Elena Davis,
That soul-petrifying sound of a bomb froze my all consciousness, making me push back over the grass with heavy impact. I could only hear my ears ringing, laying on the ground without knowing what I should know. I was hearing someone’s fluctuating heartbeats, maybe mine, but regret wasn’t mingled with him. He used to say; I belonged to him. Then why was he left alone? Has he really forgotten about me?
His death is the truth of my reality. Then why am I still alive? I allowed him to enter my soul just to leave me like this? This pain was unbearable, a stab that slashed my entire life, making me bound to bear this pain until I took my last breath, making me bound to him entirely.
The reason my heart was acting so strong was gone now, leaving me alone in this world where I don’t belong without him. Sab was covering me from the impact, but whatever worse can be done is already done. Everyone was running around yelling and screaming, but my world had silenced for the rest of my life. Alex was screaming his name like a madwoman roaring her throat, crying her heart out, kneeling helplessly.
Don’t you want to collect my teardrop again over your fingertip? To compliment them while threatening me at the same time? You did before in office, remember? Then why aren’t you approaching me this time? Are you angry with me? As I didn’t allow you to enter my room. I won’t do that again. You haven’t left a few seconds from my gaze and I started missing you so much, Arius. I will not survive through this pain. Don’t leave me, please.
God, I never had doubted you in my entire life. You took my birth parents with you, my adopted mother with you. I haven’t said a word about that and accepted whatever hardship you gave me to live. I have passed through every hurdle you threw at me, making you proud.
I had always relied on you, accepted everything you put in my way, considering your wish. If my faith ever had a bit of value in your eyes, then I beg you to return my Arius to me and take my life if you wish.
I dared to lift my head to look where my Arius was standing, hoping that he would have ducked it in time, but there was nothing. His car was burning vigorously, washing the surrounding environment. Its flames were reaching the sky, leaving me on this ground, motiveless. How selfish they can be. I was staring at his car, words too left me alone.
My gaze wasn’t leaving his car where he was standing; he had that smile that had the power to escalate my heartbeats. Streams of tears started drenching my cheeks, spilling from my soul, which he used to touch to calm me down from my pain. My tears were flowing, but he wasn’t emerging from the fire to clean them as he used to. Haven’t you said Arius, I don’t have the right to cry? I beg you please come and I promise not to cry again ever.
Those flames weren’t unknown to me. I had seen them before, there were the same sucking my life out just looking at them. My breathing shoots up, making it difficult to steal the air. My Arius is burning there. Not again, not again, please. Hung up there, I am coming.
“ARIUS” I yelled, struggling to get up to reach him. I can’t afford to lose him. What I have left in this world to treasure beside him? My life? Which was already worthless without him around me. I was running to steal my Arius from this cruel fate. Unknown energy had surged in my body, forcing me to get him on which I survive.
Screams of women in pain rang in my ear. She was burning her entire body in that fire. I collapsed on the ground in front of the car, which was fading from my eyes, taking my consciousness with it. Every ounce of energy had left me, making me energy-less. Two faces were lingering in my eyes. One was my Arius, and that burning woman was familiar but still unknown to me. Her cries were touring my already shattered heart, testing its last fiber.
My pitched heartbeats became a hindrance between my Arius and this worthless life. Concerned tones were reaching my ears, but my attention was fully concentrated on my eyelids, forcing them to stay open. I could see him running towards me. Fighting to bear one longer second to see him again, but my fate was against me, which was pulling me into the darkness where he didn’t exist.
A lifeless body of mine was floating an unknown dimensional river, taking me with it in the new world. I was seeing a young girl; she was wearing a cute white dress. A beautiful, bright smile was playing over her lips. Her laugh felt like a burble of water.
As the stars twinkled in her eyes, she had that shine in her eyes. She was searching for someone looking here and there, constantly clutching her dress tightly in her tiny fists. She smiled at me as she was looking at herself with a known gaze. I was meeting my younger self. She turned back to a woman who was running at her with a frightened face.
She was calling her mom. Thunder was strict over me, as she called her mom. She had the same set of eyes. It didn’t take a moment to believe my mom was standing in front of me. I tried to take a step at her, but she ignored me and hurried to my younger self, pulling in her embrace.
I couldn’t see anything besides these two figures running from someone with their pale faces. Younger me started crying, hugging mom, but mom’s attention was captured by the sound of footsteps coming from the dark. She was struggling to run faster than she was and sneaked inside the small hut, which appeared out of nowhere.
Sweat was broken all over her face from fear. She was peeping out of the window with a horrified face, trying to calm the younger of me. Was someone chasing her? Her dress was dirty, hair was demolished. She looked at me fondly, kissing her, repetitively showering her with the rain of her tears.
Let’s play, hide and seek, ok? She asked, forcing her to calm down. I saw myself promising mom not to make any noise until she finds me. Kissing her cheek, I ran to hide inside the cabinet. With a thud sound, the door of the hut falls open. Few men entered with guns covering their faces asking her something but mom refused.
Constant punches and kicks couldn’t open her mouth. Younger me was watching everything from the creek of the cabinet. Tears were rolling down over her face and her hand was tightly clutched over her mouth, forcing her to stop her sobs and muffles.
Mom collapsed down, blood was all over her face, dressed as she had bathed in it. A small flick of fire ignited in darkness, scaring me and in front of my eye, mom drenched in a fire. I ran to her, but the entire hut caught the fire, swallowing everything it could.
Her screams were resonating in my mind, making everything around me spin. I tried to lift my arm, but that darkness burned down me too with it.