin their happiness, I didn't get any chance to say it, and the second attempt Alli his sister was in the hospital she got in a car accident but she's fine now and the third his mom talks to me about Cody that he really loves me and blah, blah, blah so my conscience hit me up.
Cody was really a sweet guy, he treats me like a princess, I know every girl deserve to treat like this, but I think I don't deserve him.
As we walked in the campus of school, Cody keeps talking and talking about what did he does in vacation, and asking me some stuffs that I did but I said I didn't do anything but eat and sleep, he just laugh at me.
Greyson mom was a good cook, she really was. And no wonder If I'd gained a weight.
I stopped from walking when I saw Greyson looking good as hell, walking with his hand on his pocket with bag on his right shoulder, add the fact he is wearing sun glasses but then he removed it and hang it on his shirt, looking like a cool dude.
My heart starts to beat faster when our eyes met and he look at Cody and back to me and smiled at me as he continued to walk.
He didn't stop walking until he passed by us, I cant help but my eyes followed him, I miss to hang out with him.
"Are you alright?" Cody ask me as his eyes looking at Greyson's back too
I nod slightly as I look at him, he took a deep breath and smiled at me, "You know if he's not a gay, I will probably get jealous on him." I stared to his oceanic blue eyes but he looks away as we started to walk again, he's not gay anymore Cody.
I'm so stupid yeah I know, I'm with my boyfriend yet I'll still fantasizing another guy.
Cody didn't talk that much like he used until I reach my class he said goodbye and that's it. I feel guilty okay?
During the class discussion my mind is floating, and wonder how this biology can explain the physical pain you feel in your chest when all you want to do is be with someone.
I really don't know what to do.
Our professor leave a multiple home works before he leave the room and all my block mates can do was moan in frustration.
After class, Cody was still the one who brought me home but he didn't say anything, I said thank you and he just smiled but I know it is a forced smile.
I lamely went in the house and Valerie was on the living room with her laptop on her lap, she glance at me a couple of times and sighed as she placed her laptop to the center table
"Wanna talk about it?" She said, do I want to talk about it?
"I think this isn't a perfect place to talk about it." I said and she chuckle, we went in my room and told her about what I really feel and what happened to my vacation with Greyson.
I didn't know that I'm opening this about to Valerie but hey I did. I didn't know that it feels so good that you have a one friend that you can trust and tell something about you, how you really feel, what's your problem kind of thing, I really hate opening about this because I don't want them to feel pity of me or whatever. And plus the fact that I don't trust anyone but me, but look I did and I tried and its not that bad as I think I guess. And its a relieve you know?
"So he's a bisexual now?" Val ask me
"I don't know?" I shrug, her smile was ear to ear and I can say she's blushing her reaction was priceless when I tell her about me and Greyson
"Wait. So it means you guys did the thing?! Wait! My heart flutters!" She said in a loud voice while still smiling like an idiot while holding her chest like her heart was going to escape to hers
"Hey lower your voice, no we didn't but almost!" I exclaim
"I knew it! I know that there's something between you and Greyson! I know that there's something is up but you guys are both in denial as shit." She said
"He likes you and I know you like him too but why you're trying to push him away? I don't get your logic girl." She added
"Because I'm with Cody!"
"Then break up with him duuh its not a biggie problem!" She rolled her grey eyes at me
"I don't want to say the I liked Greyson too while I have a current boyfriend its a bad thing!"
"But you guys kissed a multiple times before, isn't that cheating too?" She said rolling her eyes on me she have a point, I really hate the fact that she's damn right in this.
"You're the one who's making it all complicated Khryz, but holy fucking shit! My ship is so real!" She said happily and cheerfully
"Stop that you're not helping." I said
"Oh come on! I told you GreyZel is so REAL and look it happened. Just need a verification break up with your current boy and that's it. Anything would be going smooth in your own way." I didn't know if Valerie was really helping right now, but I want to be with him.
I want to be with Greyson so I think, I need to clear the things out before its too late.
What should I gonna do first?
Tell Greyson that I feel the same? Or break up with Cody first before I tell Greyson what I really feel?